Cedric S' Experience
I went to the beach that day to go surfing. I had already 4 years of experience and was a very good surfer and swimmer. That day the waves were around 9 feet tall, and just before going into the water I had a feeling I should not get in the water, I was a bit nervous but I went anyway. I got hit by the first wave of a set and it took me under ,when I surfaced I needed to take a deep breath to be able to cope with the rest of the set(2) more waves. Here it went wrong I got a whole lot of foam (white water) and I could not take in enough air, so when the second wave hit me I went under without air, in panic and because of the force of the wave I went down and because I was totally in panic I did not see I was swimming in the wrong direction. Instead of going up I was going to the bottom, first I tried to fight it but then I remember saying to myself 'if I have to go like this God so be it'. A feeling of peace and serenity came over me and everything turned into a very special blue and I was gone.
Next thing I know I have my board under my arm and walking out of the water, I was trying to understand what just went down. I had a feeling I was in another dimension although I was on the same beach and later on went home to my house, something had changed I could not really pinpoint it. Somehow I felt like I had died and jumped into a parallel world that just was a little bit different than what I was accustomed. I told only one person about this.
In the next days I could sense a change in me, my five senses were more alert, I had problems with bright light and acute sounds. Needless to say that my life changed dramatically, I moved a lot from one country to another, I was restless. A few years later I was in a very strange car accident and little after that I had a re-birth. Then things started to really change, I had spontaneous out off body experiences, where I would travel into space and get into big huge tunnel like holes (found them in books about Mayans and also time travel) By now I had a feeling of understanding much bigger than before the drowning, I had this urge to find the truth, I could see trough people get over the small talk and things like that. I had also more lucid dreams, got into Astral travelling (found information in a book called Astral dynamics from Robert Bruce)
I also seemed to have numerous conversations in my sleep with all kinds of people and creatures, it all depended on my questions and interests at that point. Sometimes Anubis would talk to me, or Greek philosophers and many others. To be able to cope and confirm that I was not going crazy I started to read books at a rate of 5 a week, I did this for at least 8 years. The books were not random but they seemed to follow a pattern. I also lost total fear of death, this does not mean I live dangerously I just have no fear to die. I also feel a deep connection with al of nature and the universe. Déjà vus are part of everyday things.
have peace and understanding that conflicts with most people around me. I also
have no interest in religion, although I read books from Christianity to
Buddhism, Taoism, Sufism and so on. I got more interested in the Quantum world
and I seem to try more and more to understand things from that level up.
Although I can not put it in words I have a more universal understanding of
everything, it is like a inner knowing that is always present 24/7.I also have a
feeling something or someone is guiding me, almost like teaching me all I need
to know. But the biggest problem I had and still have sometimes is the feeling I
am not in the same world I was before the drowning, is it because I changed or
am I really in another although similar world? That I have no answer for yet. It
took me more than 20 years to be able to talk about this, I just needed to be
sure I would not sound crazy, but after reading so much and understanding things
better I can now tell people what went on and is still going on.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I was drowning
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Just before everything went bleu
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Just before everything went bleu
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes Everything seemed to have a depth to it like 4 dimensional kind off.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I did have a higher ability to hear different pitches and sounds, that I normally did not hear.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Serenity, peace, feeling of belonging, freedom, expansion.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Uncertain It was not a light it was more a total immersion into a bleu colored world
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain At the moment itself I did not, but it seemed like it appeared little by little everyday after that, I had a feeling I needed to rectify a lot of things that I had lived trough in the past. Also the review came more in my sleep after the drowning.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes Yes, it felt like there was no more time.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes It is difficult to explain but I seem to have gotten more knowledge although not in words but more a inner knowing, a feeling of universal knowing without the need to explain or discuss 'I just know' and that is enough feeling.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain It went all to fast. I did have the feeling I was stopped and send back, for many years I had a problem with that, because when I drowned I gave in and thought that was a sign of acceptance. So for me to be back was a negative experience that took years to accept. The barrier looked like some kind of gigantic web.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Not really but I did have peace about everything that would happen in my life from then on, and when major events occurred I was not surprised at all. It is like a knowing that these things have to happen.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain My senses are more accurate, I seem to be able to know what somebody will say before they do, I travel in my sleep and I am aware of these trips as if they were real, I am more aware of everything around me.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it with one person just after the experience and then I kept it for myself for more than 20 years. I started talking about it when I met a Parapsychologist who helped me understand things better.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real It was real to me because of the rapid changes I experienced afterwards in my life and the way I perceived and lived things, the change was dramatic and speeded up.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, it changed my whole belief and view of life itself. Nothing was ever the same.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real After so many years of change (for the better) and everything I go trough on daily bases I can not think for one minute the experience was not real. There is no doubt in my mind and heart it went down like it did, there might be a few elements in the aftermath that are not clear yet.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I am more loving, tolerant, bigger sense of evolvement, more calm, more open to otherwise not explainable things. More patient, more relaxed, more secure. More aware.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain When I was born my mother was and still is a Jehovah witness, I used to study the bible but did not really agree with her religion or any other Christian based one. Right now I have no belief at al as religion is concerned. I do believe we are part of a bigger picture, and very much involved as human race, more than we know. We are not some evolutionary thing that is without control, but we are part of a universal kind of program in action, together with other worlds.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes A very big car accident and a re-birth.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I have no regrets I had the experience it changed me into a better person al around, even if right now I am not in a constant balanced state of awareness, it keeps getting better and better.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes The questions were simple and to the point I had no difficulty answering them at a very easy pace.