Benjamin B Experience
This memory is of an experience in my very, very early life. I am unable to pinpoint this in time; it perhaps occurred outside time - ie pre-birth. It has sat at the back of my consciousness all my life. It didn't excite my curiosity or interest until I started reading about near-death experiences, to which it bears some resemblance.
I now believe the following to be a PBE. I am in a dark space and in what feels like a large chair. The chair is silver and looks almost futuristic, or even spacecraft-like. I am speeding through the dark in a straight line, faster and faster, towards white light. The faster I go and the closer I get to the light, the harder I am finding it to breathe. Even so, I have no emotions like fear or panic, but there is a feeling of resistance. I remember no sound. I feel this happened to me a few times, and I have no rational explanation for it. I have always felt this to be experiential in its imprint on my memory, rather than dreamlike.
Reading about pre-birth experience has given me an explanatory framework to make sense of this completely anomalous memory. I have had a connection to Christ all my life and am very sensitive.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Normal
Was the experience dream like in any way? No. It was experiential.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain I certainly felt I had a face as I felt pressure on it, inhibiting breathing.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? A feeling of resistance, of something onerous.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes The light was very white and clean. It didn't excite any fear, but perhaps some trepidation.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? No Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain The only variation of my sense of time was that this seemed to happen several times over.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I felt hemmed into the chair but not unjustly or unfairly so.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? This has had no discernible affect on any aspect of my life.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes My parents.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? Trepidation, a little excitement, resistance, but no fear.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? I didn't feel any discomfort or pain, and the light was very white. There was a slight feeling of excitement.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I discarded the experience a long time ago as something either that I simply couldn't explain, or that it was very normal and commonplace.
It is possible that my mind reconstructed the experience of birth as a memory or repetitive dream. But its impact was more indicative of experience rather than dream. It seemed to happen multiple times, and I speculate that this was a way of my holding on to this experience/memory or amplifying it mnemonically.Having read some PBE literature, this kind of experience seems to correlate with my own most sensibly.