Haidee M's Experience
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Experience description:

My experience occurred the summer of '87 or '88, when I was 18 or 19 years old. I was in a good mood and was heading home to Peoria through Pottstown, Illinois.  The windows were down in my 1978 baby blue Camero and it was a warm summer afternoon, but not unbearably so.  I was behind the wheel, driving across the bridge over the Kickapoo creek.  Just beyond the bridge were some railroad tracks.  I slowed up to make a slight climb up onto the railroad tracks.  The moment my vehicle made contact with the tracks, I was zapped to another place or dimension. 

This place was made up of a dandelion yellow light in all directions.  I saw it all around me. This dimension was neither too big or very small. And our understanding of time only existed in my consciousness because there was nothing changing there to measure time by. I was surprised to be zapped there!  From the moment I arrived, pure peace (love, joy, fulfillment) radiated into me forcefully but not painfully. It was so powerful that I could not think at first. My consciousness was sluggish almost a drunk feeling. Then like a baby I was suckling on it without a thought or care in the world which seemed like for several minutes. This powerful emotion was entering the front of me, but I could not pinpoint where it was coming from visually. Somehow I just knew that the energy stream was massive in size. Yet the part that flowed into me felt like its dimensions were 1 foot by 2 feet covering my head and some of my chest.  However, when I looked down to see the limbs of my body, I had none.  No hands, legs, torso, nada.  This was another surprise.   

That's when I stopped being overwhelmed by peace and started thinking, but I had no emotions attached to my slow first thoughts. I had more of a realization that this place and this energy was familiar. As far as truth exists, the truth of it felt like my first, real home.  The place I came from. Then I thought about my life and it was a montage of emotionless images that flashed through the left side of my consciousness.  As more minutes passed, I was torn between feeding on this "Peace" forever thus surrendering to it as I had when I first arrived and worrying about my body. As soon as the emotion of worrying about my body took form and grew strong, I felt cast back down through many dimensions passing through them too quickly to see them clearly.  Passing through a dimension is a trippy sensation and I was screaming "No!!!!I really want to stay!!!!" but to no avail for I fell back into my body and realized I was right were I was before I'd left-crossing the railroad tracks.  I peered down the tracks to the right and the left to see if a train was coming or leaving. Peace was still radiating around inside me.   Adrenalin and endorphins rushed through me for hours afterwards.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Fully conscious

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes    

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Peace which was a culmination of all positive emotions such as Love, Joy, Fulfillment, then a slight struggle to feel worry.

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?            Yes     I had been there before. No other creatures.

 Did you see a light?           Yes     The place I went was made of light and energy.

 Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          Uncertain            I was visually seeing the dandelion yellow light but not with my eyeballs.  And I was feeling peace and my own turmoil amidst it. Nothing to hear, smell, or taste which seemed unimportant.

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     The dimension was just the right size so I wouldn't be freaked out by how small or large it was.  I sensed its limits, perhaps 30 feet by 20 feet.  No time there other than my perceptions that it had to be passing based on my feelings and thoughts passing.

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     I began there.

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     As soon as I worried about my body, I was sent back down to my body.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     God exists.  My life existed before my physical life.  And I'm hoping and trying to get back there.

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I keep trying to astral project myself back there, but the closest I've come so far is a short rise out of my body.

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     I spend a good amount of time trying to astral project.

 Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     What emotions did you experience following your experience?        Peace then mixed feelings almost as if one one hand I had to make the choice to stay there and be fed by peace forever or come back to my body.  Neither option was fair.  Perhaps I'm saying that at that time in my physical/spiritual life pure peace wasn't enough.  I needed to feel more human with a wider variety of emotions.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The best part was the finding out that peace exists and that I existed as part of it before I was born.  The worst parts were getting the boot for my decision to worry and the intensity of it that made it hard to think when I first arrived.

 Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I'm going to find my way back.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Uncertain