Cathy W's Experience
I am 56 yrs. old and have taught middle school for 27 years. I have been a single parent of two for 17 years. However, now that my youngest is in college, I decided to take on the dating world.
I met a very nice man, and we dated for a year and half before we became engaged. We were just married this past September 5, 2009, Saturday. We left on our honeymoon the next day, doing a bed and breakfast "Texas tour". We arrived in Jefferson, Texas, checked into the historic bed and breakfast, had a wonderful dinner and went to bed around 10:30 p.m. drifting off to sleep.
Around 11:00, my husband told me he loved me very much and I responded with the same back and then we went back to sleep. Sometime after that, (I really have no idea of the time), I woke up and this is when I had my experience.
I was lying on my back and my husband was on his stomach (the way he always goes to sleep). I awoke and turned my head in his direction and I saw a blue/grey light surrounding him. He was raised off his stomach (arched from his back), and was literally vibrating. Not shaking but vibrating. I was looking at his face, his eyes were closed and his lips were protruding. At the time, I was witnessing this (and I WAS NOT dreaming), I had such a sense of calm. I could not hear any noise at all and I felt no movement at all and yet I saw this vibration movement of my husband. I thought to myself, I need to pat him on his back, to calm him down. My mind was telling me he was having a hard time sleeping and yet I did not have a sense of urgency at what I was witnessing, but I could not move my arm to pat his back to calm him. No sooner did I witness this event, then I fell soundly back to deep sleep.
Around 3:42 a.m., I awoke, to go to the bathroom. I got up out of the bed, went to the bathroom, did not turn on any lights because I didn't want to wake up my husband (at this time I had NO memory of "my experience" at all). I remember the time because I saw the red numbers on the clock as I was going to the bathroom. I came back to the bed and noticed my husband's face was more into the pillow. I called his name, just to stir him so he would move his head in order for him to breathe better, and he didn't respond. After receiving no response from him and getting the hotel clerk to get 911 help, the paramedics later told me he was gone and that he had passed a few hours earlier. He officially died in the early morning hours of September 7, 2009, Monday, on Labor Day. We were married officially for one day and a half.
It wasn't until the next night that "my experience" of seeing the blue/grey light and my husband vibrating, came back into my memory. The light was very peaceful and calming, no sense of anything bad or evil however, the vibrations did not make sense to me.
I have not told many people about this event, only my immediate family members. I am having a hard time understanding what I was experiencing. I am a Christian believer, and I'm wondering if I experienced just a glimpse of my husband's soul leaving his human body?
I can not stop thinking about "my experience".
Do you have any thoughts, ideas or suggestions about "my experience"? Any help would be greatly appreciated.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The light that surrounded my husband and the vibrations that his body was experiencing. I was unable to really move to look around the room or anywhere else so I just was able to focus on his face and upper body.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain At the time of my experience, I didn't realize my husband was dying of a sudden heart attack. I did not associate the experience with death at the time.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I don't know the exact time of my experience, but it had to be between 11:30 pm-3:42am. When I witnessed this experience, I was completely and fully aware the minute I opened my eyes.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
I don't know the exact time of my experience, but it had to be between 11:30 pm-3:42am. When I witnessed this experience, I was completely and fully aware the minute I opened my eyes.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes As I was watching this experience, I could see clearly but it was as though I was seeing through a screen or a veil. My vision was clear but not as clear if I were seeing someone in the daytime. There was a certain element hindering pure sight nonetheless, I saw everything very clearly. I focused on the features of my husband's face.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Yes I heard absolutely NO sounds. No sounds from my husband or anything...nothing.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? At viewing this experience, I felt very peaceful and calm. No sense of emergency or urgency. No worries at all and yet I was viewing something very strange happening to my husband. Because of the peacefulness, I suddenly went back to a sound sleep.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes The light was more blue in color with some grey. I don't know if the light was all around the room but it was definitely surrounding my husband. I know the light was not on me. When I awoke around 3:42 am to go to the bathroom, there was no special light. The room was just dark with regular light streaming in from the outside hallway.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes My husbands face and upper body were vibrating and being pulled in an upper motion along with the light. All were happening at the same time, interacting together.
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes I first shared this with my daughter. The experience did not come to my memory or mind until the late evening hours of Sept. 7th, 2009. She believed it was a gift from God to allow me to witness this event and to know that Herschel, my husband, was going to heaven.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I know my experience was definitely real. I'm just not sure why I was given a glimpse of the spiritual realm of death. I'm hoping it is to comfort me and to know Herschel went to heaven. However, I guess I am looking for meaning and to understand why I was allowed to witness this experience.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? I am trying to understand the whole experience. The vibrations around him are difficult for me to understand.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real I think the experience was to allow me to know that Herschel went to heaven upon his death. I feel what I witnessed was his soul leaving his human body. I feel it was a spiritual gift from God.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Please forward any info or insight to help me understand.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? I would like to know if there are any other people who did not have a NDE but only witnessed the death and soul leaving of someone else.