Cynthia B's Experience
I was in heaven sitting on a swing. I felt to be about five years old. There was a lady sitting next to me but I didnít look at her face, I could see her legs and I felt like she was a mother figure to me. (Everyone feels connected in heaven so I'm sure thatís why she felt this way to me.)
I looked from the womanís legs to my bare legs and I was naked, but I didnít realize that this was unusual until I was born, and much older. I felt no shame of myself being naked. As we sat on the swing I was looking around and thinking to myself how lucky I am to be apart of this greatness.
I noticed the swing was made of a type of white wood, and I marveled at it as a child would, but also with the feelings and experience of an adult. It was like I knew everything and yet still and a child like exuberance for everything.
As I looked around I saw that everything was consumed in a light that was beautiful! Nothing like the sun, which is plain and comes from only one direction. The light in heaven came from everywhere and everything, but wasnít overwhelming. It was a brilliant yet soft white and felt as though it feed everything.
As I looked to the left I could see a curvy golden road leading to a HUGE white gate trimmed in gold. (The golden road is as smooth as glass.) Next to the road and in front of the gate, thereís a giant palm tree.
As I looked around I could see people gathered together sharing and loving and visiting, and some where just sitting around doing nothing but relaxing and being (as I was).
Then God appeared and began walking toward me on the golden path as everyone turned to watch. We all knew that he lived among us, but to see him still made us all feel so overwhelmed with love and joy. Here he was and he would never let us down, NEVER. I KNOW THAT IS THE TRUTH.
You will know it too one day, and words will never be able to explain how you will feel. (Which is a good thing because I donít recall anyone in heaven ever speaking, just feeling one another and understanding, and loving, so many emotions all rolled into one.)
As God walked up to stand in front of me. I knew what he wanted. I was about to be born. He never spoke, he just looked down at me and we communicated what was to happen without words, it was a mutual agreement.
So as this happened I began to think to myself that I wanted to remember everything about heaven and that I would never forget. I felt that heaven was so wonderful that I could never forget such a place. But I also knew that time in the flesh would make memories of heaven fade away, and I felt I HAD to remember. I wasnít going to be one of the ones who forgot.
I remember that being very important to me.
I could see myself in the future after my birth asking myself if what I saw in heaven was real, and the thought made me feel ashamed; ashamed to be capable of forgetting God and heaven. Then I felt God listening to my thoughts and smiling in his heart. I had made him proud.
I knew then that he wouldnít let me forget, it was a reassuring feeling.
And then I remember the lights getting very bright. Very harsh and it didnít feel good at all. I think that may have been when I was born.
But I have no memory of my actual birth.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? As alert as I am now. Very alert.
Was the experience dream like in any way? No.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
I wasn't born yet. I had no body other than the child's soul or spirit i was while in heaven.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, wise, childlike, worry. Pretty much every emotion I am capable of feeling now. I didn't feel as though I was missing anything.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No sounds. Only thoughts and feelings.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
I remember another experience where I saw a large mountain where a lion with wings was fighting another creature. I donít remember what the other creature looked like anymore but the lion was very powerful, and much bigger than a lion of our standards. I was hoping he would win because he was the good one of the two. They flew through the air and slammed each other into a mountainous wall. The winged lion was eventually wounded in the right wing. This seemed at the time to be a normal occurrence, and I felt no fear for my life.
This also happened before I was born.
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes
I could do everything I can do now, even speak if i choose to, but we really had no need for words. You just know.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
God made me feel that he choose me to be born for a reason. I knew that I was to perform a job for him. I had the knowledge to know the different types of births. (Like for the experience and such, but this is not one of those times.)
Something is going to happen in my lifetime. And it will pertain to Gods plan. What he has chosen to do with me, he did not say. And I have no reason to ask.
He knows, and thatís all that matters to me. I will follow him to the ends of the earth on my knees if need be. This body is a wonderful thing and I treasure his gift to me, but I feel as though it is a vessel for use, and so I follow blindly, yet I know he has my hand every step of the way.
I trust he knows exactly what he is doing.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes
I knew I was going to be born. I'm pretty sure it was the second time being born because I felt as though I already knew what to expect from the flesh. (Although I could have gotten the experience of being in the flesh from the universal knowledge of things.)
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
I used to be able to move objects with my mind when I was about 14, which was around 1987.
Everyone kept saying it was impossible and no one would ever watch me except my brother. I seem to have lost the ability or can only do small movements, which leave even me skeptical now.
But I can still feel other peopleís thoughts and feelings like in heaven. Sometimes I think I can project my will into other peopleís heads. I'm not sure how to explain it other than I can think something I want someone to do and believe that they are me and its what I want.
Then they do it as if it was there own will. Thatís also how I used to get objects to move.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I am very happy and live a pretty normal life.
The experience makes me able to see everyone from their shoes as well as mine, and be more understanding as to why we feel despair at times like we do.
People are so sad, most can't remember heaven and I think that makes them feel disconnected from a greater purpose in life.
It leads many to always search for that something that they may never find while alive in the flesh.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain
I'm not sure what type of person I would have become without this experience. I hope I would still be the same.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
I told my Grandmother when I was about 5. She listened intently with a raised brow as she taught me how to put on my shirt for the first time by myself. I donít recall her response.
I also told my mother when I was older but she said it was probably a story I was remembering or something of that nature. I know it was not. Finally after mustering up the courage I told my boyfriend a few years ago. He had always joked before about me being prophet. So he listened to what happened and didnít pass judgment. Now he just tries to do some of the things I've taught him. Like how to listen to yourself and read the signs when they are given.
He used to doubt heaven (as I know many people do and are embarrassed to admit.) He now knows, and is sure it does exist. I think it makes him happier. I notice he prays now and thanks God all the time even for the little things.
He's also learned to take time to appreciate nature and make friends with all of Gods creatures. He has a new respect for life, and even takes time to save spiders, animals or just about anything in distress. He now has empathy for even the smallest of creatures, as he now knows we are all in this together.
Donít be afraid to look through someone elseís eyes. You never know when in the future that something may be YOU. Treat everything as if you would treat yourself.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Understanding.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best part of my experience was when God looked at me proudly, as if he had faith in me. Like a father who had raised a child who listened to teachings to make him proud.
He looked at me like he knew I wouldnít let him down. He was proud of himself for me, and proud of me for me. I'll see him again one day and I can't bear to have him think I let him down. It makes me happy to please our father. Not because he would punish me, which I know he would not. I just couldnít bear to feel the hurt in his heart.
I long to show him his teachings did not go unheard, and let him see its not out of fear that I serve him; but out of love to see him happy. Heís just like any other father; he longs to see his children make him proud.Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No