Beth L's Experience
After my divorce I was very mixed up. I had never supported myself let alone three small children. I was very lost and lonely, not knowing which way to turn, thus at the time a very poor parent in more ways then one. One morning I woke up very sick, each time I tried to stand up I would almost pass out. My oldest daughter went to a neighbor, we had never met, and told her I was very sick. She came over and offered to take me to my doctor. I don't remember the drive there or the drive home. I do remember the doctor telling me I was very ill, and needed to be in the hospital, saying I had a colon, bladder, and kidney infection. I told him I couldn't do that because I had no insurance. I asked him to give me medication, to take at home. That night I had the sensation that I was ever so slowly falling in circles, and I was so at peace. I kept telling myself I had to wake up, but I had no desire to do so. Finally I did wake up. I have no idea what happened medically, but I have never forgotten my feeling of such peace.
After that experience my life hit bottom, and not really knowing what I was doing I called out to the Lord to help me with my life. He heard me pleas, and after that I started changing, so slowly I didn't really notice it. I know I am a very different person now, and when my children started noticing the change in me, they started changing too. All of them are grown now with very responsible jobs. One thing I have noticed is I have no real desire for many material possessions. Life has not always been easy, but over the years I have learned if I turn my problems over to my Lord he will always handle them for me.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: Yes
Explanation: After moving to a new home I became very ill, and had a neighbor I didn't know take me to the doctor. He said I had three severe infections, my colon, bladder, and kidneys, and that I needed to be in the hospital. Just becoming divorced I had no insurance, so just asked for medication. So he gave me antibiotics, and I went home.
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Uncertain
What was it about the experience that makes it hard to communicate? I just felt it was so special, I didn't want to talk about it.
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
Describe: I don't know, I just know I was very ill.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was asleep, but seemed quite alert.
Was the experience dream like in any way? It was no dream I have ever experienced, it was too real. Also if it were a dream it seems like I would have forgotten it over the years.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A very deep sense of love and peace.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No it was very peaceful and quiet
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Yes
Did you see a light? No
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Describe: Time just seemed endless
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? Yes
Describe: Just felt very peaceful, and wondered what had happened.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes
Describe: I know there is a God now that loves us, no matter how vial we are, he is always reaching his hand out to us, for us to grab on to it.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? I am not so judgmental now, and try to except everyone for who they are, not what I want them to be.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: Most had no real comments to share with me about it.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? That God loves me for who I am.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? The best is my life has gotten so much better now. Seems like I have a purpose to my earthly existence, where before I was totally clueless, as to what life was all about.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes