Farley J's Experience
ON 2 DIFFERENT MORNINGS, UPON A PEACEFUL AWAKENING IN THE MORNING AND LYING STILL WITH MY EYES OPEN...I EXPERIENCED A FEELING AND SAID TO MYSELF THAT THIS MUST BE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE DYING.....I WAS NOT DISTRESSED AND IT WAS AN OKAY THOUGHT AS I FELT THAT I HAD A GOOD LIFE AND HAD HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE AS PATIENTS. I HAD TOUCHED MANY LIVES IN SUCH A POSITIVE WAY AND RECEIVED MUCH GRATITUDE FROM THEM AS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THEIR LIVES AND ALSO MY OWN PERSONAL FEELINGS OF ALL THE PEOPLE WHOM I SAVED THEIR LIVES.
I SPOKE TO A PROFESSIONAL ABOUT THIS , WHOM TOLD ME IT WAS POSSIBLY A FEELING THAT MY SOUL DYING AND THE EXPERIENCE WAS OKAY.
IN A MATTER OF WEEKS I BEGIN TO FEEL PHYSICALLY BAD...I WENT TO MY INTERNIST TO GET CHECKED OUT WITH THE COMPLAINT THAT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH ME PHYSICALLY. I ALSO WAS INVOLVED WITH HIM AT SUGGESTING CERTAIN TEST TO RULE OUT DISEASES THAT FIT MY SYMPTOMS. IT TOOK A COUPLE OF WEEKS TO GET AROUND TO AN ULTRASOUND WHICH THE RESULTS PROMPTED AN EMERGENCY CT SCAN OF MY ABDOMEN.....I HAD RENAL CELL CARCINOMA WITH PARANEOPLASTIC SYNDROME. IT HAD BEEN GROWING SLOWLY FOR 3 YEARS AND HAD EXHIBITED AN ODD GROUP OF SYMPTOMS THAT EFFECTED MULTIPLE SYSTEMS DUE TO PARANEOPLASTIC SYNDROME.
I HAD A NEPHRECTOMY WITHIN THAT MONTH AND AFTER ALL THE ANTIBODIES PRODUCED BY MY BODY TOWARD THE TUMOR (WHICH THOSE ANTIBODIES WERE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALSO ATTACKING MULTIPLE SYSTEMS AND THEIR RESULTING IN WHAT SEEMED ODD UNRELATED SYMPTOMS) ALL FADED AWAY !
THUS RETROSPECTIVELY, MY MENTAL FEELINGS AND CONSCIOUS SAYING TO MYSELF THAT THIS MUST BE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE DYING....MUST HAVE BEEN TRUE...EXCEPT I WAS UNAWARE OF THE CANCER....I AM CLEAR WITH JUST REMOVAL AND NO OTHER TREATMENT AND NO METASTASIS.I DO HAVE LUCID DREAMS.....FLYING. WEIGHTLESS ABILITY TO WALK, RUN HOP FROM ANY OBJECT SUCH AS TREES, WALLS, BUILDINGS ,ETC. TO GET FROM ONE PLACE TO ANOTHER. IT ALMOST SEEMS REAL TO ME WHEN I AM AWAKE THAT THESE WERE REAL AND I CAN ACTUALLY DO THESE THINGS OR ACTUALLY TRULY EXPERIENCED THEM SUBCONSCIOUSLY...BUT I TRULY KNOW THAT I DID NOT OR CANNOT.....BUT THE DREAMS SEEM SO REAL...THERE ARE OTHER DREAMS AS WELL THAT I WILL NOT BORE YOU WITH BUT I CAN SAY I HAD THESE DREAMS AS A CHILD, BUT HAVE RETURNED AND ARE MORE FREQUENT NOW. THANKS FOR YOUR TIME.
have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes SEE ABOVE #4
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? NO
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes SEE ABOVE #4
What emotions did you experience following your experience? SEE ABOVE #4
What was the best and worst part of your experience? SEE ABOVE #4
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I COULD BUT NOT AT THIS MOMENT.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No