Beatrice L's Experience
It was in 1990, I lost my brother, my father and my aunt in 5 months. I was totally lost, in despair and I met a woman who used to put back the aura into place.
During this experience, I had exactly lived what people have lived after a near death experience. I didn't see any tunnel or dark area but in a few minutes I have been in beautiful, loving light: I could see at 360 degrees. I was a part of this light ( a double light) and this light was only pure love. I was pure consciousness. No pain at all, I knew I was still in my body, I could see the environment I were but at the same time I had the feeling of being in another body, a spiritual body, a body of love and light. As many people said: I do not exactly find the words to describe this but it was pure love. I didn't have any questions anymore, everything was obvious and the only question who came into my mind was "what am I going to do with all this love, I cannot cope".
When the woman "woke me up" with a gong I had changed. I went into the streets of Paris and wanted to take all the people in my arms, I was spreading something (I was glowing) because many people looked at me and I had to bow my head because too many people were looking at me.
After, I came back home with a extraordinary energy, not afraid of death, confident in life. Other things happened to my life but having seeing this light gave me a strength I will never forget.
talk about this, still searching to understand what happened to me, still
searching similar cases because I DIDN'T HAVE A REAL NEAR DEATH EXPERIENCE BUT
WHAT I LIVED IS TOTALLY SIMILAR.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes The power of love, I could see at 360 degrees, I was as light as a light
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? I was conscious all the time but as the love was growing inside me I became more and more consciousness
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day consciousness and alertness, please explain: Too difficult to explain: A plain clarity, pure fulfilled with love, only love. I cannot explain.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)? Yes I saw a very white light of love, I was a part of this light and I could see at 360 degrees. The light was extremely powerful, I had a clarity I never had in my life, like seeing a white universe, being a part of it and feeling totally integrated in this universe; I cannot explain more and there are only images
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Too much love: I couldn't cope
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes White pure light of love, PURE LOVE, only LOVE
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No I was alone in a room
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? Yes Dimensions with no limit, unlimited space, no time also
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes They didn't exist anymore at this time
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes I didn't have anymore question": everything was obvious. Now I have many:-)
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? Yes
Yes but only feelings or images but I think they are not correlated to this experience
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain To see events in the future: I had before, and now I understand them differently; I accept them more.
Have you shared this experience with others? Uncertain just some friends and started this year to write to a French doctor who is writing a book about NDA. people cannot understand really what it has been and I cannot convince them: you have to live this kind of experience to know what it is.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real I was so strong, so strong! I had exams and I stored up one year of law in one month and half and passed all my exams with success.
Were there one or several parts of the experience especially meaningful or significant to you? A feeling of Pure love, a feeling that there is a life after life, that death is not an ending, that we are here to make the bridge ( the link) between the material and the spiritual, the deep feeling we have a task on earth and the most important one: I'm not afraid of death. I'm afraid of suffering but not of the death.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience: Experience was definitely real Too much powerful, it definitively changed my way of seeing the world. I have been detached and I'm still detached of many things , and I can reconnect to a very low level, but I can reconnect to this love sometimes. And when I meditate to reconnect, immediately a picture, a feeling of being a part of this love comes in my mind.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes Even more convinced than before that religion do not help at all to develop spirituality and are useless. A belief and a conviction that a supreme soul exists now.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? I didn't die, I had only my aura modified by a woman who saw there was something wrong. I cannot explain what happened to me because normally it only happens to people who live NDEs.
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes