Carson J's Experience
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Experience description:
I have been feeling
pretty lonely lately, and my friend had been ignoring me frequently, so I
confronted her about it over text message. tensions started to escalate and I
became rather furious and full of anger, and then my head started to throb. I
have had similar pains to it, I frequently have migraines. and then I just lost
control. I felt like I was witnessing my body act out abnormal actions, such as
writing a poem about life. I texted my friend, and I was using abnormally large
words, some words I still have no clue what they mean. it lasted for about 45
minutes, until I started to have another throbbing head pain. and then I just
kind of came back to my body. there's no way to explain it really. I was very
sweaty, and I had tears in my eyes. whatever I experienced, it was something I
hope to never experience again NDERF: Requested poem that he wrote, and received it
with permission to post on the website: Life What is this irreversible time lapse that we call
life? What do the countless endeavors lead to in the end? What happens after all necessary body functions come
to a dismal end? Will we be engulfed into the pits of darkness? Or rather would a new sense of relevance shed light on
a sought after path of happiness? For it is life that we may live and learn But it is in death, that we emerge through a process
of anointing, to take part in the true destiny given to us as we developed in
our mothers womb The one question that will still remain is which path
will you take? Will you plummet to a realm of never ending darkness? Or will you rise up, and take part in the utopia in
which there is no resentment or agony nor regret For this is the meaning of life, the process of
realization for what comes next
At the time of this experience, was there
an associated life threatening event?
No
What was your level of consciousness and
alertness during the experience?
I could only feel physically, like the texture of my bed and pillow
Was the experience dream like in any way?
not at all
Did you experience a separation of your
consciousness from your body? Yes
my face showed zero emotion, it was like I was looking at an empty canvas
What emotions did you feel during the
experience? I felt content, and at
ease. I also had a sense of confusion
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
I could hear what sounded like someone
slamming a car door off in the distance, it could have been some kind of drum or
possibly explosion, its hard to describe
LOCATION DESCRIPTION:
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
amazing creatures? Uncertain
I felt darkness, and nothing but darkness. it was like I was in some kind
of hole, with nothing around me
Did you see a light?
No
Did you meet or see any other beings?
No
Did you experiment while out of the body
or in another, altered state? Yes
I don't know what you would consider
writing a full poem to be. whenever I read it I still have this sense of
confusion
Did you observe or hear anything regarding
people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were
working, and if so, how were they different?
No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time?
Yes I felt like my
mind was stopped in time, while my body was still in time
Did you have a sense of knowing, special
knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes I can remember
these words that were way to big for a junior in high school to know
Did you reach a boundary or limiting
physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events?
No
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the
experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Yes my vocabulary
and choice of words has expanded to a point that I can't fathom
How has the experience affected your
relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I just had the experience so it hasn't
affected anything yet to my knowledge
Have you shared this experience with
others? Yes I
told my mom, but she was half asleep and had no idea what I was discussing with
her
What emotions did you experience following
your experience? I felt closure, and a
sense of purpose
What was the best and worst part of your
experience? the best part was this
sense of never ending knowledge that I was able to obtain, but I hate
recollecting the feeling of not being in control of my body functions
Please offer any suggestions you may have
to improve this questionnaire. ask
about head pains proceeding the OBE