When I was a child, between the age of 5-16, I used to have out of body
experiences regularly, which at the time I did not realise were O.B.E’s, as I
had no knowledge as a child of what they were. I just presumed I was having my
usual weird dreams, until as an adult, I read about O.B.E’s, and the penny
dropped. I also had a few very unpleasant experiences of malevolent entities
around me when I had O.B.E’s, which also scared me to death, which was why I
used to fear going to sleep so much.
used to get a vibrating rhythmic noise in my head prior to having these
experiences as a child, which made me very fearful, as I seemed to have no
control over it. I was always trying to keep myself awake to try and stop it
happening, but I would always have to give in to it in the end, as I obviously
could not manage to stay awake for that long (I was always very tired
at school not surprisingly). Because of my fear of going to sleep, and
the night terrors I also suffered, I was thought to be disturbed by something
(how insightful!) and was prescribed Ativan at the age of 7 (a powerful anxiety
drug), which basically just knocked me out cold. My mum eventually stopped
giving it to me, as she said it turned me into a little zombie during the day.
This happened a few nights a week, but petered off the older I got, as I learnt
how to interrupt the process, and it gradually ceased happening around the age
of 16 when I left home. Very occasionally as an adult I would get the
vibrational noise prior to sleep, but managed to interrupt it quickly before it
progressed any further, as it still scared me.
2008, an anti-viral medication I was taking, had made me very anemic and
feel very weak. One evening, I was just laying on my bed thinking about things,
when I started to get the vibrational noise in my head that I once knew so well
as a child. Because I felt so weak, I had no energy to try and fight it, so just
thought ‘what the hell, go with it, what’s the worst thing that could happen?’
I totally surrendered myself to the vibrational noise, and let myself
Within seconds, my body was outlined with an bright orange light, that seemed
almost electric, and it permeated my physical form, making my senses extremely
heightened, my whole body felt ‘alive’ and fizzing with energy! This light
continued to pervade my form, until I noticed my physical form becoming
transparent, but still with the orange aura around me. As I noticed I was
becoming transparent, I was instantly transported from my bedroom to a place
above the earth, into the ether, where I could actually see the earth below me.
As I was taking in my surroundings, I felt completely calm, then suddenly
started receiving holographic type images in front of me. They were super fast
images of events that had occurred in my life, events throughout history,
mathematical calculations and endless reams of information in what seemed a
massive download. As I was receiving all this information, I understood it all,
and remember thinking ‘oh yeah, I get it all now’, and instantly understood
everything being shown to me. Then,
my whole being was then filled with a huge wave of love, and I was shown that
everything we do effects each other, as we are all connected to this universal
love, in spirit and on the earth. Every human, animal, and everything in nature,
every atom, is all connected via this universal love, which felt like a
beautiful fulfilling peace, a loving warmth, and a connection of being one
family, all being one and the same. I was so happy bathing in this amazing
feeling of love, and felt connected to everyone and everything by it. Then, as
fast as I had got there, I was transported back into my physical body, and was
back in my room, with my husband lying next to me. I was a bit miffed to have
left that wonderful feeling of oneness, and wanted to go back, but continued to
‘fizz’ for minutes all over my body, and filled with amazement at what had just
was trying to remember the information I was given, but it was too much to
comprehend, but the overall message that stayed with me was.... that we are all
connected, and the purpose of our lives was to love and help one another, as
this would end all the wars and greed on the earth, and help end the needless
suffering of many in our world.
Then, without even imparting a single word to my unaware husband about what had
just occurred, I fell into a deep sleep. I woke in the morning completely
transformed by the experience, as it changed my whole perception of life and the
afterlife, and had given me an insight into a different realm I always felt
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
I was being treated with interferon and
ribavirin B for Hep C, which stopped my thyroid from functioning. I was mentally
and physically tired.
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
totally awake and alert. Eyes open.
Was the experience dream like in any way?
no, it was completely real.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Uncertain I could sort of see my form, but
it was transparent, with an orange aura.
What emotions did you feel during
Fear at first,
then submission to the experience, then complete Amazement, wonder, complete
joy, understanding and pure love. Then on return, sad to leave that place, but
feeling of serenity and purpose.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
vibrational rhythmic noise in my head preceding OBE
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Yes I was in a void, in space, and
could see the earth below.
Did you see a light?
Only around my body
Did you meet or see any other
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Uncertain I felt I was shown events from the
past and future, but could not recall them on return, as too much was given in
such quick succession, although I understood it all at the time it was given.
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Its hard to put it into words, but I felt like my
brain power was limitless, and my body felt like it had an electrical charge
around it which heightened everything I felt!
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Uncertain It felt like it happened quite
quick, in around 10 minutes, but my husband who had been reading next to me on
the bed, was fast asleep when I came back into my physical body.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
I knew everything, and understood
everything I was shown. I feel I was given the truth of our existence and
purpose. This knowledge was an understanding, that we are all spiritually
connected to this universal love, so we need to consider this in every action we
take on earth. Love was the answer to everything in the end, as if we all loved
one another and our world, we would not be destroying it and each other. The
message was simple, but clear. I was shown complex knowledge in images, and
mathematical form, and I believe I now have this knowledge in my brain. It was
given to me, but I am unable to access it in this form, with our limited
cognitive potential. Where I went, there was no limits on the mind, or thought.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Uncertain I have a real ominous feeling for
our future, if we don't turn things round very soon.
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
am more empathetic in how I relate to people.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I don't worry so much about what
happens when you die. I don't believe there is one religion that is right. I
think it is all one and the same thing, with just man's different
interpretations of a higher power or existence.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I care for others in my daily
life, which is my purpose, as I was shown. Unfortunately, I have never felt the
depth of love I felt in that O.B.E experience here in my earthly life, which
saddens me. I feel there is no hope for
our world, the way it is going, and that also dampens my spirit on a daily
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes I have a sense of loss which I
cannot shake, having glimpsed something so beautiful. I still feel I have not
found my true purpose, yet!
Have you shared this experience
Yes If I tell others who I know have
had similar or unexplained experiences, of course they are open to what I am
saying, and it confirms that their experiences are valid too. If I talk to a
person with no knowledge or experience of these things, or someone who has a
closed mind, they obviously think I am bonkers!
Some want to believe what I am saying, but cant perceive it to be true. I
cannot know how others may have been affected by what I have told them.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
I felt somewhat
flat. A real low after such a real high. That has stayed with me somewhat. I
also feel somewhat puzzled as to why I was shown this information, if I am
unable to use it for any real benefit on a wider scale, other than my limited
efforts. I feel inadequate as a human, to fully reach a potential to which I
accessed briefly, but now cannot access.
What was the best and worst part of
The best was
feeling that wave of love fill my whole being, as I connected to the universal
love. The worst was coming back into my physical body, and feeling the
heightened senses and elation gradually go back to normal.I would have happily
stayed in that place.
Is there anything else you would
like to add concerning the experience?
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Uncertain Any description cannot ever match
the awesomeness of the event.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.