Gena P's Experience
I had just gave up my daughter for adoption on 8/14/97. She was the first girl born into our family of 17 years. I was going through post partum depression. I was at a time in my life where I was looking for answers as to who I was, and why I was the way I was. I remember being led to a book store and the magazine "Bonkers" popped out at me. I picked it up, read it, and came across an article with the author, Charles Whitfiled, 'Healing the 'child within.' I picked up and brought it home I was up all night long reading this book. This was the first time in my life that someone was describing me, my family, and the dynamic we had. I never seen it like that. I finally found something that I could relate to and knew me. I was amazed and thirsty for more knowledge. I found a smart friend to help me understand what I was going through. I asked him back to my house. I remember it was daylight and he rolled a marijuana joint in the kitchen. He came and sat down. I heard a dog barking outside and that all I remember before this event occurred...all I know is that I was crying uncontrollably all the while he was holding me, with his arm wrapped around me. I remember him saying, "You're doing good." He sat there and cradled me for over two hours. While I lost touch, I never opened my eyes.
know if I did that I would see a being hovering on the left upper hand corner of
my living room. I was so scared to open my eyes. I heard a voice talking
to me. It showed me all these visions. I saw earth; I saw flashes of
everything. It was instantaneous thought pictures. It was
uncontrollable and unstoppable. I had this sense as I traveled. The sense
was of such a peace, love, bliss, wisdom, grace, beauty, and acceptance.
It was like I was truly being enlightened. I was enveloped in a such a strong,
secure form, a love. I felt so loved and protected. I understood and in
that moment I saw earth and knew I had to return. From that moment on, my life
has never been the same...I am a completely different person due to this
experience. I was on a high for months after that because it was like I was
shown things and I wanted more a deeper understanding of what happened. My
story is deep. This is the first time I've ever shared it like this.
Thanks for letting me share the basics.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It was very difficult to explain, I didn't even understand what happened I just knew something happened.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I can't remember but I want to say sometime in the middle.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal Oh my goodness I was alive I was conscious and thus held accountable for every single thought and action I brought forth. Prior to I had no clue.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. My vision was none during the experience my vision was crystal clear.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I never really heard or listened after the event I had and instinctively fine tuned everything and always hear the meaning behind the meaning.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? An overwhelming feeling of unconditional love and acceptance a place of calm and assurance.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I heard a mans voice but it was kind of echo and breathy like not right there and I knew something was in the room.
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? Uncertain Something was in the room with me.
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? Yes Past decisions that I made that were not 'good' or 'right' came flooding to me instantly.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
I knew I wasn't in my living room but I knew I was in my living room. It was weird.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning
There was no sense of time it was all happening and all now.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about myself or others
I knew peoples thoughts, motives, I just had an all access pass to the people and world around me instantly.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain
I just remember seeing earth and it basically being over.
Did you come to a border or point of no return? I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will
Just that it was not my time I still had my earth family that needed me here.
Did scenes from the future come to you? Scenes from the world's future
There were a lot of scenes, and I remember seeing/thinking that that the world was in turmoil and greater things were to occur that I would bear witness to in my lifetime.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes Yes I was made aware that our soul or consciousness lives wherever whether in another form or a form we recognize either way we go on from here.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes At that moment I knew something greater than I can comprehend did exist.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? Uncertain I had the sense that I was here before but only for a brief moment.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Oh most definitely I was instantly and begrudgingly made aware that we are all interconnected and all that we think and do directly affects another living particle.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? Yes that people fear their selves and the unknown so much that it stunts growth and creates havoc amongst the human race and on earth as a whole therefore stunting all of our quickened growth.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? Yes that people fear their selves and the unknown so much that it stunts growth and creates havoc amongst the human race and on earth as a whole therefore stunting all of our quickened growth.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes That love is the ultimate release or nirvana or the place we are aiming for that place of acceptance of who or what we are no matter the decisions we made or make.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes I was given a foreknowledge to things to come, a sense of just knowing this or that was going to happen, up until this day the fact remains the same.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience as accurately as other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I was alive for the first time, I knew the difference of being here and being alive.
My experience directly resulted in: Large changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes Absolutely, everything I ever questioned was made real, and I now know with every core of my being that there are levels of consciousness, everything is interconnected, there is something or things greater than ourselves, science and spirituality are interchangeable forms depending on how you view them.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I have communicated with past loved ones for others, I just know things about people and places...etc...
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? This being, this love letting me know everything was alright, there is so much that occurred during this time span that its difficult to piece it together in a paragraph or two...there was so much vital information that was given that I don't always remember until a situation occurs and then it comes back to me what was said or shown.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes It was almost immediate I am very close with my family and they seen and experienced an instant change in me and my habits changed so I had to share it even though I didn't know how to describe it or what really happened. To this day I'm still confused.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I was still coming down off this high if you will, it took months for me to 'be myself' again, not even sure if this was a NDE however it fits the criteria to a certain degree.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real I know it was real, I was very conscious while it was happening but could not stop the experience. It has molded and shaped the rest of my life.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Yes because now that I know what love is and feels like unconditionally I require nothing less than that so my standards are set higher.
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I am so intuitive, borderline psychic, I am more in tune with myself and life around me, I am more in tune with human nature and the way the mind works...etc...
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Certain events spark the memory or pieces of information that I forgot I was given.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience? It was either a NDE or a spiritual awakening...I even heard angels singing there after
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Although there is so much more to this experience...too much to write sorry