Hannah M's Experience
I was attending a silent spiritual retreat at a Buddhistic centre in South Devon, England. The retreat involved a great deal of sitting meditation and each morning a period of Kum Nye exercises (this is a type of Tibetan 'yoga'). During one of the exercises, when I was standing with waist bent at about 90 degrees to the vertical and both arms stretched out forwards, I experienced tension in the back of my neck. I made an attempt to consciously relax the back of my neck. I suddenly experienced what I knew intuitively to be memories from before my incarnation in this life. I felt very emotional and had to leave the room and go back to my bedroom, where I sobbed for an extended period. The reason for my grief was that I had received knowing of my state before incarnation. I was in a most beautiful state of being where there was no fear at all, only love. I was with a small group of beings (not sure of the exact number, around 5 or 6 is my best guess) - the beings were not in a solid form but made of colored mist, the colors I remember were blue and pink and peachy colors. My body was similarly not solid but misty. I knew I had to go somewhere - to Earth was my interpretation; I was not afraid but excited by the prospect; and I felt that the other beings (who felt something like a family or perhaps more like a 'soul group') were all supporting me and encouraging me.
My grief was caused by the difference between my experience of this 'before incarnation' state and the 'embodied human' state - I longed for the state of blissful, fearless love which I had been in before.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words?....Uncertain....Difficult to explain the depth of love and safety in this pre-conception dimension
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?....More consciousness and alertness than normal I the first few moments....I had more sensitivity and awareness of this different, pre-conception dimension
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. It was different in that I had an intensity of inner vision/memory
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. No difference in hearing
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience?....Two extremes: 'being in unconditional love and being made of unconditional love'; then being in grief at no longer being in that dimension.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an unearthly light?....Uncertain....Well the light in the pre-conception space was different. Cannot really describe it.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin As described, I encountered several beings who had bodies of coloured mist and who seemed highly conscious
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?....Yes....This is a hard one to answer - actually the experience was of a memory of before life, not during my present incarnation
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?....A clearly mystical or unearthly realm....As described above, the place I went to seemed to be a spiritual realm which was where I had inhabited before incarnation.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?....No....
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?....No....
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?....No....
Did you come to a border or point of no return?....No....
Did scenes from the future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....Something possibly about a purpose (see above) but no details
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Slight changes in my life....The experience was confirming that existence is multi-layered, deep and contains many mysteries. It did not alter the way I live my life but it is always somehow there, and maybe continues to inform me in some subtle way.....
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?....Uncertain As I continually work on personal development and believe I have grown in sensitivity, it really is not possible to assess this
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I really cannot remember. Only with a very few people and some years after.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Yes I have been interested in the paranormal, read books etc from teenage years. What I had previously read/experienced seemed to me to have no bearing at all on this incident
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:....Experience was definitely real My view of the total reality has never changed (it was 20 years ago)
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience was definitely real....Reasons explained above
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....No....
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes I have experienced strong unconditional love in the presence of several Avatars
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Yes I do think your questions are very comprehensive
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? The overwhelming love felt in the spiritual realm was a revelation
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?....It seemed to me that another dimension opened suddenly and became available to my normal waking consciousness; like I was experiencing two dimensions at once.