Hello everyone as promised here is my interesting spiritual or out of body experience. In many ways it has a lot of things in common with most NDEs. But what separates it from all NDEs is when it happened.
It didn't happen in the last few years or it not even happened while I was a young child or infant. It happened either sometime while I was in the womb or at the very most it was the very first memory or experience I ever had before my soul entered my body.
As of now I really don't know for sure what caused my experience. It could have been a actual NDE during my rocky development process, it could have been a dream or some sort of imaginative experience or at the very most it could have very well been the memory of my soul being created.
So before I give you all the exact details of my experience I want for us to go backwards in a sense. I want to first give you the background details about my birth and the immediate details surrounding my birth. Second, I want to give the details about the memories I had while I was in my mother's womb. And finally the details of the experience itself.
Now when I was born, I was born supposed to have been born in early June. Instead I was born in late March. At the time of my birth my mother had got very sick and the doctors told her in order to save my life as well as hers I would had to be delivered via c-section.
So I ended up being cut out of my mother's stomach. In fact I remember clearly looking up at the doctors with their masks on and watching them reach for me and carry me out. After that I remember it being somewhat painful and traumatic I don't know for sure if they held me upside down to get me to cry or not but I do remember the burning pain either when they were cutting the umbilical cord or when they were performing circumcision.
Also I remember staying a long time at the hospital since I was so small the doctors were scared about my lungs, heart, and eye sight. From what I was later told by my parents I had a underdeveloped heart and lungs and I was first given medicine to further the development and if that didn't work (especially for my heart) the doctors would have to perform open heart surgery.
So I was placed in a incubator with breathing tubes and other wires around me. I remember fidgeting with them since they felt strange to me. I also remember being in a room with other incubators and I would look at them quite often. Another bad experience I remember having was when the doctors were doing a test on my eyes.
I remember being taken into a dark room and having them place some sort of clips on my eyes to keep them open and I remember seeing some sort of chart being lit up. I thing I remember most of all from that experience was the fear and the pain I felt, because even though I kept hearing kind voices (I guess telling me it would be ok) just the fact I had these strange clip things over my eyes was a very uncomfortable and strange experience. And as far as I know from discussing this with my parents these memories do indeed check out so it gives me pretty much certain proof that I was indeed able to remember these things.
Now going further backwards, I also was fortunate enough, gifted enough, or as I feel lucky enough to be able to remember specific things about what it was like being in my mothers womb. As far as I know these things check out as well. First I remember sleeping quite a lot.
But when I was awake I would always try to take in what I was seeing, hearing, feeling, and tasting. I remember it being dark as in seeing black most of the time while in the womb, other times I remember seeing dark red. And other times like when my mother was outside or in a well lit room, I would see orange and yellow colors.
Plus I remember seeing what looked like red veins coming from my the amniotic sac I was in. Also, because my mother worked as a waitress even while pregnant with me, I remember many times being disturbingly awaken by loud groups of people talking. It sounded a lot like the gibberish noise that you first encounter when you walk into a crowded room.
I also remember when I would get rudely woke up from sleeping after hearing loud noises such as those from hearing people talk around me I not only remember kicking but kicking over and over just, constantly until I felt better. Another big thing I remember was tasting various things. I mostly remember tasting chocolate somehow. I later found out that my mother while pregnant with me loved to eat chocolate cake doughnuts.
Now for the experience itself. This is very difficult to remember all the details since as far as I know this was one of if not the very first memory I have of anything. From the best of what I can remember I was almost like in a disembodied state surrounded by a being of bright golden light.
I remember this being had massive hands and he cradled and caressed me in his hands. I remember him having a voice that was deep, strong and powerful but yet gentle and loving at the same time. I don't know for sure what he said to me since I couldn't understand language at the time but I could think in concepts or feelings such as I could easily tell if someone was talking in a loving way, sad way or angry way.
I remember being in a the most wonderful state of peace and love that even to this day I have never felt anything close to. Also I remember seeing either the spirits or the spirit bodies of other babies that were about to be fitted with their earthly body. They were like swirling around this powerful being who was holding me and even looked like they could have been coming forth every time he spoke.
At one point I remember this being taking me from the cradled position and placing me on his shoulder as if he was trying to show me something. Then he took me into his hands for a final time and then I found myself going backwards down a dark tunnel with still seeing a hint of light from where I once was and then almost like with a thud I found myself in my body.
I remember feeling immediately once I found myself in my body that I just had a wonderful and powerful experience and that I needed to remember it. And of course you have to keep in mind, I didn't think in those exact words or even in words but I thought through concepts or even feelings.
Now I certainly understand if whomever is reading this is very skeptical of my experience. I too am as well. As far as I can tell from what I've learned about as far as the paranormal, brain science, and biology here are some things it could have been.
1. While in the womb during development I had a NDE
2. While in the womb during development I had a very powerful dream
3. A complete or half true fabrication (I wonder the same thing about other people's NDEs and other spiritual experiences)
4. The option I hope is
true, a real experience taking place outside the natural world and outside my
physical body. Which could have been the process where my soul was created by
God, where I got to mingle and get to briefly know God, and where I my soul was
then put together with my body.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I'm somewhat uncertain, if the event was a nde than I was facing a life threatening even while in the womb
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All throughout since it began until I was connected with my body.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
All throughout since it began until I was connected with my body.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Uncertain Hard to tell since that was one of my very first profound memories in my life.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain Same as question #8
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Love, peace and curiosity
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes It was like the typical dark tunnel with a hint of light at the end but in my case I was going backwards into my body instead of forwards.
Did you see a light? Yes It was very bright swirling golden light.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes I think I saw other spirit or spirit bodies of other infants about ready to be placed into bodies by God.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No All I know is what I remember from the experience, since as far as I know those were the very first things I learned about.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain As far as I know (and hope) I was in the the presence of God. I didn't experience another level so to speak, I was with God, and then later I was back in my body with a dark tunnel in between.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain I guess I did, at the time it felt very normal. But under the circumstances I was under I guess it would to anyone else.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain I don't know considering how early in my life that it was along with the various doubts I have about the experience I don't know if did obtain special knowledge or not.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I do know I am blessed with a very good memory of past events (could even be a powerful photographic memory) but other than that it is hard to say.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I've shared it with various friends and family members. Just like I expected and much like how I would be if someone else told me this happened to them, they were very skeptical, as they should be.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was probably real I describe what my experience could be (along with what I hope that it was) in the primary text of my experience.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? The love, the sights, the sound of the being talking to me and the fact that when I felt myself go into the womb I thought (in concepts or emotions) "I need to remember this experience, this was so powerful and wonderful".
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was probably real Well I still have tons of unanswered questions about these kinds of experiences along with what our brains are indeed capable of (ie whether or not our brains can indeed induce these experience or trick us into having them)
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Nothing other than I hope to talk with atheists/naturalists to either find out what caused this experience, other people who believe in the existence of the soul (like non materialist brain scientists) and with people who have had NDEs or OBEs themselves.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes It does for the most part, that's about the best I can recall from memory.
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? Nope that will be it. Thank you all for your time. Take care and God bless.