Hannah H's Experience
I was between 7-9 years of age. Middle-class family in the suburbs of Buffalo NY. I was sleeping on the couch in our living room that evening. I sometimes did this when there was a thunderstorm and my room upstairs was to close to the sky. I remember just popping out of my body. I looked down and saw myself laying there sleeping. It was very weird but I was not scared. I do not know why I was sleeping on the couch that night. I know there was no thunderstorm. My best guess was that I had been abused sexually by my father that evening and was scared to sleep in my bedroom, in case he came back. I was sexually abused as a child from a very young age until about 11 years old.
So there I
was floating above my body. I thought of myself as a cloud just hovering.. I
started to feel a sense of concern for my siblings and as soon as I started
feeling that I started floating down the hallway, around the corned and into
their rooms. Weirdly in that i floated there as if walking but then went through
their doors to look at them sleeping.. although went thru is not accurate, more
like I thought and then I was there.. I checked in on both sets of siblings and
then feeling reassured that they were okay. I went up through the
tunnel and into the light. Supersonic speed very fast...then I was with 4 or 5
beings. They were pure light, energy and peace. They were all familiar to me,
like family members, but I cannot tell you who they are now. they were wearing
white robes, except white is not the color, it was more than white. They spoke
into me. Not like hearing voices external or internal, but in me. They
were seated on a bench I was sitting in one of their laps...The person felt like
a male and was comforting me...They were telling me all about myself, I knew
everything//then they told me it was time to go back. I was afraid, but
they told me it was all right, I would be okay. I still did not want to
go. Then a women came and held me close and lovingly told me about
something I had to do, it was very important that I go back and do it. I
do not remember what she told me though. I laid my head in her lap and she
caressed me. Then I went back to my body and opened my eyes, looked
around. I felt a huge sense of peace. I then fell asleep.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
There are no words in the Earths language that can capture the sense of peace, fulfillment, or rightness.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
I was lying on the couch in my families living room when it happened. Middle of the night. I am a survivor of sexual abuse from my father and am not sure if he had abused me that evening.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was extremely alert
Was the experience dream like in any way? no, it was too real and filled with emotion to be a dream.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
I did not see a form (myself). I saw my body lying there..I was ME (no words to explain). I floated around in my parents house and then headed to the light.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Hear is not a word I would use...I felt the voices of the beings, heard them in my head...
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes
Describe: Supersonic speed in a dark tunnel to the light..more than..light...at the end. The light was bright, but also calm , beautiful with feelings of home and safe and love...
Did you see a light? Yes
Supersonic speed in a dark tunnel to the light..more than..light...at the end. The light was bright, but also calm , beautiful with feelings of home and safe and love
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes
4 or 5 ..i believe past family members..also a women ..i think of her as the Goddess or when I was younger as the Virgin Mary, also a male presence. I laid my head on his lap..filled with love, peace, contentment. I thought of him as Jesus when i was younger and know I do not know what to think.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
there was no time there.. just peace and love
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Yes, I knew all. Unfortunately that knowledge did not come back with me
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
I knew all when there. I also knew that I needed to go back to do something, but I do not remember what I am supposed to do... It feels as if it was very important
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes
Yes...sorta...I wanted to stay and cried when they told me I could not..pouted..but then they showed me what I needed to do and I understood and went back sadly.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I have flashes of more than intuition.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
I am scared to die not knowing if I have completed what I needed to do
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? religiously..i am a little warped..and confused..Organized Catholicism does not fit yet I am filled with guilt for leaving it.. At every juncture in my life I meditate to see if it feels like it is the right path to take that will lead me to the one thing that the beings showed me I needed to come back and do. I went through a period of depression from all the sexual abuse experienced when younger. At times I felt suicidal but knew I could not die unless I did what I needed to do here n Earth. (Unfortunately I do not know what that is, I do not remember)
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No response
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Mostly disbelief...think Iam crazy and messed up. The only people who believe are the ones that have experienced it themselves.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I "woke" up and was content
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The worst part was leaving the best part was being there.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
when I recieved a massage in the early 90's I had an out-of-body-experience
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No
There really is no way to describe the light..a combination of all your senses plus a deep knowing in your heart...there are no words to describe the joy...