Hannah L's Experience
in 1990-1992 I was unhappily married to an overbearing man. One night I was lying in bed asleep. The next thing I knew I felt awake but heard a loud buzz in my ears, I couldn't move and I had pins and needles in my hands. I felt I was being dragged from my bed by my left hand, but couldn't see anyone in the room. I was extremely frightened. I then found myself in front of my wardrobes full length mirror. I was naked (always sleep in nightwear) and the whites of my eyes were black. I looked like I had no eyes. The pulling continued and seemed to drag me up the wall of my bedroom, I remember thinking the word 'no' over and over again. I had a feeling that I would be pulled out of the house and I was so scared. I felt whoever was pulling me wasn't 'good'. I awoke with a start back in bed. I could still feel the pins and needles in my hands and arms.
In 1997 I was in a different relationship but it wasn't going too well. Once night I felt the pins and needles and heard the buzzing in my ears, then felt my right ankle being pulled from the bed. I knew what was happening and seemed to shout 'no' at which point the pulling stopped.
In 2002 my mother suddenly passed away and the buzzing in my ears and hands began on several occasions but I was able to control it and stop it. The beginnings on these experiences have happened to me on average about once a year, with the three mentioned above being the most pertinent.
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Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, the feelings I had
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? had been asleep in bed but was extremely aware that I was awake. The pins and needles and the buzzing in my ears woke me up.
Was the experience dream like in any way? no, it was very real and very frightening. Hence I have learned to control it/stop it from happening.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
My vision/perspective was different. During my first experience, I was aware my 'body' was still in the bed but saw my other body in a mirror. My body seemed dense and normal the only differences being my eyes seemed black and I was naked. I had not got undressed and when I woke I was still wearing nightwear.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? fear, surprise.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? buzzing in my ears, which seemed to render me incapable of movement.
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes, i felt very light
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes, But cannot remember. I felt I was chosen for something and I was being shown something but felt too scared to venture further.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
The night before my mother passed away I felt a great need to call her, but it was late at night and I thought it would wait until the next day. The urge was so strong to tell her I loved her that I began to cry.
have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? it hasn't
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
they listened politely and seemed interested, however, to my own ears it sounded ridiculous and I didn't go on about it.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? disbelief
What was the best and worst part of your experience? the worse part was the fear, but having reflected on the experiences I feel that if it happens again I will understand and feel more ready to go with the experience instead of fighting it.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I'm wondering why it happens to often to me, it isn't something I have striven to do but recently, especially since my mother passed away I almost feel as though I could see her again if I have this experience and 'go with it'
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes, The questionnaire covered everything apart from number of times it has happened.