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Carolyn B's Experience

Experience description:   

I had a complete hysterectomy due to continual cysts, and endometriosis that never ever quit. It was a full incision from hip to hip, and not done with a scope.  I was scheduled to be in hospital for only 2 days.  After the surgery, My incision on my left side would not quit draining and bleeding.  Finally 3 days later the doctor ordered a CT scan, and found the cause. A really bad hematoma (blood clot).  I was bleeding so much that doctor had to get 2 units of blood into me immediately and the only thing that could control the heavy incision bleeding were HUGE bandages ON the incision. These pads would be drenched with fluid and blood as quickly as the nurses applied them to the incision, and the nurses kept having to "run" these bandages up to NICU to weigh how much blood I was losing. The nurses were running in and out of my room, and my room looked like someone had butchered a pig! There was blood everywhere. 

A minister came by a couple of hours later and I was so weak that I just wanted to sleep and rest. He started to pray for me, and within 30 seconds, I felt the presence of some kind of "being" off to the left side of the bed about 3 feet away from my left foot.  This being seemed to know exactly who I was, and seemed to know I was very scared. It also seemed to know that I had a lifelong battle with depression, and it gave me the choice telepathically if I wanted to stay on earth or go "home". Not "home" to my residence or favorite state where I was raised, but rather home to meet God, but it said to me "it wouldn't leave me alone for the journey, and that I may not be okay, and that if not, I needed to make my peace with God, and go with this being" "but he would not leave me alone and would take me to meet my relatives and ancestors that had gone before" (kind of like a friend that stops by to give you a ride somewhere). Like a guide on a trip or a journey. Also this being only gave me a second it seemed to decide whether to stay here on Earth, or to go with him/her.  

The only reason that I stayed is because I had the feeling that if I went, then my mom would have been very hurt.  This being was neither male nor female, and the feeling of love and peace was so overpowering that I couldn't stop crying. Happy crying though. It then "allowed" me to stay with the "understanding" that it could return for me at any time.  I was scared, but at peace at the same time.  I have never really told anyone of this, but I am now not afraid to die, nor am I afraid to live.  The feeling of peace and love that this being brought to me that day was 1,000 times more peaceful than I have ever felt in any church of any denomination.  My eventual recovery was very slow, and I had to have a second surgery 5 weeks later to drain the excess fluid and "pack" the wound since it wouldn't heal.  That surgery went fine, but I will never forget what happened in that room.

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      That this "being" seemed to communicate with me through telepathy.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          Yes     I was bleeding to death due to a hematoma that formed during surgery. It was 3 days after this surgery and I was in hospital that I felt this presence.

At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?    When I felt I was at my weakest physical point.

How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness?    More consciousness and alertness than normal

If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain:            When I felt I was at my weakest physical point.

Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?  No      

Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Uncertain

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            I was very aware of a very peaceful and good being in the room with me. I was scared, but at peace at the same time.  I seemed to have telepathy with this being, and that is how it communicated with me at that time.

Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?          No      

Did you see a light?           No      

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      I just felt a being in the room with me while my physical health was failing.  It gave me the choice whether to stay or go.  If I stayed here, it could be back for me at any time, but if I went, it would take me to meet God and all my relatives that went before.

Did you experience a review of past events in your life?    No      

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          No      

Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?           No           

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     Seemed like decision that I made to stay here was only a millisecond of the "time" that this being was here.

Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?     Yes     I felt I could "speak" to this being through telepathy. I am NOT a psychic either.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain      No boundary crossed, but it would have let me if I decided to go with this being.

Did you become aware of future events?       Uncertain
            I seem to be more "in tune" with things now.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?     No      

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     A very religious Catholic person I know told me this experience was of Satan, and it was evil. I do NOT for one second believe that this being was evil at all. The peaceful feeling was way too intense. This lady and I almost got into a fight about it when I told her just a few weeks ago. But, I know what I felt, and what was in my room that day. it was NOT evil.

Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?    No            Just what I have heard from others, but I didn't let this being stay long enough to see a tunnel. I'm sure I would have seen a tunnel if I had decided to go with it. Just a feeling that I had.

How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:            Experience was definitely real    See prior answers above.

Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you?            The overwhelming feeling of peace and calm.

How do you currently view the reality of your experience:            Experience was definitely real   

Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?           Yes     I value life a lot more now.

Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?           
Yes     I went back to the Catholic faith from LDS (Mormon).

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No      

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        I am not afraid to die now, nor am I afraid to live.  I don't really go to church a whole lot anymore, I guess that's cause I feel that I have already experienced what is in store for us when we go, and it's not about how much money you had, or how many times you went to church, but rather a second chance to right ones wrongs.

Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?         Yes     As best I can without everyone thinking that I'm a nut.