Christine H's Experience
It happened on a Friday afternoon, the 29th of august, 1997. I stood with my shovel on the grassy slope along the northeast side of my house and had just started to dig a new garden. I stopped for awhile and leaned against the shovel's handle and thought about the visit I had with a friend earlier in the morning. Then ''something'' got my full attention (it happened to me before years ago), it sounded like soft ringing inside my ears and then complete silence. The silence was oddly soothing, drawing me inward. I had the sensation that time slowed down, stopped or became different. The world seemed to disappear (or maybe I did) and I began falling through a black tunnel that quickly turned into streaks of brilliant colored moving light. I wasn't afraid at all, the ride was smooth and invigorating. I was excited to be on this adventure and looked forward to what might happen next.
What happened next is hard to describe. The streaks had stopped, or I had landed and was suddenly witnessing the creation and dawn of life forms, both plant and animal- one right after the other while viewing it in extreme fast forward. My eyes and mind became 'fast’ so I could take in everything. I remember a seed- the roots burst out and spread rapidly through the soil, and then its life pushed through the top and became a red rose in a shade of red my eyes have never seen before, and its petals unfolded in much less than a second. (It was like seeing one of those films in 8th grade health class; a sperm reaches the egg, the fertilized egg becomes an embryo, which then becomes a full term baby- seen in the blink of an eye). The first images were in black, white and grays, then into browns, pure blues and brilliant hues of greens, reds and yellows.
Suddenly I found myself inside what appeared to be a windowless room without doors, empty except for lots of pillows. I knew somehow that I was to be entertained here and I looked forward for the show to begin. I was a guest and was made to feel at home by lying down on the large sumptuous pillows, filled with down and covered in beautiful designs and colors. The room blackened and I felt so comfortable and safe in the darkness. I looked up toward the ceiling and the incredible ‘’light show’’ began. Imagine being inside a giant kaleidoscope, that’s the only way I can describe it. Remember looking in and seeing brilliant lit colors and designs? Somehow here, I became part of the designs- I got to be inside this giant kaleidoscope! Sometime during the show, the pillows tempted me to curl up with them and I fell into a perfect state of sleep.
The next moment I was waking up in a
wonderful, placid blackness -high above in a night sky so black, so deep and
filled with tiny pinholes of starlight. I felt extremely calm, as though I had
awakened from a restful sleep or had just fallen into a peaceful dream. From a
distant corner of the night sky, I watched myself wake up There was nothing but
the blackness around me, above me and below me- I was curled up in a fetal
position- then I realized that nothing held me and I was not afraid of falling.
When I became aware that my body could move about freely, I opened up and
floated slowly downward through the night sky above a new place. I waited
briefly for the sun to rise and then it
I now looked upon a beautiful flower garden, a large crowded mass of colors in full bloom. They were tall and looked 'old world'. The garden was the perfect greeting to the front of the house it belonged to, it was a happy garden. I felt that I had been invited here and though I knew that I was somewhere else (not in my 'normal' state) I felt very natural and welcomed here. My body was now gone, I was lighter than air and getting smaller but becoming something much more than before. My vision was extraordinary and I could zoom in on any intricate detail. The colors were amazing, much more brilliant and vibrant than at 'home'. The colors were alive and they felt love, like everything in the garden. Flowers moved as if a wind came through, but it wasn't wind and I felt neither heat nor cold- just a perfect sense of well being. The sun was bright but never hurt my eyes and it lit up flower petals and insect wings, making them transparent and I flew in close to enjoy the delicate designs…I was being entertained! I could make out individual birds and insects, and their sounds were soft, soothing and playful. However, there was one kind of loud, obnoxious sound I heard from somewhere in the garden- a loud buzzing- that was impatient waiting for my attention. I 'flew' to the sound and was face to face with a big fat bumblebee. It went inside a flower and then suddenly, was blown out by a tremendous explosion of pollen! I could see each tiny grain floating in slow motion. The bumblebee was 'high' on it and it's eyes rolled back. Its facial expression said ''I just had the most amazing orgasm,'' then it looked me straight in the eyes and smiled a most ridiculous smile and flew off… I laughed out loud. The garden was the entire universe and everything it held, I saw in a single dewdrop, on the petal of a flower. I remember thanking God for letting me 'visit' and was having such a great time, that I would have been content, to stay and explore it all until something else got my full attention. I flew above and watched a boy who entered the garden.
He appeared to be around fourteen years of age. He walked along a stone path, which went through the center of the garden and ended at the front door of the house. He wore a velvet like gray-blue jacket with a high collar and shiny buttons down the front. I could see the white ruffle of his shirt sticking out from under the jacket sleeves. His matching pants were cuffed below the knees. He wore long, pale stockings and his dark brown leather shoes looked well worn and soft. The shoes had brass buckles and the sunlight bounced off of them as he walked. His longish, dark curls bounced lightly and framed his smiling and radiant face. He carried a colorful bouquet of flowers (that he picked himself) from a garden somewhere else. Despite his age, there was a sureness about him that was honest and wise. I heard him humming a song that sounded old and silly, and the faster he walked the faster he hummed … it made me smile. He did not look in my direction and seemed unaware of my being there. His entire being was focussed only on a girl who lived in the house. The garden’s flowers were taller than the boy was and they seemed to be excited by his presence. I followed him closely and realized I was feeling his joy. As I came closer to the house I noticed that I had become, in a way, an invisible, flying nothingness that could now go through anything - including the boy. I felt incredibly light and everything I felt and every thought I had was good and beautiful. There wasn’t the ticking of time passing here and it would slow down, so that I could take everything in.
The girl lived in a small and charming country house. It looked like it belonged somewhere in Europe. It was made of light colored stone and had the appearance of being painted with pale, washes of color. The door was centered with one large window on each side of it. The walls were very thick and the windowsills set deep. The second floor windows were much smaller. Wood shutters- aged a bronzed dark brown burgundy - framed the paned windows. The front door was solid and thick, with many layers of paint and I noticed delicate, beautiful webbing on its surface- I flew in to see it up close-the door’s coloring and texture reminded me of seashells. Adorning it was a wonderful oval brass door knocker –I saw the boy's reflection in it- then he went to touch it. Time slowed, then seemed to stop, then also went backwards so I could go inside to finish something.
The inside of the house, was filled with sunlight and color, much like the garden outside and there were several vases of fresh cut flowers through out. The downstairs (never went upstairs) seemed like one large room and the furniture was beautifully crafted and covered in wonderful floral materials. I noticed the girl standing in the back, right side of the room, as if she had just ran down the stairway. The girl was small and petite, looked to be about thirteen or fourteen. She wore a long, pale yellow, satiny dress that was fitted to her tiny waist. A matching colored ribbon was tied around her head and long shining ringlets in light brown jumped around her shoulders. She glowed, like the petals and wings did when lit up by the sun. There was a wonderful aliveness about her, the same I saw in the boy and her feelings for him… just as incredibly beautiful and real. There was a woman standing next to her, the mother I thought (I could not 'feel' the woman) and although, she seemed genuinely happy for the girl, I noticed she appeared worried and sad about something, but hid it from the girl, who could barely contain her excitement. She wanted to run and open the door before he could knock, but her mother reminded her that it wasn't 'ladylike'. They didn't speak but I could still 'hear' them, but in a different way. I felt everything inside the girl and our anticipation was more than we could stand.
We watched the boy through the front windows as he happily walked the garden path (all over again) towards the front door. I then had, for the first time there, a feeling of dread and my eyes darted to the room on the left. It was separate from the main room and in my transfixed state, I never noticed it before, but there was a man sitting in a chair and he was looking out the window, watching the boy approach. The chair faced away from me but I could see part of his head. The room was darker and somewhat blurry, unlike the super clear vision I had everywhere else. I was about to go in (reluctantly) and take a look at the hidden man, but something stopped me. It was the sudden urgency of time, rushing in quickly, moving me forward and back to the girl… for the moment, we all had waited for. Then he knocked and I put the dark feeling away.
She took a deep breath (so did I), as her hand turned the brass knob and the door opened. I watched them looking at each other and they smiled, their eyes spoke the feelings that words would only fail at. Suddenly, I was inside the boy, seeing her through his eyes, then I was looking into his eyes, seeing him the way she did and I saw their reflections looking back at me. This kind of love, doesn't seem to exist as I (we) know it, this was love the way it's meant to be and you could live on it and nothing else. Then the final transformation happened. I simultaneously went through both of them and felt the most indescribable feeling of all…I became the love they had for each other, I was love itself. It ended too soon.
I was once again
leaning against my shovel's handle, in the exact spot as before. When I looked
around, everything looked clearer and much more beautiful. Even the grass looked
alive and was a more vibrant greener shade of green- it was like seeing color
for the very first time. The sounds of insects and birds were both distinct and
harmonious. I felt incredible and energetic; it seemed a tiny part of the garden
had come back with me. At the same time, I felt sadness- like a feeling of
losing someone you love very much- I had a feeling that something terrible
happened to the boy and girl. The vibrant colors and feelings would linger on
for several days and then diminish more and more, until everything turned back
into normal dullness. Sometimes when I hear a bumblebee, I get real close,
hoping to see a smile.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes So many layers to it and extremely detailed.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Superhuman.
Was the experience dream like in any way? I was alert and knew it was NOT a dream the whole time.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes At one part I watched myself, watching myself awaken in space, while the awake "me" saw and felt the other 'me's'
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I thanked God for giving me the experience. I didn't want it to end.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Before I left my body there was a ringing sound-like it was grabbing my attention. I remember the sound of flowers and insects. My hearing was extremely tuned. This ringing happened twice before with 2 other odd experiences through my life,
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? Uncertain Nothing from anything I was taught and nothing very familiar yet it all made sense. I believe.
Did you see a light? Yes Everywhere. Even the intense light of the sun didn't hurt my eyes.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes They communicated something to me, about love.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes Incredible senses-felt it throughout and afterwards.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Was aware of time stopping, slowing down and speeding up.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes God exists in all of us. Somehow we've denied it or forgotten how to let our light show to one another.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes