Cher W's Experience
It was a Saturday morning, no one was home. So i went outside and smoked about a bowl of Marijuana, which is about one small joint. I was intoxicated a little.
I went up to my room. and then I went to go downstairs. I felt so ill. I could not hold my self up. I sat down at the top of my stairs. I was having trouble breathing and I was getting really hot. I felt sick and went to the bathroom. I had trouble holding my self up. But I made it. I then thought if i took a shower i would feel better. so i tried to get strength back and go the my bathroom. I turned on the shower and got in. once i got in I could not hold my self up. so i laid down with the shower still on. I plugged the tub up, hoping it would fill up with water than i could lay there and relax and feel better.
My mind was wondering all over the place. Then i think i passed out. I could kind of see. but i couldn't open my eyes. everything was in my mind. then out of the shower head where the water was coming down was a bright light, with like a yellow ring around it. and i could kind of see the water falling on me. then all of a sudden my right leg started to rise. and my response was, is this really happening to me? I tried to open my eyes but i couldn't.. then my left leg started to rise. and I was thinking again what is happening? why cant i open my eyes? I kinda looked around and i was laying in a white tub that expanded for ever. like it was flat and then there was a tub like thing i was laying in with clean aqua color water. then i felt my lower body to start to rise. and then i knew i was going to die. I looked up and seen what looked like a pair of hands reaching for my body to go into. but i said. I can't go now. can i have another chance?
the light went away and i could open my eyes. I stood up. and i was like, whoa did that really happen? and then for a while i realized things that i haven't realized before. I believed in God. And i did not feel stoned or intoxicated. I felt good. I washed my self, like i do everyday when i take a shower, I got out and dried and got dressed. I looked back at the water and it was pretty. the water was clean and pure. I was thinking about keeping some of it. but i didn't. Now that i think about it, i should have kept some in a jar. but i drained the water. and after it was all drained
There was alot of dirt. and it was never like that before. I couldn't be that dirty, it looked like i rolled in mud than took a bath. I was thinking. is that dirt my Sin? And i know still believe it was my sin being washed away. I still think to my self. what if i didn't ask to live. Would i have died there in my bathtub? and it would have looked like i drowned my self. I was thankful i was giving another chance to make better of myself.
After that experience that day. I felt happy through out the day. But the next day is what makes me wonder. Which is today. I got up about 9 am. I felt real Ill. My throat hurt, I had an ear ach. and every muscle in my body ached, it felt like i spent hours in a gym working out. I took a nap from 11am-3:30pm. I had a dream, but i don't really remember what it was about or who it was. but i think i was helping someone. and i changed their life. when i woke up. I felt sick still. and then i laid there and i got this thought i was going to die if i didn't do anything for anyone.
And i started to cry to my self because i did not want to be the first to die. I have never had anyone close to my die yet. And i did not want to be the first. And i got this thought, I needed to help someone, and change there life. and the first person that came to mind was this kid i know, who doesn't really like me. and he would think i was crazy, or wouldn't really care. I don't know if this is just me talking to my self. or if it was God telling me through my own mind. but i am going to do what ever my heart tells me too.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: Yes
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate? I don't Know how to put some things into Words
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
Describe: I think, if I did not get up, i would have died. but i asked for another chance. and God gave it to me.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I knew what going on after I was half there.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt, Is this really happening. I kind of doubted it. I just thought i was dreaming, until i was half gone. then i realized i was going to die if i did not get up.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? All i could hear was my self talking to my self.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain
Describe: I think i might have seen a pair of hands waiting for me to rise all the way.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Uncertain
Describe: I seen a bright light coming from the shower head, with like a yellow light around a bright white tunnel, and i could see all around me i was lying in a white bathtub with real clean and pure water.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Uncertain
Describe: I did not know what going on. but then when i was half risen, I knew I was going to die if i didn't get up on my own.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Describe: I sensed that if i did not get up it would be the end.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Uncertain
Describe: I don't get this question. But i think i did now that if i didn't ask for another chance than i would have died, and it would look like i have drowned.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes
Describe: I think I was given another chance to Help someone. I am only given another chance to live as long as i change one persons life. But i don't know what i need to do. or how long I got
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: I believe that i need to respect people more. and be nicer. I know believe in God truly. and he is willing to let you live as long as you make it positive.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? I now believe in God. Before i had my doubts. and i felt like i was not really loved by many people.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: most of them believe me. A couple say I was just stoned. but after my experience, i did not feel intoxicated at all.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I felt scared, loved, i felt like I was given another chance for a reason.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? the best was that It changed me. It made me see things i did not see before. and the worst was the thought that if i did not ask for forgiveness then i wouldn't be here today. I would have drowned
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? when i got up i looked at the tub. it was half full. and i was thinking if i laid there the tub would have been all the way full and it would have looked like i drowned my self. And also the water looked clear. like an aqua color. and there was alot of dirt in the tub after it drained. It has never been that dirty, because i don't get that dirty. I think the dirt was my sins being washed away.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Explain: I tried to explain everything as much as i could. I tried to put things i seen in words, so that people can understand. and not think i am crazy.