was having a difficult time after the sudden passing of my father and spent many
nights crying myself to sleep. There
was a series of losses soon after (close family members, friends, etc) which
were all unexpected and had a very difficult time coping with so much loss in a
short amount of time that I lost an interest in living.
Quite often I would pray to God to help me find peace and comfort and it
seemed that my prayers were never heard.
One of these nights praying out of desperation, I experienced something
that to this day still remains a vivid memory.
It must have happened while I was just about to fall into a deep sleep.
My eyes were closed but I 'saw' a speck of light in the distance almost
like a star but it was very bright.
The light was a very vivid white/bluish light and it was as if it was shining
between my eyes. I began to hear and
feel a very low frequency of sound and felt this vibration of energy begin at
the top of my head and move all the way down my body then back up to my head
again several times at a slow pace.
At the same time this light became brighter and as it came closer to me, I was
able to see that the blue/white light was in the shape of a cross with a haze
around it similar to a star on a hazy night.
As it got closer, it got brighter and larger until that was all I could
see. The deep frequency of sound and
vibration of the sound went through my body and the intensity of the feeling
increased as the light grew nearer.
Once I was able to see the cross and its intensity and feel the effects of this
experience, all went black immediately and I 'woke up' sobbing.
I know it was not a sign from God, but HE was with ME.
The experience was nothing I have ever had before or since, but something
I will never forget.
have only shared this with my husband, who I woke up and told him I just met
never afraid during my experience and as it happened I felt at peace and at the
same time, overwhelmed with emotions of joy.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes The feeling was very intense.
Afraid to share the experience because people might think it was a dream
or a hallucination.
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Just falling into a deep sleep.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
Too intense to be a dream.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during
emotion, peace, comfort and tremendous joy at the same time.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
Yes, very low
frequency of sound that I also felt pulsate and run through my body.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Did you see a light?
The light began as a speck of light that I
was focusing on for some reason. It got
brighter and as it came towards me in 3D it got larger and in the shape of a
cross until that was all I could see. It
was a bluish white light, very intense but did not hurt my 'eyes'.
Did you meet or see any other
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
When I 'saw' the light, I wasn't looking
at it with my physical eyes. It was
almost as if I could see this light between where my physical eyes are.
I felt sound wave frequencies run and pulsate throughout my body.
It was a very low frequency and vibration that I could also hear.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
I knew it was not a sign from God but was
God and he was with me.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
have had psychic gifts from the time I was a child.
I smell auras the same day when people close to me die, have known what
people were going to say before they said it, have said things to people which
were of events that were true. These
experiences have been verified by people close to me and they have seen it first
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I know I have a purpose and God is
with me. Before this I had a lot of
doubt. I am not religious but since this
experience I am very spiritual.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Have you shared this experience
Yes My husband.
He was supportive. I am afraid to mention this to others because of their
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
emotion. Comfort, joy, love.
'Woke' up from the experience sobbing.
What was the best and worst part of
of the light. It was the bluest/whitest
light. The feeling of the sound frequency
running through my body. The whole
experience was positive and felt that the experience was healing and special to
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Yes Although this was not an OBE or
NDERF it was exceptional and know it wasn't a dream but something incredible.
Not sure where this would fit into your research.