The second time I remember having an OBE was when I was three or four years of age, my brothers (all older that me) laid me on the top bunk of their bunk beds. They were looking at my body, under my clothes, lifting my shirt to see my chest and looking under my skirt at my underpants. I watched this happen as if from behind them but just above their heads. They did not hurt me or touch me in any inappropriate manner. It was as if they were curious of what a girls body looked like. I was not afraid of them.

I do not remember  either event from the point of view of where I was physically located. I have no memory from my perspective of being held my a man at the age of 2, and no memory of being on the bunk bed or the boys looking at me while I laid there. I only have these memories from the points of view I have described, next to the man, and behind/above the boys heads.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?   No           

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?           Yes     What is difficult to explain is that the event happened when I was very young, it happened three times that I remember, and I don't remember the incident that was traumatic just the OBE that I believe occurred due to the trauma. I can only guess at what happened I did not know at the time that it occurred.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?        Uncertain            It was not life threatening, and I am not sure if the trauma happened at the time I remember the OBE happening. I can only guess that the OBE happened because of the traumatic event.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?          Both times awake and alert. Maybe not old enough to understand what was happening to me physically.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?  Not that I remember, these are memories for me. I believe these to be events that actually happened. The same as remembering riding my tricycle when I was young but the perspective of the memory is from outside of my body not from within my movements. If that makes sense.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain            What I remember seeing during the OBE of my appearance was that of a child experiencing what was happening at the time. I was holding onto the man with one arm round his neck, and I was looking toward the room we were entering. The second time I lay on the bed watching my brothers and not making any noise, no movements except to allow them to look at me. I do not remember being in a body or of being any form...maybe floating? Just a feeling.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?           I was not upset, maybe indifferent during the second experience as if it was not unusual for this to occur. for someone to look at my body?  The first experience was short, I do not remember any emotion in that experience, no facial expression or body language to indicate upset or turmoil.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?          The first experience I do not remember any noise at all, the second I seem to have semi-muted conversations between the boys somewhere in the memory, but I do not know what the words are.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    Yes     Both experiences happened in the home I lived in with my family at the time they both occurred. They are both familiar places, but the first experience I saw the hallway and myself in the man's arms from the view point like another adults height...I was never a grownup in that house, we moved from there when I was seven years old. I would never have seen that area from an adult height. Also the boys bedroom, I had been in that room many times but again I was never an adult in that room so remembering it from behind/above their heads would not be possible. The boys were eight years older than me so they were young teens. I have never been as tall as them even today to see that viewpoint.

Did you see a light?          No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?          No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?            No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?    Uncertain      I guess I could ask my brothers if the event in their bedroom actually occurred but I would hesitate to do so. I love them and they did not hurt me, there could be hard feelings if I asked after all these years.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?         No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  Yes     Altered space in the way of view point that I had of each event was not from my physical location yet I was witnessing what was happening me at the time.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?   No           

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?            No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  Uncertain      I have had since these OBE happened three times had what I would call special occurrence. When I was 10 years old, I was walking on top of the snow with a friend, we were trying to walk light footed so we wouldn't break through the crust of the snow. At some point I was walking so lightly that not only did I not break through the crust of the snow, I also left no foot prints. It scared my friend and she yelled at me to stop it. I then fell through the snow. I had that same sensation of walking very lightly along the ground twice after that, once when walking through the woods, I concentrated so hard that I eventually found myself walking along with just the tips of my shoes tapping the ground as I stepped. When I realized that I was actually doing it I sort of fell into walking normally again. I was about thirteen years old. The second time was when I was in college (18 years old), I was out running and I had the same experience I tried to run lightly concentrating on running quickly from the balls of my feet rather than heel to toe. I found myself running on the tips of my shoes the same way I had walked in the woods. Again it ended when I realized I was actually doing it.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  No      

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       My family and extended family has always treated me like I was a freak. I was not aware that I was sexually abused until I was twenty one years old and my sister told me. I have since thought my family treated me like that because of the abuse. I also associate my memories of the OBE with the abuse although I do not remember the abuse. In my life I have tried to be kind and to help people, it sort of comes naturally as if it is my nature to be this way. I secretly hurt from the way my family treated me. I should clarify, my brothers have always been kind to me, we have always had good relationships between us.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?       Uncertain      I think it has affected my life because of how my family and extended family treated me and interacted with me over the years. Although I get along well with people, and I have lived my life being kind and loving life, I have difficulty bonding with people. I let people move in and out of my life easily. I do not put myself out there for people to connect with me personally.  Yet, I have a husband and children. I feel the people that are in my life to stay are here because they choose to be and I am grateful for that.

Have you shared this experience with others?         No       What emotions did you experience following your experience?        I think I just went on as if nothing different or unusual happened. Always wondering if it was real, even though these memories are as real as any others I have.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?     I don't know. I really don't see best or worst in them.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?       My third experience with what I think is an OBE is a difficult one and I get anxious when I remember it. It is brief but disturbing.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes     I believe so. I feel the questions allowed me to explain my memories. And maybe the questions connected the memories together for me which I don't think I realized before. I have never put them together in a time line before.