James K's Experience

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Experience description:   

I had just moved in with a few of my female neighbors, because I had got kicked out of my apartment. I had stayed up all night as I normally do, because I always seem to be searching for something. .or in other words I feel as if I had left something uncompleted. .during the previous day/night.

To sleep I usually clear my mind, and move into my place of silence, complete darkness. within a few minutes "while my body is awake i.e.. I know I'm not dreaming and I am conscious or whatnot." I begin to see as if my eyes are open, or through my eyelids," but I'm in a different place, places I've never seen before "always a different place" at first this was scary thing for me, but it's been happening at least once a week since it first started.

So I observe my surroundings "usually in Awe, of the beauty" and I feel myself drifting off.

On this one particular night I had felt as if I had actually awoke in a place I've never seen before, and I saw myself standing in front of me. I was in a "praying on knees position" i.e. not the way I was sleeping, or in the room I was sleeping in I looked at myself "in front of me" and tried to speak, but instead the words moving my lips moving "the me on my knees" the standing ME's lips moved. What was I trying to say? Oh MY GOD! I looked around to see if there was anyone else or anything else. I saw nothing but a wooden chair behind me that appeared to be an antique. Feeling there was nothing to do here I remember walking into myself. Then I remember the most intense falling feeling I've ever felt.. it lasted for what seems like a really long time. . I then awoke. . and had what I'd describe as mixed brain messages. . i.e. thoughts were colliding inside my head as if I were resorting them it took me a good 5 minutes to "collect" myself. I then closed my eyes to try to go back to sleep. .it almost seemed as if I was being forcibly put to sleep. .the next thing I remember I was holding my head by the hair in my left hand and laughing about it. I somehow "without the head on my body" looked at the bottom of the head and it was a graphic depiction of a the bottom of a head that had been cut from the body. Oddly I was not afraid. . that's all I Logged from the experience.

After I awoke I felt invincible, and as if I could conquer the world. I have felt this way since this occurrence to this day.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  Uncertain

      What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate?  Seems as if i'm missing a piece of the puzzle. .perhaps the dog chewed it up.

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  No

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Was aware of surroundings, and that they were not where i was sleeping.

Seemingly seeing a show on the back of my eyelids.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  When i was younger my dreams were of places ive seen. . just slightly off. . ie. some things were out of place. . this seems more like somewhere someone has taken me oddly. . I cannot explain it's a feeling and i'm no Poet

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  Yes

Describe your appearance or form apart from your body:  Explained Above

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  At first fear. . then a sudden "Everything's Okay" hard to explain in words

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  No sound at all; ever during any of my experiences. .

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  Yes

      Describe:  I see often see what i'd describe as paradise exactly as i'd have it be. This happens once or twice a week. I'll still be knowingly conscious "i just laid down and cleared the thoughts of the day from my head, until there is nothing but black. Then it's as if i see through my eyelids, but i'm in another place "paradise. so to speak" I perceive it as another plane.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes

      Describe:  Time is of no object. .I'm just there, and loving it.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

      Describe:  It is very easy for me to imitate a language, or use the correct accent now.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

      Describe:  Free to roam

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No

      Describe:  No, but since i was around 13 I fight with myself when i look in the mirror about things i've done during the day as if there are two of me. Not physical fighting just me disagreeing about something i did, or said. I don't speak it's more of an inside battle.

Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  Closer to my Family now. .   I can  say what i'm thinking, not what i'm thinking about saying :o)

Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  My Arabic friend tells me i have a genie inside me he can see it in my eyes.  I laugh, and laugh. .. He told me it's true. . and they are all around us. So i told him if there is a carpet riding genie in this room DO something, Move something, or Make me say something Stupid. Oddly after i said that. .i spoke the words "To Late" like it was a reflex. I DID NOT THINK THAT IT JUST LEFT MY LIPS! So here I am left with nothing but confusion. .

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Just far less emotion or compassion toward females.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  Best: Not caring about anything, at peace Nothing was bad beside the initial why do i see myself.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  No

      Describe:  Just have a better understanding of the way people are, become, or can be.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

      Explain:  You must get a lot of these. .

Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.oberf.org questionnaire?  i don't know how to make it make this a question, but i'd like to know if others see things as they begin to goto sleep through their eyelids as if they were awake, but in a beautiful place they have never seen before.