Experience description:

Home in my bedroom, I am able to control when I want to have my body experience. I know this is not normal I am confused my doctor doesn't know how to explain it, I prefer when I am laying on my back to do it but if im reclined on a chair that's fine , as long as my face is towards the ceiling at any angle.

When I want to do it , I have a habit of doing it twice before I sleep now for past 3 years. It only takes bout 1 min to get started now for me after I close my eyes. The process in itself is really weird I really cant explain by typing        

I get so scared im moving to fast I usually forcefully open my eyes after about 1 minute I think 1: 30 seconds farthest im going ..I literally feel like im going to shatter to a million pieces as I keep accelerating.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     How I start it and the feeling of it,... and ESPECIALLY how I maintain myself while im "zooming" up its really weird. I think I might go to a federal brain doctor so they can see what my brain does cause I know this is not normal. It's only when I do this certain thing with my head and thought. That's better actually its more of a way of thinking. Then acting on it with my head I swear I cant explain this by words... but then it eventually feels like half my body is splitting from my real body on the bed and then it starts flying up at god knows how fast but I never hit the ceiling and I literally feel how fast im going. like on a car on a rollercoaster

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Perfectly conscious

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   can be I had this feeling in dreams plenty of times in the past but for about 3 years I'm able to do it when I want..but I'm always scared of maintaining it as I said above I feel like I'll die ..I know that's not how death fees but the feeling really is something foreign ..but it feels good at the same time

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes    

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           yes at time when I