It was about 2:30 in the morning. I was watching animal planet on TV. I've been having trouble falling asleep as of late. I cant tell you how I got where I went all I know is I will never forget it. I was watching tv and then there I was. I remember thinking to myself Hey what is this and in that instance I knew. I said My God I'm dying.
I was surrounded by this whiteness, much like a light but so much more. I knew I had no body any longer. I felt totally weightless and seamless in form. I looked to see if I was in a room but there was no walls, no corners , just white. I felt calm and a settling of stress. Those feelings I would say I had when I first got there had changed. At first I questioned what was happening but it all just came as knowledge after that. Once I realized that I recall this feeling of taking in a large breath. The kind that a vacuum would do, I could here it as well as feel it.
Then there was this kind of pulling thing happening, almost like what water does when it goes down a drain. With that pulling I saw my life, everyday of my life. As it pulled I could feel all of my emotions running together from day to day and minute to minute. It was happiness , sadness , boredom, grief anything you've ever felt in your life and it all happened in a matter of what felt like seconds.
Then I could feel this incredible sadness, a heavy grief. It was just awful. Then I realized the sadness and grief was coming from my dog. As if I felt his hurting that I was gone. The next thing I recall was the voice of my Aunt who had passed away several years ago saying, She's not ready yet send her back. I cannot recall what happened after that. I do know that the next day my dog wouldn't leave my side and he hasn't ever since. My father usually walks him but he will not go with him. I told my family about this and much to my surprise they took it well. I told my mother when your time comes you wont have to ask what's happening all you will say is she was right.
It wasn't a bad experience but I am glad I'm still here. As I was in the pulling stage of this I wanted to stay for more and then I heard my Aunt and I remember a large exhale as I came back. I knew now that death isn't something to be feared and that there is more after were gone from here. I came back feeling that all of those people who died on 9/11 felt exactly what I did and that it gave me a feeling of peace for them and I wish their loved ones could understand even though they died in a horrible event, they went without pain to someplace wonderful.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? Uncertain
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? i was totally aware of everything that was happening
Was the experience dream like in any way? I have very vivid dreams and I know the difference between a dream and what I experienced. Nothing like a dream at all. Nothing like I've ever even imagined.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
there was no form just a feeling of being. All most like a nothingness but full of emotions
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Only the sounds of my Aunt saying to send me back I wasn't ready yet
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain
Describe: I don't recall a tunnel but I do remember the pulling feeling.
Did you see a light? Yes
It was a whiteness kind of like a light but filled with emotion.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Yes
I saw all of my life, it seemed like in a matter of seconds. I know that there is nothing to fear in death and that I was sent back for a purpose. I will seek that purpose and not let the stresses of everydday life get me down any longer. It's all relative. Even the stupidest of days spent here are part of that pulling. It's like your own special existence. Quiet wonderful.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes
I recalled when I was about 3 years old playing in a tire that was filled with sand and splashing around in a old metal washtub. I verified that with my mother.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
It was like time had no purpose yet everything seems to go so very fast. In the matter of seconds.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Well I know to share this experience with anyone who will listen. To appreciate everyone who has touched my life and not to judge people on their bad traits. I don't know what my purpose is yet but I know I defiantly have one and I think with time I will find it.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
there was no physical structure, you just have a sense of being. as far as crossing the boundary i would say once your just being how much further can you go.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
well to be honest with you I've always had a sense of things to come or things that have happened before.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Uncertain
i don't know . i only know i felt the sadness and it was coming from my dog. He is my baby and i spoil him rotten so i would never hurt him. i think that's why i came back in a way but i think there is more to it then that.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
well it only happened 2 days ago but as i stated in another question i have always had experience of that nature.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
yes i defiantly know not to stress over things. to appreciate everyday your here and to tell others to do the same. i also feel that the next time someone i love passes away ill know what happened to them and i wont feel the grief that i used to. i will miss then very much but i will understand.
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? to soon to tell
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
im sure everyone does, its only been a couple of days but i notice a difference in myself. just a calmness a understanding. in search of my purpose in this life, i already have the knowledge of my after life , at least the start of it.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
my family and 2 of my friends. My mother and sister cried and thanked my aunt for sending me back. my father will not talk about it with me but told my mother that everything weird happens to me. my one friend asked if i was sure i wasn't sleeping and then admitted she had a similar experience when she was younger. the other friend sobbed and couldn't do anything but hug me
What emotions did you experience following your experience? i don't recall after i came back what emotions i felt. i don't know how long i was gone but i knew i had to tell my family and friends and knew it wasn't a dream but something wonderful.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? the best part was being free of my body and feeling my life and all the emotions. seeing my life, it was very special and it was only for me to experience. the worst parts were at first that where am i what's this feeling and realizing i was dieing. then it was the grief and sadness i was feeling from my dog.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? just that I've had so many things occurred to me in my life, things that i cant explain. maybe if i could of gotten further i could of gotten some answers to those things. i did not see Jesus as many others talked about here. maybe they got further then me or maybe its because they had trauma happen before they left. i do not know, but i felt free of anything that would cause unhappiness . except for the grief of my dog, then i was back.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
i would say so. i answered then the best way i know how. honestly and thats all i know.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire. i think you cover everything. i wished you had some questions about other experiances that youve had in your life. like physic experiances and such. i wonder if any of these other people have them as i do.