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Experience description:

When I was two years old living in Iceland with my mother, father, sister and brother, we came home from running errands and my mother told my brother to get me out of the truck. He forgot and she thought I was in my room playing. I screamed and screamed in the truck slapping the window hoping someone would come. My young mind hadn't figured out how to get out of the truck but I did manage to get out of the car seat. I crawled throughout it searching for a way out. I slapped the window some more and that's when I saw myself. I was outside of the SUV looking in at my terrified face. I watched for a minute before going inside the house. I saw my mom still putting groceries away, but then she called for me. And when I didn't come, she searched the house for me. Then I watched her go into my brothers room and ask where I was. He said he didn't know. She yelled at him as she ran out the front door. I was walking through the living room when all of a sudden I was back inside myself looking at my mom the moment she opened the car door.

I can't say for certain what I was like personality wise before the event but to this day I feel that I'm a magnet for troubled people. I can feel when something is wrong with a person I just met. I'm overly sensitive to the point where nearly every woman I've ever been with ends up telling me that they were molested as a child. From that day I never touch them again sexual, but instead I help them cope with the situation. It's all so casual to me, just helping someone out. But that memory from my childhood and the recent studying I've done have lead me to believe it might be something more. What I don't know. I've never been religious. Even as a child raised by two devout Christians. For a time I identified as Christian, out of fear of eternal burning. But I never believed. A true skeptic really, and that's why it took me 23 years to entertain the idea that I might have had an experience beyond rational explanation. I would hazard to guess you don't get very many stories from toddlers but then again I don't know.

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes Was left in a car as a small child in Iceland. It wasn't winter but it was still cold.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Full alert

Was the experience dream like in any way? Sort of. It felt real but very surreal.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I looked exactly like the boy I've seen in pictures growing up, only terrified and bawling my eyes out.

What emotions did you feel during the experience? Terror until the moment I appeared out of the vehicle. The physical me was crying, the other me was cool calm and collected.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? A loud quiet, not a ringing, but as it the quiet had amplified.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No

Did you see a light? No

Did you meet or see any other beings? No

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes

I saw my family searching for me inside the house

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes My mother explained exactly what happened when they left me inside.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No

Did you become aware of future events? No

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Uncertain I returned the moment my mom opened the door to the vehicle

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Don't know if it directly correlates but I have a hard time trusting people or getting close to them. But people love to tell me all their dirty secrets or past issues.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain Was so young I can't really say my life was changed.

Have you shared this experience with others? Yes They were all as skeptical as myself.

What emotions did you experience following your experience? Fear of being alone

What was the best and worst part of your experience? Worst part was being so helpless, best part was escaping my helplessness.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes Psychedelic mushrooms gave me that feeling of calm but not the out of body sensation. Marijuana on a daily basis helps me cope with my fear of being alone.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Very good questions. Thank you for this.