strange experience and events
following are still clear in my mind after many years. My boyfriend and I were
very much in love and slept together before marrying. I was living at home the
time with my widowed mother.
had a couple of weeks before thought I may have been pregnant. This was
confirmed to me by an OBE one morning as I was sleeping in my bed. I found
myself suspended over my body
looking down at what appeared to be a diagram of my insides. I could see in
detail the sperm meeting the egg and realized I was pregnant. I then looked up a
bit and over to a small group of women in white standing by a cottage door
holding a baby. They were radiating love and compassion towards me as they
looked at me. I felt they were distant relatives who had died. After that, I was
back in my body and I woke up. I never mentioned the incident to anyone and a
visit to the doctor confirmed that I was pregnant. I married my boyfriend and we
moved to our own flat. As the months went by things seemed to be going
fairly well, although I slept badly and
had terrible nightmares. I was sitting quietly in the sitting room on my own the
evening before I was due to go into hospital to be induced when out of the
corner of my eye I saw dark grey wings flutter and hover in the room for a few
seconds. I felt a strong sense of foreboding and thought this is what they call
the angel of death. In bed that night I had a vivid dream that I was in hospital
about to give birth in and the consultant a dark colored man was saying to a
colleague there was going to be complications.
The next day arrived and I duly went into hospital. The scenario I had
dreamt the night before played itself out with the dark colored doctor telling
me there was complications and the baby was spinal bifida. I was given a drug at
the wrong time which cased my lung to collapse and could hardly breathe. After I
was wheeled to a private room. I had lost a huge amount of blood also and I can
remember being lifted up and the mattress changed. I was in hospital over a week
during which time the baby, sadly died.
later, I questioned myself over and over
why had this happened, to go through all that and no baby. The answer came quite
clearly each time from a voice that said it was for a reason. I gradually
accepted that and realized that I was immature myself in many ways. I had an
emotionally and physically violent
upbringing and possibly would not have coped well with a baby at that time.
Twelve years went by, then I had a beautiful healthy daughter. I have read that
children before they are born choose
their parents and that everything is for a reason so we may learn and become
more enlightened by our experiences of life.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
felt awake during OBE
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during
in the information I was getting and acknowledging it
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Did you see a light?
Did you meet or see any other
Women in white whom I had felt were related.
My deceased grandmother looked familiar from photos. I was four when she
died. The dresses were Victorian era.
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
By "seeing" inside my body on the bed I
understood I was being given information which was relevant to menthe group of
women by the cottage door knowing and understanding this as well.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Yes I would say this was very accurate
as it turned out I was pregnant and the further events later led me to
believe that the women who were full of love and compassion knew what was going
to happen as they were holding a baby.
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
sounds very odd but while living abroad in 1984 I had a strange dream. My
deceased father appeared to me or I came to be with him. He was sitting alone by
a bonfire and it was dark. He said he was
lonely and wanted me to join him. I said I must go back and woke up next morning
puzzling about how he could be lonely as he was very religious and I would have
expected him to be a shining light and happy. For several
nights after I had the most awful feeling as I was dozing off to sleep at
night of an unseen power trying to
forcefully pull my spirit from me. I could feel myself getting weaker as it was
happening. I realized it must be father trying to make me join him. Every
time I was drifting off to sleep the same thing happened. I knew if I slept I
may not wake up and sat up half the night and dozed during the day. I said
prayers to God to protect me and keep me safe. It was a most exhausting and
frightening time. After about a week it stopped and I could get back to
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Not in any way really.
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Have you shared this experience
Yes My daughter, many years later.
She was astonished this had happened.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
exhaustion and thankful to still be on earth.!
What was the best and worst part of
was happy to see my father but
unhappy and a bit scared as I could sense his sadness and the darkness around
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
My father died
young in 1968 when I was 15. I missed him a lot. I do remember a few months
after he died I was walking in the country with our dog where we used to walk
and I was feeling very upset. I came up to a small bridge and a hooded monk like
figure with a face I could barely see was standing there. A powerful feeling of
love and compassion was coming from it and within a moment these feelings had
been "draped" round my shoulders like a warm cloak. I instantly felt comforted,
the figure was gone and I said a silent thank you. Several years later when I
had moved to England an episode in my life left me feeling very sad and upset. I
was making my way up the steps to visit Westminster R.C. Cathedral when I felt
exactly the same warm cloak of compassion around my shoulders for a brief moment
or two. It was a lovely feeling for it to happen again although no monk like
figure as I gave thanks.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Yes I have described my experiences as
truthfully as I could. I have never used any kind of drink or drugs, apart from
drug which was injected into me after having the baby.