procrastinating and remembered something that happened to me a while back, found
your site and decided to share whatever it was I experienced.
school I was in a co-op program where I worked in an IT department. One day I
was sitting on a stool and watching one of the technicians working on a
printer. I remember starting to drift off slightly, just zoning out as I
listened to him talk. As the technician was about to close the printer case
with a quick snapping moving that would take about half a second, I noticed he
seemed to be moving quite slowly. Everything turned a slight cast of green and
my pulse jumped, mostly because I wasnít sure what the hell was going on. I
suddenly realized that I was aware of what the technician down the way was doing
and he was behind a barrier, then I could see or feel or was aware of all the
other employees in the building, the school, and the town.
sitting here trying to recall an incident that feels very real to me yet as if
it never happened. I donít remember any details other then that, I remember at
the time that I knew EVERYTHING!! And then it was gone. There were images of
people, events, formulas, math equations (Iím terrible at math) I realized I
could look around the room and entire building, not really flying, but not
walking either, just everywhere at once. I seem to remember actually looking
around the room, turning my head and such, but that is not possible, because
when the technician snapped the printer case in place, it reverberated in the
room like a huge clap of thunder and the green cast was gone Ė but I had not
moved an inch until I jumped and snapped out of it.
then a second, the time it would take you to slam down a lid on something, I was
completely covered in sweat and my heart was beating extremely hard. I never
said anything to the technician and he never said anything to me other then I
didnít look well. Itís hard to write this chronologically because Iím
remembering things as I write and it didnít seem to happen in order really.
I saw the
printer lid crashing down, it slowed, the world turned green, I was flooded with
knowledge about what seemed like everything everywhere, I became aware of the
lid about to snap shut, the thunder clap, and the momentary feeling that I
didnít have enough time and it was all being torn away from me. I was scared,
amazed and saddened all at the same time. I sat there for what seemed like
minutes trying to retain any of what I had just experienced.
I thought that perhaps I was experiencing a heart attack or seizer or stroke.
For a bit, something was very, very wrong. But after a minute it went away and
I realized that it was something different. But if it was my brain was
misfiring as a result of stress, fatigue, medication, mild and rare narcotic, or
alcohol use Ė then we have a great deal more to learn about the human brain. I
have never experienced anything remotely close to that event before or since.
idea what happened Ė perhaps a wrong number? :)
building I was in, the staff, their location and what they were doing. An
elevated and drifting view of them, looking down or from 45 degrees from
vertical, moving, motion, speed , time, darkness, brightness, an overall entity
- but I don't feel it was god, just the sum of all things. military seems to
stick in my mind, events, things to come, a bigger picture. beyond the walls of
the building, green, expansive, universe, ultimate knowledge. Oh!! I remember
more, there was a sense of speeding up, that I was on the verge to know the
answers to all the questions, like a door about to open, but there was no form -
an image popped into my mind, dark, purple, veins or circuits - as now just like
then, the images don't stay. I'm a very visual person and can remember
everything I've ever seen since a small child and I can recall nearly all my
dream with clarity - but this thing is different, I find it extremely
frustrating that I can't lock onto a single image. Even now that I'm trying to
recall the experience, I can't hold an image long enough to describe it, just
brief flashes. I actually have a headache now and think I will stop this.
Any associated medications
or substances with the potential to affect the experience?
within days of the experience or perhaps months. Being a teenager in the 90's I
used alcohol and occasionally light narcotics, but very infrequent. It very
well have been a residual effect - but boy, what an after effect!
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Uncertain Yes and No, I have
only an echo of the experience to reflect upon. It was as if something enormous
was given to me and then suddenly ripped away. And I mean ripped, the
impression was that it was painful.
At the time of this
experience, was there an associated life threatening event?
No Nope, just sitting on a
stool listening to a friend talk.
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
During the experience is was
heightened to the extreme I know that much, like being hit in the head with a
knowledge baseball bat.
experience dream like in any way?
Hmm, not dreamlike,
hyper-realistic would be more accurate. Very now, and about everything that
exists everywhere. But there was a green color or cast over everything and
there was so many images and information, it was hard to focus on anything. I
can still see some of the images in my mind: I'll try to explain it.
you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?
above - a sense of movement, seeing all around me, beyond the room, the walls of
the building, the town, the planet, the universe.
emotions did you feel during the experience?
excitement, pain, nausea, more, awe, explosive, uncertainty, this is it, I will
now know everything. Great loss for loosing the knowledge or not being able to
retain it. Sadness, disappointment, anger, all the emotions really.
you hear any unusual sounds or noises?
voices or just
a sense of being told or fed knowledge. Huge clap of what seemed like thunder
which emanated from a small computer printer lid being shut. There was a
rolling echo too - bright sunny day outside the building.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
the room, the building, the city, the planet...
you see a light?
cast over everything - shapes and images which cannot be remembered or
you meet or see any other beings?
Not really, it was all knowledge, knowing everything about everything. there
seemed to be something else there, but I didn't know what.
you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?
I'm not sure I did, other then to try and look around, it happened so fast,
there was no time to dwell on anything - it was simply a super-sized heightened
sense of awareness.
you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience
that could be verified later?
Yes Yes -
everything!!! But I couldn't take it in fast enough or it simply was gone, I
feel as if it was taken from me, like some kind of joke or mistake. Like I
tapped into something I was not supposed to have. That is how I feel. I don't
see it as a gift or something special, it really pissed me off and to this day I
feel bitter about it. I was offered a taste of something enormous and it was
torn away like some kind of cruel joke. Perhaps I have some residual effects,
but I'm not sure I can prove it.
you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they
response I'm not sure if I was smelling anything, but I sure was seeing and
hearing - holy crap yes. Body was floating and detached. A sense of being
light, big, almost like I was filling the room or occupying all the space in the
room and then beyond. the room I focus on more because I seem to remember that
part more - the rest was just too much to take in sensory overload to the max.
you have any sense of altered space or time?
above - all knowing, all seeing. You know Q from ST-TNG, well I guess something
like that for a fraction of a second - what rush!
you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or
Yes, everything and nothing. It was there, right in front of me and I couldn't
reach it, or I couldn't handle it and was sent back, I don't know. It was too
weird and after all these years I haven't come to terms with the experience. I
wasn't smart enough, or strong enough or whatever enough to have the gift. It
saddens me greatly.
you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?
No No, I
don't think so, well maybe - there was a sense that I was on the verge of
something even greater then what I was being shown - my sense of the experience
was that it was the ultimate key - the key to all the knowledge of the universe,
everything before and to come. I have an impression of light and darkness, not
a door, but just an event horizon of something more, just over there, just out
of reach, and then being denied.
you become aware of future events?
was a sense that the knowledge contained or would allow me to figure out the
future, because it seemed to also be the past. Damn this is frustrating writing
this, bits and pieces come back, but they are only feeling and slight glimpses,
nothing solid and defined. Just this overwhelming feeling of disappointment.
Are we almost done these questions...
you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?
No, it just happened and I didn't want it too, it needed to continue - but I
wonder what would have happened if it did - what I want to know is this - was it
really something or did I experience a near heart attack or some kind of life
threatening condition that decided to go away in 3/4 of a second. I actually
wish it never happened. I can't answer too many more these.
you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience
that you did not have prior to the experience?
No No, just disappointment and anger and wonderment - why me and why not
you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
I have a sense that there is so much more out there - I use to try and find it
every night when I dream, I believe that is the key. watch out for the dragon
though, he appears when you get close. but I haven't tried in a while, it
scares me, what I've seen in my dreams. My lucid dreaming and the experience
are linked, I know this, but I haven't tried to put the pieces together - I'm
not ready yet. There is something else out there, something not understood -
not god, I don't believe in that, but there is a connection between the life
forms on this planet. I have witnessed things in my lucid dreaming that have
happened. Inventions that I think are the result of my consciousness, but end
up on Daily Planet as new discoveries the next week. Plots to new movies,
stories, and books. I'm digressing.
has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices?
interested in the arts, graphic design to be specific. But I'm not sure it is
from the experience or my attempts at lucid dreaming to figure it out.
your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?
I'm sure it has, but it's almost as if I've blocked out the experience as well.
It is very much a part of me, but I don't think of it if I can help it. I would
like to tell whatever made it happen - your a jerk!
you shared this experience with others?
don't think much of it - wanted me to go see a doctor and find out if I'm ill or
having a serious medical condition. Never happened again.
emotions did you experience following your experience?
Lots, see above
was the best and worst part of your experience?
Best part was
it happing, worst part was that it happened - I feel cheated.
there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
it sucked - it was terrifying and uncomfortable, and confusing.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Nothing, not even close. No way.
the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively
describe your experience?
Yes This is
the most detailed explanation of the event I've ever given in the almost 11
years since it occurred.
Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.
seemed pretty good.