Your religious background at the time of the experience:
Your religious background currently: Christian- Catholic Other/Comments: Do not recognize myself anymore in the too tight representation of the divine by religions.
Do you consider the content of your experience to be: Entirely pleasant
It was after lunch, around 1:30 pm. I had a short free moment before restart of class. I sat down on the floor in my room. I felt strange, as if my mind was empty, and open towards a void. Then suddenly a swirling ball of fire appeared high up (much higher, beyond the ceiling of the room, as I saw it through the ceiling swooping down towards me like a lightning flash). At the moment when I saw it, my whole being, my body, my heart and my mind, were attracted as if by a magnet towards this swirling incandescent ball, that was swooping down on me. While perceiving it, I instantly was standing up (I was sitting on the ground) with one move. I felt so much attracted, that the motion to stand up was very brusque, as if I was lighter, like being snatched upward, towards this ball of fire. 2 to 3 seconds after seeing this ball coming from up high towards me, I was standing, at the very moment when this 'ball' reached my height. When this ball came upon me I was immersed in a parallel world. Visually this world consisted only of a soft, warm, illuminated atmosphere. A light that makes me think about the flame of a candle, golden. Or also when the sun is rising upon a slight haze, which is creating a soft warm atmosphere, sparkling like fire. In short. Of this 'dimension' was emanating a plenitude and an unwavering serenity. Questions came into my mind, but I didn't have time to really become aware of them, and even less to formulate them, as they immediately seemed vain to me, and it seemed to me that I knew the answer (but not really), as in a world where there are only answers, no questions, answers are of no use. The plenitude of this place annihilated all questions or at least made me understand their futile nature.... But strangely, while my mind was in this state of consciousness, it was also aware of the 'me' in my room. I was aware of my arms vaguely lifted up (unconsciously I had felt like the need to welcome this ball and had lifted them vaguely) but oddly, I had sensed myself extremely light while I was attracted, so light that physically I didn't feel no weight anymore, while I still kept moving in the room. This bothered me and also intrigued me, in fact I was scared of falling, as I didn't control my body anymore and I did the worst. I wanted to look at my feet, and at that moment I realized that I had made the biggest error of my life, as everything stopped. I immediately was enormously angry at myself. I was quite shaken up by this experience, but positively of course. This only took about 15 or 20 seconds. Subsequently (during the following year) I had 2 other experiences, also surprising but very different, of which one concerned the resurrection of a butterfly...
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes It's like explaining colors to a blind person, and then the experience wasn't happening recently, altered memories.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? All the time
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal The experience brought with it a different consciousness that I could qualify as being superior, even though without elements of superiority.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I didn't truly see with my eyes, I was taken into another state of consciousness, that I had no time to really apprehend by the way.
Please compare your hearing during the
experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time
of the experience.
No hearing experience.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Plenitude, serenity
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? Yes The light was the world. Golden, soft, shimmering. I wouldn't say like a mist of golden light, as mist has usually a closing effect, while this condensation of light seemed infinite. There was nothing else, even not me. I was taken into this consciousness as if it was just shown to me, like getting a 'taste' of it. This light was very soft, like gold particles.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I can't be categorical with this question, 'this light was it a 'universal' presence?'
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? A clearly mystical or unearthly realm
SEE question 16
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? Everything about the universe
It's like there was nothing anymore except 'I am the one who is'
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Uncertain Some would say that those experiences are so strong, that for them it is a knowledge suggesting the existence of this or that thing … But it is subjective.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes The word love coincides actually with the feeling of this experience. That's not nothing, as it is not just any word. But do we know this word???
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? Yes I, knowledge of a life of specific experiences.
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was entirely consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience What belief? Could you believe in advance what you will live/experience, is there a doctrine professing that?
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of the experience
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: I had three major experiences. They didn't change my life, they reassured me, comforted me, that's all.
My experience directly resulted in: No changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? No
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I could talk about it for a short time with a very spiritual girlfriend, she showed respect.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real But concerning the experience of apparition in Assisi (Italy), it was the reactions of the people I told the story, that convinced me after several years that it was an apparition.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No It's impossible to describe 'accurately'.