When I was
told about the little girl's death I was devastated. To this day I don't believe
I've ever been more upset then I was at losing her. Anyway, when we arrived at
her visitation, I stood outside the room and I looked around at everyone. I
noticed every detail for some reason everything sunk in. In the rear of the room
was most of the men (including my first love, and current boyfriend). In the
front of the room was her family and of course, her. I stepped over the
threshold of the room and I could feel this rush of sadness of I immediately
began to cry.
At one point, I was standing there, close by but not too close to the casket and all of a sudden I was standing in the doorway, on the other side of threshold, watching myself stand there and cry. I watched myself turn around and look around the rear of the room. As if I was looking for "J" (the "boy" I was in love with/the man I am with now). I watched between him and me and I watched myself looking at him and when that part of me looked up to his eyes, I was standing there again in my body looking at him.
sure what had happened at first. It wasn't until a couple of years later when I
first heard about OOBEs that I finally understood what had happened to me. Then
I went on a quest to find out why, unfortunately, I haven't found any answers.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I appeared to be fully aware in both my physical aspect as well as my spiritual aspect; though I don't believe any one could have seen my spiritual self because I didn't feel any one was looking at me.
Was the experience dream like in any way? in a way it was. Just the lighting when I was watching myself spin around, but that could have been because of the funeral home we were in.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt the saddness, for sure; I felt a fear when my body looked at his eyes, perhaps that's why I was instantly placed back into it.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? I don't believe so.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Yes
I recognized the location because it never changed. It was the funeral home the visitation was being held in.
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? NoDid you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Uncertain
Again, the lights seemed different so it was like my sight was somehow different. I didn't try to speak so I do not know if that was affected. Everything sounded normal and I didn't attempt to taste anything.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Watching myselft turn around it was almost as if my body was in slow motion; so I guess that could be considered altered space or time.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
It seems that the person who "woke" me was the very first person I ever loved and then 7 years later we start dating, three months later we have our first child.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Uncertain
I feel like I was afraid he was going to look in my eyes and not see me there. Because I believe that the eyes are the key to looking at a person's soul. If it's not there, what would you see in their eyes?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I think it has made me bond to my daughter more because of knowing what it is like to lose someone so young who means that much to you. I believe I would not have that sense of love it wasn't for that entire event the OOBE included.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Most people just thought it was a joke. Others did not get influenced by it, just creeped out.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I was confused. I didn't know why it happened. I wanted to understand why the OOBE happened but I just didn't have a clue.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? I think the most enlightening part was after I learned what it was, I felt a sort of euphoria over finally touching the spiritual side of nature. The worst part was/is the not knowing why.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
I think it allowed me to express exactly what happened and exactly how I felt.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. I just wonder if people putting down something even when they say No to a question might help your research. Because not everyone understands the wording of a question the same way; someone may choose not to answer the question for a "no" reason that they should have dismissed and answered anyway.