Chris R's Experience
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Experience description:

I was 17 and experiencing the absolute limit of my capacity to handle multiple stressful situations. My 16 year old girlfriend was pregnant - I was facing expulsion from high school - our family home was pending foreclosure... etc. 

Alone in my bedroom one night, after a couple of days spent learning about and digesting these situations, it all began to overwhelm me. I was sitting on the edge of my bed panicking, sweating, shaking, moaning, writhing and begging God to save me from this. In short, there was *MUCH* "wailing and gnashing of teeth". 

 After an hour or so of this, (somewhat suddenly), everything changed: For a moment I was blind, then suddenly - one by one - every lowly human sensation was lifted away from me. No worry. No sadness. No fear. No dread. No pain. Nothing negative whatsoever. Only... pure bliss. Pure joy. ABSOLUTE BRILLIANT ECSTASY! 

As all negative emotion was being removed, I found myself in a place I'd never been. Getting there involved no tunnel, there was no "bright light" and there was no "life review". Just: BAM! I was there... I had the sensation that I'd "broken through"... I found myself standing in this ecstasy near the foot of a bridge which ramped slightly upward and to my right, then peeled down to the left and descended into the most magnificent city I had ever seen. I have since seen Paris, London and New York, and this city dwarfed all of them - all of them put together. The city was giant and shimmering and pulsating - magnificent. The sky had an amazing, iridescent twilight quality.  

Out-posted on this bridge were sentient beings. They floated about eight inches off the ground, facing outward, stationed approximately every 60 yards. *IMMEDIATELY* I ran as fast as I could to the closest one to me - on my left. As I ran I mentally screamed, "I'm here!! I made it! I'm back! I'm home! Isn't this glorious!?! Isn't this wonderful!?!" However, the being was very dismissive. Without words, It said plainly "I know who you are, but I'm not sure how you got here. You and I both know that you should not be here... Now go." In a word: i was crushed. Quickly, I felt all of the negative human emotions falling back on me. My vision of this being on the bridge gradually converted to the pasty, yellow-white corner of my sad bedroom. I was left, sitting on the edge of the bed, angry that I couldn't stay. All I felt was sad and dejected, heavily burdened by these weights, once again. 

The next several weeks are a complete blur. My girlfriend accidentally let on to her mom that she had morning sickness - and her mother forced an abortion on her. I *was* kicked out of school, but didn't care. Similarly, we did loose our home, but at the time it just didn't matter.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     No      

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes     It would be impossible to experience anything remotely similar within a physical existence on Earth.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No      

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           Complete and total.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   NOT AT ALL.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     My appearance outside of my body was identical to my everyday appearance.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Bliss. Ecstasy, Power, Peace, Joy, Rapture, Contentment.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           No.

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Yes     See above.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             Yes     No. I didn't cross the boundry.

Did you become aware of future events?       No      

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       Yes     Awful experience. See above.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   No response           

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       From then on I've had a 'knowing' about what's to come after my death.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Yes     Since my experience, I've been looking forward to death.

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     I can't seem to be able to accurately convey the importance of the experience.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  depression.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Going home & being sent back.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        This was NOT an astral projection, (which i've managed to do). And this was NOT a dream.

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       ABSOLUTELY NOT.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes    

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    No. This questionnaire has been well crafted.