Blair C's Experience
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Hi there, 

I�m procrastinating and remembered something that happened to me a while back, found your site and decided to share whatever it was I experienced. 

In high school I was in a co-op program where I worked in an IT department.  One day I was sitting on a stool and watching one of the technicians working on a printer.  I remember starting to drift off slightly, just zoning out as I listened to him talk.  As the technician was about to close the printer case with a quick snapping moving that would take about half  a second, I noticed he seemed to be moving quite slowly.  Everything turned a slight cast of green and my pulse jumped, mostly because I wasn�t sure what the hell was going on.  I suddenly realized that I was aware of what the technician down the way was doing and he was behind a barrier, then I could see or feel or was aware of all the other employees in the building, the school, and the town. 

I�m sitting here trying to recall an incident that feels very real to me yet as if it never happened.  I don�t remember any details other then that, I remember at the time that I knew EVERYTHING!! And then it was gone.  There were images of people, events, formulas, math equations (I�m terrible at math)  I realized I could look around the room and entire building, not really flying, but not walking either, just everywhere at once.  I seem to remember actually looking around the room, turning my head and such, but that is not possible, because when the technician snapped the printer case in place, it reverberated in the room like a huge clap of thunder and the green cast was gone � but I had not moved an inch until I jumped and snapped out of it. 

In less then a second, the time it would take you to slam down a lid on something, I was completely covered in sweat and my heart was beating extremely hard.  I never said anything to the technician and he never said anything to me other then I didn�t look well.  It�s hard to write this chronologically because I�m remembering things as I write and it didn�t seem to happen in order really. 

I saw the printer lid crashing down, it slowed, the world turned green, I was flooded with knowledge about what seemed like everything everywhere, I became aware of the lid about to snap shut, the thunder clap, and the momentary feeling that I didn�t have enough time and it was all being torn away from me.  I was scared, amazed and saddened all at the same time.  I sat there for what seemed like minutes trying to retain any of what I had just experienced. 

Obviously I thought that perhaps I was experiencing a heart attack or seizer or stroke.  For a bit, something was very, very wrong.  But after a minute it went away and I realized that it was something different.  But if it was my brain was misfiring as a result of stress, fatigue, medication, mild and rare narcotic, or alcohol use � then we have a great deal more to learn about the human brain.  I have never experienced anything remotely close to that event before or since. 

Anyway, no idea what happened � perhaps a wrong number? :) 

Blair

Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?     Uncertain            Nothing within days of the experience or perhaps months.  Being a teenager in the 90's I used alcohol and occasionally light narcotics, but very infrequent.  It very well have been a residual effect - but boy, what an after effect!


Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain      Yes and No, I have only an echo of the experience to reflect upon.  It was as if something enormous was given to me and then suddenly ripped away.  And I mean ripped, the impression was that it was painful.

At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?          No       Nope, just sitting on a stool listening to a friend talk.

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?           During the experience is was heightened to the extreme I know that much, like being hit in the head with a knowledge baseball bat.

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   Hmm, not dreamlike, hyper-realistic would be more accurate.  Very now, and about everything that exists everywhere.  But there was a green color or cast over everything and there was so many images and information, it was hard to focus on anything.  I can still see some of the images in my mind:  I'll try to explain it. 

Okay, the building I was in, the staff, their location and what they were doing.  An elevated and drifting view of them, looking down or from 45 degrees from vertical,  moving, motion, speed , time, darkness, brightness, an overall entity - but I don't feel it was god, just the sum of all things.  military seems to stick in my mind, events, things to come, a bigger picture.  beyond the walls of the building, green, expansive, universe, ultimate knowledge.  Oh!!  I remember more, there was a sense of speeding up, that I was on the verge to know the answers to all the questions, like a door about to open, but there was no form - an image popped into my mind, dark, purple, veins or circuits - as now just like then, the images don't stay.  I'm a very visual person and can remember everything I've ever seen since a small child and I can recall nearly all my dream with clarity - but this thing is different, I find it extremely frustrating that I can't lock onto a single image.  Even now that I'm trying to recall the experience, I can't hold an image long enough to describe it, just brief flashes.  I actually have a headache now and think I will stop this.

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     Yes     Like above - a sense of movement, seeing all around me, beyond the room, the walls of the building, the town, the planet, the universe.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Fear, excitement, pain, nausea, more, awe, explosive, uncertainty, this is it, I will now know everything.  Great loss for loosing the knowledge or not being able to retain it.  Sadness, disappointment, anger, all the emotions really.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?           voices or just a sense of being told or fed knowledge.  Huge clap of what seemed like thunder which emanated from a small computer printer lid being shut.  There was a rolling echo too - bright sunny day outside the building.

LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?    Yes            the room, the building, the city, the planet...

Did you see a light?           Yes     green cast over everything - shapes and images which cannot be remembered or described.

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain      Not really, it was all knowledge, knowing everything about everything.  there seemed to be something else there, but I didn't know what.

Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? Yes    

Hmm, I'm not sure I did, other then to try and look around, it happened so fast, there was no time to dwell on anything - it was simply a super-sized heightened sense of awareness.

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?          Yes     Yes - everything!!!  But I couldn't take it in fast enough or it simply was gone, I feel as if it was taken from me, like some kind of joke or mistake.  Like I tapped into something I was not supposed to have.  That is how I feel.  I don't see it as a gift or something special, it really pissed me off and to this day I feel bitter about it.  I was offered a taste of something enormous and it was torn away like some kind of cruel joke.  Perhaps I have some residual effects, but I'm not sure I can prove it.

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?          No response      I'm not sure if I was smelling anything, but I sure was seeing and hearing - holy crap yes.  Body was floating and detached.  A sense of being light, big, almost like I was filling the room or occupying all the space in the room and then beyond.  the room I focus on more because I seem to remember that part more - the rest was just too much to take in sensory overload to the max.

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   Yes     As above - all knowing, all seeing.  You know Q from ST-TNG, well I guess something like that for a fraction of a second - what rush!

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    Yes            Yes, everything and nothing.  It was there, right in front of me and I couldn't reach it, or I couldn't handle it and was sent back, I don't know.  It was too weird and after all these years I haven't come to terms with the experience.  I wasn't smart enough, or strong enough or whatever enough to have the gift.  It saddens me greatly.

Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?             No       No, I don't think so, well maybe - there was a sense that I was on the verge of something even greater then what I was being shown - my sense of the experience was that it was the ultimate key - the key to all the knowledge of the universe, everything before and to come.  I have an impression of light and darkness, not a door, but just an event horizon of something more, just over there, just out of reach, and then being denied.

Did you become aware of future events?       Yes     there was a sense that the knowledge contained or would allow me to figure out the future, because it seemed to also be the past.  Damn this is frustrating writing this, bits and pieces come back, but they are only feeling and slight glimpses, nothing solid and defined.  Just this overwhelming feeling of disappointment.  Are we almost done these questions...

Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?       No       No, it just happened and I didn't want it too, it needed to continue - but I wonder what would have happened if it did - what I want to know is this - was it really something or did I experience a near heart attack or some kind of life threatening condition that decided to go away in 3/4 of a second.  I actually wish it never happened.  I can't answer too many more these.

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?         No       No, just disappointment and anger and wonderment - why me and why not me.

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Uncertain      I have a sense that there is so much more out there - I use to try and find it every night when I dream, I believe that is the key.  watch out for the dragon though, he appears when you get close.  but I haven't tried in a while, it scares me, what I've seen in my dreams.  My lucid dreaming and the experience are linked, I know this, but I haven't tried to put the pieces together - I'm not ready yet.  There is something else out there, something not understood - not god, I don't believe in that, but there is a connection between the life forms on this planet.  I have witnessed things in my lucid dreaming that have happened.  Inventions that I think are the result of my consciousness, but end up on Daily Planet as new discoveries the next week.  Plots to new movies, stories, and books.  I'm digressing.

How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?       I'm more interested in the arts, graphic design to be specific.  But I'm not sure it is from the experience or my attempts at lucid dreaming to figure it out.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         Uncertain      I'm sure it has, but it's almost as if I've blocked out the experience as well.  It is very much a part of me, but I don't think of it if I can help it.  I would like to tell whatever made it happen - your a jerk!

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They don't think much of it - wanted me to go see a doctor and find out if I'm ill or having a serious medical condition.  Never happened again.

What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Lots, see above

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      Best part was it happing, worst part was that it happened - I feel cheated.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?        Overall it sucked - it was terrifying and uncomfortable, and confusing.

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No       Nothing, not even close.  No way.

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?               Yes     This is the most detailed explanation of the event I've ever given in the almost 11 years since it occurred.

Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.    Nope, seemed pretty good.