Farley J's Experience
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Experience description:   

ON 2 DIFFERENT MORNINGS, UPON A PEACEFUL AWAKENING IN THE MORNING AND LYING STILL WITH MY EYES OPEN...I EXPERIENCED A FEELING AND SAID TO MYSELF THAT THIS MUST BE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE DYING.....I WAS NOT DISTRESSED AND IT WAS AN OKAY THOUGHT AS I FELT THAT I HAD A GOOD LIFE AND HAD HELPED SO MANY PEOPLE AS PATIENTS. I HAD TOUCHED MANY LIVES IN SUCH A POSITIVE WAY AND RECEIVED MUCH GRATITUDE FROM THEM AS THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THEIR LIVES AND ALSO MY OWN PERSONAL FEELINGS OF ALL THE PEOPLE WHOM I SAVED THEIR LIVES. 

I SPOKE TO A PROFESSIONAL ABOUT THIS , WHOM TOLD ME IT WAS POSSIBLY A FEELING THAT MY SOUL DYING AND THE EXPERIENCE WAS OKAY. 

IN A MATTER OF WEEKS I BEGIN TO FEEL PHYSICALLY BAD...I WENT TO MY INTERNIST TO GET CHECKED OUT WITH THE COMPLAINT THAT SOMETHING WAS WRONG WITH ME PHYSICALLY. I ALSO WAS INVOLVED WITH HIM AT SUGGESTING CERTAIN TEST TO RULE OUT DISEASES THAT FIT MY SYMPTOMS. IT TOOK A COUPLE OF WEEKS TO GET AROUND TO AN ULTRASOUND WHICH THE RESULTS PROMPTED AN EMERGENCY CT SCAN OF MY ABDOMEN.....I HAD RENAL CELL CARCINOMA WITH PARANEOPLASTIC SYNDROME. IT HAD BEEN GROWING SLOWLY FOR 3 YEARS AND HAD EXHIBITED AN ODD GROUP OF SYMPTOMS THAT EFFECTED MULTIPLE SYSTEMS DUE TO PARANEOPLASTIC SYNDROME.  

I HAD A NEPHRECTOMY WITHIN THAT MONTH AND AFTER ALL THE ANTIBODIES PRODUCED BY MY BODY TOWARD THE TUMOR (WHICH THOSE ANTIBODIES WERE RESPONSIBLE FOR ALSO ATTACKING MULTIPLE SYSTEMS AND THEIR RESULTING IN WHAT SEEMED ODD UNRELATED SYMPTOMS) ALL FADED AWAY !  

THUS RETROSPECTIVELY, MY MENTAL FEELINGS AND CONSCIOUS SAYING TO MYSELF THAT THIS MUST BE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE DYING....MUST HAVE BEEN TRUE...EXCEPT I WAS UNAWARE OF THE CANCER....I AM CLEAR WITH JUST REMOVAL AND NO OTHER TREATMENT AND NO METASTASIS. 

I DO HAVE LUCID DREAMS.....FLYING. WEIGHTLESS ABILITY TO WALK, RUN HOP FROM ANY OBJECT SUCH AS TREES, WALLS, BUILDINGS ,ETC. TO GET FROM ONE PLACE TO ANOTHER. IT ALMOST SEEMS REAL TO ME WHEN I AM AWAKE THAT THESE WERE REAL AND I CAN ACTUALLY DO THESE THINGS OR ACTUALLY TRULY EXPERIENCED THEM SUBCONSCIOUSLY...BUT I TRULY KNOW THAT I DID NOT OR CANNOT.....BUT THE DREAMS SEEM SO REAL...THERE ARE OTHER DREAMS AS WELL THAT I WILL NOT BORE YOU WITH BUT I CAN SAY I HAD THESE DREAMS AS A CHILD, BUT HAVE RETURNED AND ARE MORE FREQUENT NOW. THANKS FOR YOUR TIME.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No      

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes            YES...BUT WAS UNKNOWN TO ME.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           AWAKE

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   YES.  SEE ABOVE

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain      SEE ABOVE

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            PEACE

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           NO

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    No           

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           No      

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     SEE ABOVE DESCRIPTION.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No       Did you have any sense of altered space or time?          No      

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes     AS ABOVE...ALSO INTUITIVE MOST OF MY LIFE.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No      

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     SEE ABOVE #4

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No      

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?   Yes     SEE ABOVE #4

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No      

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       NO

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     SEE ABOVE #4

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  SEE ABOVE #4

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      SEE ABOVE #4

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I COULD BUT NOT AT THIS MOMENT.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No