Heidi S's Experience
I was floating in the
dark sky, feeling as though I was just a soul, with no physical body. I felt as
if I was the universe-that everything in the universe is just one thing. as if
you took everything that is and made it into a ball (like taking play dough and
squishing it all into a ball). it felt as if I was the actual universe. I felt
like I was floating in the dark sky and bright stars were in the sky, and I
started to absorb them like rain drops on my face (except I was not in physical
form, I just was there as a soul, I'm assuming). the stars which were like rain
drops were all being absorbed into me, which felt as one thing only. it was all
one thing, even though falling stars/rain drops were becoming me. it made me
think that when we pass, we might possibly become one with the universe and we
are here, and we're everything. when I came back I was overwhelmed with emotion,
and was instantly brought to tears and couldn't understand why. I felt as if I
understood what can happen to us when we die, like I received some sort of
answer. trying to explain the oneness I felt with the universe was extremely
difficult, but really felt compelled to let everyone know exactly what happened,
and how it really was something that happened consciously. if was a positive
experience and I want so badly to experience more in the future.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Uncertain neurontin taken for nerve pain at night can make you a little confused when you first start taking it, however I've been taking it for awhile.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes the concept of being one with the universe. how everything is just one thing. how I was everything during the OBE.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was conscious, on my back, in my bed, having sex.
Was the experience dream like in any way? sort of except I knew I wasn't asleep and the feeling was intense and emotional. I am a huge, vivid dreamer so I knew this was something else.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes a soul, no physical body, I just was there. I knew I was there. just as a mind.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt I had more knowledge about life afterwards. the experience made me cry immediately after. trying to explain to my husband, I had to keep pausing to try to understand what just happened. it was a confusing but positive experience.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? not at all
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Uncertain I was in space
Did you see a light? Yes bright stars
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? touch became just an internal feeling. add the stars/rain drops fell onto my face, I absorbed them and felt as if I was the actual stars/rain. they became me.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I felt I understood that everyone and everything is one thing, and you become everything once you die. everything will always be one thing, physically and mentally.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain the next night just thinking of what happened I focused my eyes on the air in front of me and saw movement within the air-as if it was spirits as just moving matter in the air. I thought I was seeing it move towards me and I felt as if I was really seeing it more clearly as the movement was moving faster and panic came over me as I thought it was getting closer to me. I tried to imagine it as a spirit of a loved one and the panic disappeared, and I hoped I would feel it on my arm as I thought it was approaching me. I felt my arm was getting heavier, thinking maybe I was feeling it. no pain.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes I feel less scared if death (even though it's still very scary to me). I am starting to believe that we just become everything when we pass. still very obsessed with questions regarding life and the universe, existence and reality. I had felt this way before the experience ever occurred.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? still agnostic atheist. I don't necessarily believe in a god. I thought before that we just die, and were are no longer anything. but now I think maybe we just become everything.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I feel I know a little of what may happen to us all. I also feel as if life and existence questions will consume me for life.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I think a little skeptic. but intrigued for sure.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? overwhelming - happiness-confusion-awareness--all in one
What was the best and worst part of your experience? feeling as one with everything was a cool feeling.