EVEN know how to describe all of this, but here goes nothing.....
that I was in the presence of the Lord. In Heaven before I was born. It was a
huge family and we all loved each other and played and we had no fear as if we
were children being closely guarded and cared for. I remember a voice saying,
"Come here, my children. I have a wonderful plan and it is your turn to become
part of it." What the 'plan' was....I have no clue. I don't remember it. But
when I read certain parts of the Bible....something 'clicks' and it sounds very
familiar to me. As if I had heard it before, but not on Earth.
all of my friends being chosen for missions on Earth and it was a VERY
prestigious thing to be chosen. All of my counterparts in this..."Pool" of
spirits were all being chosen and sent to Earth to fulfill their assignments. I
was not chosen. I don't know why, or at least I don't remember why. I THINK it
had something to do with the fact that I served a purpose in Heaven already.
What, you ask? I soooo wish I remembered that.
begged and begged the Lord to let me go. I wasn't lonely, because I was in the
presence of the Lord, but I was kind of....jealous? (I guess you could say). I
so much wanted to be a part of the plan and have the same reward that awaited my
counterparts upon their return.
Father agreed to send me. He gave me an assignment that to this day I don't
remember what it was, but it was one of those things where like a prospective
employer would say..."We don't have anything in the area of your expertise, but
we DO have this job that nobody else wants." I just have to laugh at that
because it sounds so stupid, but it's the truth. That is the job I took and I
feel like I'm failing miserably because I don't even remember what it was that I
was supposed to do. Sometimes I lay in bed at night crying, because I want
Father to remind me what it is that I'm supposed to do, but He won't.
finally agreed to send me. He pointed to Earth as we observed it from Heaven and
said "You know what to do." I said, "Yes Lord". He then said.."Go". Then I came
associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the
the kind of experience difficult to express in words?
most of it was not words. They were.....How do you say.....Assumed? Like as if
it was known but not spoken.....It's really hard to explain.
the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening
was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?
born yet. Part of the Great Spiritual Consciousness, I guess you could say.
experience dream like in any way?
Yes and no.
From what I remember, it was VERY REAL and at the same time...Dreamy.
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
I wasn't in my body yet, although, I was in my body in some things.
emotions did you feel during the experience? Excited!
Ecstatic! Joyful and happy! I miss it.
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I heard music
in the background....Kind of like white noise, but it was music. Later, after I
was born and in the US ARMY, I would hear buzzing noises when I was sleeping.
When I experienced MANY Hypnogogic and Hypnopompic Reveries.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
I recognized Heaven and Planet Earth.
you see a light?
was light everywhere. It wasn't a blinding light or anything, but if you were to
see that now, (In physical form), I highly doubt you would be able to make
anything out. I believe I was able to 'see' everything, because I was in the
presence of the Lord and in heaven. I had not been corrupted in my spirit, so I
could 'see' everything in detail. Not that I'm corrupt in my spirit, but once
you enter the physical world, you can only receive certain things.
you meet or see any other beings?
Yes I knew
everyone. I don't know names or anything, except "Father" and "Lord". All of the
others were all spirit, like me and were awaiting their chance to experience
life or were already on their way. (Waiting to be sent....in transition). I
don't know what the transition from life to death feels like yet, but I know
what the transition from Spirit to physical existence and life is like. It's
VERY MUCH like an NDE, as described by the many NDE experiences that have been
discussed throughout history.
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
Once I saw my Uncle return home from the Viet Nam War and lean over to kiss my
Mother, who was sleeping on the couch....The only thing is.....I was still in my
Mothers womb at that time. During the same time period, from what I perceive, I
also remember hanging upside down in my Mother's womb with an umbilical chord
under my knees as if I were hanging from a set of monkey bars. I also saw my
father repairing a flat tired on a Mountain road by Mt. Rainer. I was hovering
over the cliff and watching him and I was not born yet. I was in my Mother's
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Yes. I
once overheard my Mother say that I couldn't possibly know these things because
I wasn't born then when they happened. But they happened. She was talking to
someone on the phone about the experiences I had after I told her for the first
time. I was about...7-9 years old then.
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
didn't really "notice" anything...sort of like....you don't "notice" that you
are breathing sometimes, but you are.
you have any sense of altered space or time?
Ummm.....I can't really say I perceived "time", I had never heard of it
then...from what I recall. But those things were unimportant and it was kind of
like....You know that we experience time here, but we take it for granted. Time
wasn't an issue when all of this happened.
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
Uncertain I know that I DO have a purpose. I was assigned a mission
but I don't remember what it is....It's SOOOO frustrating. It has caused
problems in my life because of it. Sometimes I feel like I am failing God.
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Not really. I just know that I saw landscapes and white...light and I saw planet
Earth as the Lord pointed to it and said, "You know what to do." I said, "Yes
Lord". He then said.."Go". Then I came to Earth. That is when I started
experiencing things when my Mother was pregnant with me and I was no longer in
the presence of the Lord.
you become aware of future events?
But only after I was born. Some have not come to pass yet, but other things
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
I so much wanted to come to Earth and share in the rewards that others were
going to have when they returned. You see....I wasn't supposed to come here, but
I begged and pleaded with the Lord until He finally gave in. But there was a
condition. He assigned me an assignment and I don't remember what it is. An
inner voice tells me that I won't know what it is until it transpires so that I
won't ruin it with my earthly decisions.
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain As of now, I am active and practicing in the gifts of the Spirit.
My gifts are: Prophecy, Word of Knowledge, Word of Wisdom and Teaching. I also
am able to...'feel' what others are feeling when they are depressed or are
experiencing difficulties in life. Sometimes I...'Feel" what others are
thinking. But I think that is something we all do, but just don't realize it.
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
I feel like a
failure, because I am always self sabotaging myself and setting myself up for
failure. I wasn't treated very well when I was a kid. I went through a lot of
mental, spiritual and emotional abuse.
you shared this experience with others?
Yes Yes. I
have shared it with my Pastor and he thinks I'm nuts. But it REALLY happened.
emotions did you experience following your experience?
was the best and worst part of your experience?
The best was
that I was finally able to come to Earth and be part of what was going to happen
on Earth and to partake in the reward afterward.
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
like to know if there are any others out there that have experienced things like
this. I would like contact with them.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Uncertain Sometimes I can....'remove' myself from my body and hover above
it. That feelings is kind of like the half-way point to the feeling in heaven.
Sometimes it is VERY scary. Sometimes it will happen when I'm not even trying.
That is the scary part. But always when I'm almost asleep. I attribute this to
possibly experiencing a Hypnogogic event. But it hasn't happened in quite
awhile. I'm VERY depressed and suicidal at times and I think that blocks it out.
Those feelings also prevent communion with God.
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
Depending on how many experiences you hear of with this type of scenario, maybe
you might consider creating a form that is a geared more toward "NLE's". By the
way. the term "NLE" or Near Life Experience" is a phrase that I coined because I
didn't know exactly how else to label it.