Doug H's Experience
My son had fallen ill with a form of leukemia due to anti-rejection drugs he had taken over 8 yrs after a heart transplant when he was 6yrs of age. He had experienced excellent health for 8 yrs post transplant until problems with his immune system due to the immunosuppressants he had been taking. He had been in and out of intensive care a number of time during his last 5 weeks alive, however he simply succumbed to the leukaemia type disease and treatment which unfortunately did not help him.
The night before he passed, I had walked back into his room in the intensive care unit where his aunty was sitting with him. I believe at this point my son was aware of who was present but appeared almost comatose due to his illness and drug induced relaxed state as he had been intubated.
As I sat by my son bed on the right side of him, I had a sudden feeling of being agitated and for some reason wanted to be suddenly alone with him. This was unusual for me as there are always people in an intensive care ward. I didn't want to tell my son's aunty to leave but, strangely enough she all of a sudden said she was going outside so I could be alone with my son. This was unusual because my wife and I were there most of the time, every day and we welcomed family close visitors.
Once my sonís aunty has left the room, I was sitting quietly holding his right hand and felt the need to close my eyes which I did. I felt very calm and began to move very fast through space, similar to a tunnel effect, where there was a brilliant white crystal clear light. I didn't seem to be going anywhere other then forward through this space at a very fast speed. I felt I was in control and could get off anytime. I don't know exactly how long it lasted but I would say about 30 seconds to almost a minute.
I didn't feel shocked, surprised at all just very quickly accepted it was a sign from my son that he was going to be OK when he passed. When I opened my eyes it stopped and I very vividly remember still being very calm from the experience and simply said quietly out loud, "thanks for that XXX", saying my son's name. I told me wife and a few close friends about the episode but generally I don't talk about it. My son died at 8.15am the following morning, he was 15 yrs old.
Now, all I can say is that I know what I experienced and I would be interested in hearing if any others who have had a similar experience when they themselves have not been the one ill or injured.
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Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Only for my son.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Fully alert, not too tired, not too emotional, just normal given the gravity of the circumstance.
Was the experience dream like in any way? Somewhat surreal.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Calm, in control, happy for the sign from my son.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No sound what so ever.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No response Only the sense of the bright light, not aware of any other senses through experience.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Interesting question, I may have.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes there is obviously something greater then just ourselves going on!
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Only positively.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes What emotions did you experience following your experience? Satisfaction.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? It was all good.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Lots, but not at this stage.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. None