Carol O's Experience
My first love boyfriend had broken up with me and I didn't know why. In struggling to get past it for months, I went to bed one school night and literally willed myself to die. I was not sleeping during this event and I had turned out the lights in my room. Upon concentrating on wanting to die, I arose above my body laying in bed and looked down. I could definitely see myself laying there. I then proceeded to go down into this spiral tunnel and around and round and down, down I went. The tunnel was dark but I could see that I was going down. After a period of time traveling this way, there was an opening and I came through it and found myself standing with a wall behind me (or the shoot that I had just came out of was now behind me and that opening was directly behind me about shoulder height.) There was this huge, bright white light shining on me. God spoke to me although I could not see him, but I have always assumed it was God. He said, "Have you made your final decision?"
I thought for a moment before the reply and then realized that I did not want to end my life, that I had a lot to live for and that I had a lot to do before this time was necessary. It was a very simple thought process that came over me immediately. I then replied and told God the same thoughts. He said, "Then you may return." I was then sent back up the dark spiral tunnel...appeared again in my bedroom looking down on my body laying in my bed. I went to sleep and slept very well all night long.
When morning came, my alarm clock woke me up to get ready for school (as normal). My total thoughts presented a 180% total turnaround about the guy that broke up with me. I no longer was affected by the breakup, was very happy, got dressed and went to school. From that day on, I never cared if we ever went back together, was content and happy about my life and grateful for what I had. I was a totally NEW person with an adjusted attitude about life and the whole situation. It was as if I was given a 'happy pill'. I kept waiting for the happy feeling to go away and start crying again, but it never did. I was OVER it and very thankful that the Lord allowed me a choice. I was happy with my choice and have gone forth with life knowing I was given a choice to turn the chips in or keep going.
I never told a soul
about this experience because I knew no one would believe me. They would all
tell me I was dreaming, but I definitely was NOT. I kept it a secret until one
day I read a magazine and found a 'NDE' article that read my same experience. I
just couldn't believe it. I was probably about 30 by then. I am convinced there
is a God and there is an afterlife even though I couldn't see beyond the light
or see what was beyond the light. I knew I was going to be taken somewhere with
God and felt very safe but chose to go back and finish out my life on Earth.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Yes, I was very conscience and alert.
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Yes, I was very conscience and alert.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? No
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? I felt no stress, I felt no resistance...... just contentment on a journey.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes Upon concentrating on wanting to die, I arose above my body laying in bed and looked down. I could definitely see myself laying there. I then proceeded to go down into this spiral tunnel and around and round and down, down I went. The tunnel was dark but I could see that I was going down. After a period of time traveling this way, there was an opening and I came through it and found myself standing with a wall behind me (or the shoot that I had just came out of was now behind me and that opening was directly behind me about shoulder height.) There was this huge, bright white light shining on me. God spoke to me although I could not see him, but I have always assumed it was God. He said, "Have you made your final decision?"
Did you see a light? Yes I saw a bright light after I got out of the tunnel at the end. The light was so bright, you couldn't see who was speaking to me. I was not afraid as I was talking with God.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No I consider this experience a void in your terms. There was nothing that threatened my life. My life was never in jeopardy, nor was I ill. I saw no one, but heard a voice that spoke only to me and specifically to me.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No I know there is another place beyond Earthly living and I will eventually get there when the chosen time comes. I know that I have work to do on this Earth until the Lord decides it is time to come home. I accept whatever He gives me whether it be lessons learned, pain, happiness, losses, because I know it is what He wants me to experience.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No I couldn't see anything beyond the wall where I came out of the shoot (like a slide) and then the bright light.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No Not sure of your question. I just know that the Lord is compassionate and He spoke softly to me. I know I have special knowledge about the Lord, but people still would not believe me about my out of body experience.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes I did not cross the boundary when asked what I wanted to do. I returned.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Subtly. I have premonitions or intuitive.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Yes I think of people and they contact me or appear in front of me very often....every day. OR, I will contact people and they will say thy were just thinking of me. It happens more often now that I'm older. But I'm learning to concentrate on it to get people to think of me.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes 16 yrs or so. People asked me if I was sure I was not dreaming. They were sure I was dreaming. I find people are curious about my story, but I somehow think they do not believe me and think it is not possible. You have to experience it before you can REALLY believe it. I'd be a skeptic myself if it had not happened to me.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No Never heard of it at age 16.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I knew I had an experience that no one else has ever told me of or knew of. It was a great experience but was uncomfortable letting people know what happened. I was never afraid during the experience. I feel fortunate.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes, very significant. The Lord allowed me to make my own decision and I now seek people to help because I'm the selected one to HELP people. That is my Lord's assignment while on this Earth.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real It was very real and it did happen. This is not a current happening nor have I ever experienced it again.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes I seek people who do not have large EGOS.
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes because Catholics do not believe their souls return again. Now I do.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? no
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
Are there any other questions we could ask to help you communicate your experience? no