Cindy G's Experience

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Experience description:   

My husband was on a bender...suffering from the disease of alcoholism.

I had been diagnosed with a panic attack that lasted at least 12 hours and was eased with prescribed medication.  When at last I was able to rest and my mind was calming I prayed.

It was unusual for me to pray at this stage of my life as I had no concept of what I was praying to, probably a personal God - I was looking for a power greater than anything or anyone in my life to that point. I remember telling God that if He was real, why was I being tortured in this way and anyhow what was He all about...oh yea...and this was His chance to prove Himself.

I remember entering a light, indescribably bright, brilliant.  I was part of this light and it was part of me.  The light was made up of me.  We were all communicating with each other.....they were all in me and I was in all of them.  The communication was too fast for me to discern what was being said but the feeling that flowed through me from in the light.. was love...more intense than anything I have ever felt.  I was 'home.'  I had the feeling of belonging....of being...that was of indescribable peace.

It was a brief experience....

The next thing I recall was being lead by a presence back to my body and not wanting to return.  What ever was leading me.....was the most beautiful, gentle and loving presence I have ever known and I knew that although I did not want to leave the light  that although I may not have full consciousness of It on my return....It would never leave family of Light would always be there.

I started to wake up...this overpowering feeling of love still in me...for a brief time it remained with me while I was fully conscious....slowly fading as the seconds ticked by.  I was able to resume my normal motherly duties the next day...knowing that what ever was to unfolded in my life was going to lead me 'home'.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes

Husbands illness

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Asleep..not conscious
            Was the experience dream like in any way?   yes but it was still with me when I was awake.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

I was a light or part of a light

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           no

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          Yes

            Describe:      a release into, a gentle leading out of

Did you see a light?           Yes, As described above

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes, beings that were part of the light ....just like me!

They weren't familiar

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           Yes

The dimension of indescribable LOVE.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes

so quick...yet said prayer at night....woke in morning...seemed like a few seconds.

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes

Somehow life...people...was more precious than I had previously thought and that it was important that I stop isolating myself and get out among them.  That my purpose in life was simply to love

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes, I did not want to return.  The amazing presence guided me back.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes

I am now the member of a Christian church.  I believe in Love.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I have less possessions.  I am learning not to cling...I am learning to let go of things and people.  I pray and meditate with others.  I participate in occupations that are life-giving

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes, I now am trying to be more loving and principled in my relationships with people and nature

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes, Positive reactions but have not followed up influences.  I have only told a few individuals...I haven't publicized it.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  peace

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best...being in the light, life changes after......Growth can be painful at times but standing still was death.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I feel easier sharing it as time passes.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes, I like recalling take me 'home'