Brigitte C's Experience
I think my experience is hard to believe, yet it is real. Ever since I was little Iíve often had flashes of the future, premonitory dreams and I admit I try to ignore what I see or feel because it can be very frightening.
That night thatís what happened to me, a premonitory dream with a passage, which Iím convinced was not a dream. The dream took place at night, I was lying on the back seat of a car that was moving, it was very dark in the car, and in the position I was in, I couldnít see what was ahead, I could just see that there was a passenger up front, and obviously a driver. The passenger seemed asleep, when all of a sudden I felt we were falling very quickly, I understood that we were in a ravine. I had the feeling that the driver wasnít seriously hurt and I wasnít paying much attention to him; I was concentrating on the passenger ( I couldnít tell if it was a man or woman) I saw that the person had gone through the windshield and was lying on the ground on some bushes and thatís when I looked out the passenger side window (I was still in the car) and I could see the passenger already outside but like in the air. I felt myself wanting to follow them and leaned toward the window and passed through the vehicle and found myself outside.
Thatís when I saw up in the sky like a door opening on a dazzling light. I saw a back-lit man in the doorframe extending a hand toward the passenger who was rising towards him. Then I stared at this man (from whom emanated a powerful presence) then I felt a strong disapproval from him like he wanted me to understand that I didnít belong there.
Sensing that, I eventually turned away from him and looked behind him. I saw like shadows moving and who seemed to be waiting for the passenger who by now was arriving near them. But very quickly I no longer was paying attention to anything but the light which was so strong so beautiful so intense and the more I looked at it the more I felt like rising towards it. And the more I went toward it the better I felt, different yet still the same.
I felt incredibly good I had the impression of coming home. I felt light like a pure spirit going through the universe. I especially felt the incredible and unconditional love that was coming from this light which in fact seemed alive. It stopped me in my tracks and showed me the Earth and showed me the future of our Earth its fragility and the fact that our world would no longer exist if we continue to treat it the way we do but that thereís still hope and the possibility of being able to act to change things. But I realized that instead of motivating me to go back and change things, I didnít care about the fate of the Earth, all that disgusted me and I thought about those who would be sad to lose me, my family my boyfriend but I couldnít care less because I had the impression that my life on Earth was no more real than a reflection in the mirror, which has no depth no real existence. And that in this place where I was, thatís where reality was, I had the impression of becoming what Iíd always been and I would have wanted to continue my voyage to Ďgo homeí So I stared at the light again which was now on the other side of the open door and I again saw the passenger who had met up with the people who were behind the back-lit man in the doorframe, I wasnít paying attention to him and felt myself rising toward the light I was going into the door when the man closed it in my face and made me feel his strong disapproval of seeing me going into the light.
The slamming of the door made me open my eyes wide and I had the impression of being thrown back into my own body with unbelievable force. I had the impression of being locked in it and I felt it heavy and had trouble moving it. The feelings Iíd experienced were already starting to fade away to become only memories, the great knowledge that had been imparted to me when I was in the light seemed stuck in a fog that was becoming thicker and thicker and left me with a pale memory of what Iíve told there.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes words are too weak, too limited to describe the experience or what was felt.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain I was sleeping and I donít think anything physical happened that could threaten my life but I think that if Iíd been able to go towards the light, I think that due to the heaviness and numbness of my body at the time I woke up, I would certainly have died in my sleep. Iím convinced of it.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? When the light around me tried to make me understand the fragility of life on Earth and the reasons for our existence (I know that I knew it but unfortunately can no longer say what it was)
How did your
highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to
your normal every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: When the light around me tried to make me understand the fragility of life on earth and the reasons for our existence (I know that I knew it but unfortunately can no longer say what it was)
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I saw everything more clearly
hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect,
such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Uncertain I had the impression that I was being spoken to without words, the knowledge was put in me, in fact I cannot say I could hear things but I felt them.
experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Happiness, intense joy, much more than what Iíve felt on Earth even since the experience . And, strangely humor, I remember having the feeling of laughing when I was rising toward the light.
Did you pass
into or through a tunnel or enclosure?
Did you see a light? Yes Incredibly white and intense but not painful like the sun can be but it seemed mostly to be alive, it is only emotion positive and powerful
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes The light itself was a presence I personally consider to be God Himself, and there was this man in the doorway who was waiting for the passengerís soul. His presence was impressive in strength and will, he seemed to be a guardian. The people behind him seemed not to be allowed to get too close to the doorframe and were blurry because they were caught in the light.
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No I donít think I changed many things in my life since that day but knowing, feeling what I felt, it is now much harder for me to endure the mediocrity of our world.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Yes It was a premonitory dream because three days after my dream, a friend was killed at night while returning from her grandmotherís. Her boyfriend was driving and fell asleep at the wheel, they fell into a ravine, he had his seat belt on and was practically unhurt but she, who was lying next to him sleeping, hadnít put on her belt and went through the windshield and was killed instantly.
Did you see
or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes the knowledge disappeared when I woke up
Did you reach
a boundary or limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No I already had clairvoyant abilities prior.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes About a year later my boyfriend whoís very skeptical and nearly two years later with a friend and someone close to the deceased. They reacted positively to the experience but I donít know if they were influenced by it.
Did you have
any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real Real but unfortunately like a faded memory
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? When I felt that I was going home into the light, when I felt that I wasnít supposed to go there I felt almost like being oppressed because I knew that I couldnít do anything about it and would be sent back to Earth. I know that I felt greatly distressed.
How do you
currently view the reality of your experience:
Experience was definitely real Like reality because itís in my memory
and the sad reality that followed my dream, comforts me in my certainty that the
experience was quite real.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? Uncertain I tell myself that I have to be a better person and I try to behave better with others but I admit that most of the time my good intentions go up in smoke with my rotten temper.
your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Iíd like to experience it again
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Uncertain I donít think that mere words can describe the experience I went through and it isnít complete because everything I knew or felt didnít completely stay in my memory.