Experience description:

I have to give a little history of my spiritual journey. I read the king James all the way, when I was about 10 I was told something in our Baptist bible class that just didn't sound true. I had to find out for myself. after that, I thought that maybe the preacher, then the churches, must just be getting it wrong. by the time I was 16, I knew the TRUTH couldn't be found in Christianity, so I read, and tried everything I could, in the process I learned how to meditate, including control of physical functions. I even spent years with a family of Blackfoot Sioux, learning from a 'medicine woman'. but whatever I tried, I found hypocrisy, and exception. I had read a book cal-led 'messages from Michael' back in the '70s, and didn't think much of it, but I re-read it in the mid-'80s, and it dealt with the many aspects of fear. although I just regarded the rest of the "information" as possibly parlor tricks, I was able to 'click' when I tried the 'recognition' techniques, and decided to be the 'true' skeptic again. by observing and recognition of how my fears manifested, I was also able to let them go for short, then longer periods. in deep meditation I 'let-go' of all of my 'fears', and reached the "ME" ID, or ego. when I let-go of ID, everything felt like it was 'vibrating' and I felt that I was moving 'forward' at a very fast pace. I 'stopped' and my brain 'exploded' in all directions, simultaneously I feel a loving 'presence' and 'floating'. I knew that I could ask any question and get an answer, and I 'knew' that this was WHERE we 'go' at death. I wanted nothing, but to stay in this 'place', I felt myself 'asking', if THIS is All, then why continue? what I 'got' was something like "to ask another question", and a feeling of 'humor'. then I was 'pulled' like a big rubber-band back to my body. before I was finally able to tell my wife, she said there was something 'different' about my eyes, and when I looked in the mirror, my eyes had turned from green to blue. I had a physical reaction besides the 'floating' feeling ,which lasted for several days after. my personality changed from that day, I know that I, indeed, 'touched' my 'soul'. I know that if I can, others can also. I give love indiscriminately. I try to 'touch' other's souls. I know that enlightenment is ALWAYS found from insight, and IN-SIGHT means literally, to look IN. my eyes have remained blue, and I feel that I can reach this 'place' most anytime. beyond religious myths, Near Death Experience seems the 'closest' I can come to my own experience.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     I 'came-out' of my experience feeling great joy, unable to do more than just try to process what had just happened. when I was finally able to talk to my wife, she became 'wide-eyed', and, before I could say anything she said that my eyes were "different". I went to the mirror and was more than a little surprised that they had changed from green to blue. physical alteration from a spiritual event.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    not known.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            not known.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  Yes     everything seems brighter and 'fuller'

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
            Uncertain      I don't remember 'sound'

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            surrounding 'presence', 'indifferent' compassion, limitless knowledge, peace

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Uncertain      the whole 'me' vibrated back-and-forth, then I was pulled 'forward' at speed.

Did you see a light?           Uncertain      I felt surrounded by a 'bright-clear' light

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     I felt there were multitudes in a great embrace.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?            Uncertain      I 'saw' the universe.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No      

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes            there are none but yourself to judge, the 'real' point to life is finding JOY, our souls learn by how closely we 'touch' others in positive ways, experience is the only 'real' teachers, 'fear's' only power is illusion

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No      

Did you become aware of future events?       No           

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     Yes     I can 'feel' other people, the color of my eyes changed from green to blue

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     immediately after, I told my wife, she was the first to notice my eyes. as the years have gone by, everyone who knew me, prior, said, without exception, that I was not the same person.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    Yes     I had the belief that NASA had explained it as a loss of oxygen to the brain

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    I still have physical evidence, every time I look in a mirror

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?    all and more

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real    I use the 'answers' I get, on a daily basis and almost always have a 'positive' result

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I am more empathetic, and try harder to respect others feelings

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?            Yes     I no longer search for the TRUTH in religious practices

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         Yes     I can 'reach' a place very near, whenever I want

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        love

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     I feel that NDEs are the closest thing to my personal experience

Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience?   some questions are repetitive and questionnaire is too long