One evening I was lying relaxed and alone on my bed and I was listening to music.
The Israelis and the Palestinians were fighting once again against each other and I was reflecting about the sense of this life.
Why is there so much hate, so much cruelty?
Suddenly I was flooded by the greatest feeling of love you can imagine.
I never have felt this before (even with my first girlfriend when I was 16, the first love of my life, this doesn't even come close) nor have I felt this later.
It was incredible. The feeling of love and being loved was so intense.
Then a voice in my head started to communicate with me.
It asked me questions in a humorously way.
I then realized that this voice was the divine. I wasn't religious at this time nor was I interested in religious topics. It was not at all part of my worldview.
Through this question-and-answer game the divine told me that I (and all other people) are a piece of him/her, the divine. That I am his child. And that being kind, loving, helpful, respectful... in one word: 'good' to the fellow men is how he/she wants us to be. At the end he/she told me: 'now go and live like this'.
When it stopped I was so confused. What the heck just happened?!?
The next day I tried to tell my brother what had happened last evening but I couldn't find the right words. He thought I had become crazy. I also tried to tell my best friend about my experience and he thought the same.
So I learned to keep quite for many years, even I thought from time to time about it, because how could I forget this?? I put it in a box and buried it.
Much later I learned that other people had also such mystical experiences and that I wasn't crazy nor alone.
It took me more or less 10 years to make sense out of the experience and to accept it and to really apply what he/she told me this evening.
medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Relaxed
Was the experience dream like in any way? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, love and love
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain Well I heard the divine in my head.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain I was so captivated by this conversation and this feeling of love that I didn't paid attention how my other senses worked.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes The divine told me that we are his children and that loving each other is the most important.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I'm more aware how people are feeling when I meet them.
I'm more sensitive.
Somehow I'm also attracted to situations where death play's a role (Even I'm not searching for this it happens quite often)
I have the impression that now, 10 years after the
experience and after having finally
fully accepted it that I'm kind of developing mediumistic (?) feelings,
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes It took me a long time, but finally I believe that the divine exists and that being loving, Kind, respectful to each other is what he/she wants.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I'm still not religious but more spiritual. I'm convinced that there exist more outside this world. That the divine exists.
In my daily life I try to be as loving as possible.
To forgive. To be kind. Helpful.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes When I finally accepted the experience: I lost my fears.
If I try to do my best to love and help I can't do
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Directly after the experience: disbelief. They thought I was crazy.
Recently, after nearly 10 years I have started to tell about it again. But more carefully.
You quickly realize who you can tell and who not
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Confusion. Gratitude.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best was the love. And the knowledge that the divine exists and that we a part of him/her.
The worst was after the experience when I tried to tell my closest friends and they don't believed me.I felt alone.