Besides going along with the
experiences of others, perhaps my experience had something unique: I didn't
have any physical accident. After a failed love relationship, I continued
to work and study normally, except I felt frustrated and in my free time I
thought about killing myself. After a few weeks in this process, when I
returned home one afternoon (where I then lived alone) I thought about
getting something to eat and study before going to bed, but then I felt a
gentile power that invited me toward my bedroom and to lie on the bed.
No sooner had I laid down with my eyes
closed, than I began an involuntary process of relaxation, muscle by muscle
from my feet to my head. Immediately, an energy or current emanating from
the middle of my back enveloped my whole body. It was very pleasurable and
strong and immediately became a strong, pleasurable light as well that
enveloped me completely in an immensely loving and affectionate sensation (I
apparently had my eyes closed the whole time).
Afterwards I had a conversation with
myself (although it may have directed or guided from within me) where I
finally decided to forget my past and recreate my life, especially for love
of my children. On making this decision I experienced it as a gift, as
joy. Afterwards, I had the sensation of beginning a journey, entering
through a door or tunnel that was hidden behind some bushes. After that, I
relived some experiences with my wife or flirted with women when I was young
where I understood and completely felt everything that was happening
psychologically inside the other person (deep inside where it would seem
not even she realized the profound, positive, loving, and beneficial purpose
that each experience between two people has). This happened in such a way
that any feelings of guilt or worry about these people where completely
healed and taken away (in a very similar way as when the knots and muscular
tensions were taken away when I began the experience).
Also, I understood that everybody is
permanently connected in some way to another dimension where we are part of
the same body or the same being to such an extent that in that other
dimension there are no barriers between us (in that dimension we can feel
what others feel, without the limits of time or space). Today I don't think
I remember or had full awareness of this whole process, because the things I
remember are relatively few in comparison with the time that the experience
took...which was from the evening of one day to the morning of the next.
A unique aspect of the experience was
how it ended. I was reliving an event in my childhood at school. In
religion class we were supposed to write something we liked about Jesus, and
I wrote that I liked his simple way of living. Suddenly I jumped out of bed
saying that I didn't want to die crucified, and I stood by the side of the
bed crying from emotion. Just at that moment, completely awake, with my
eyes open and with the room illuminated by morning light, I saw a heart that
had rain falling on it suspended in the air in front of me. With the rain,
the heart loosened a layer of earth or mud until it was completely a purple
color. Then it disappeared.
After this I continued on with my
normal life (I didn't have the nerve to tell such an incredible experience
to anyone, but began seriously reading about this subject in the library).
In the days following I felt especially charged with energy, with the
ability to act as an extrovert, with an improved perception of enjoying
landscapes and nature, and with a great ability to have empathy, compassion
or love towards others. On one occasion while walking along I began having
the feeling of leaving my body, but I was afraid and didn't allow this to
happen. On two other occasions I felt very emotional and when I closed my
eyes I saw a marvelous garden, which calmed me down. The experience left me
with the primary conviction the life continues on after the death of the
body; that earthly life is a great theater were each person confronts many
situations to resolve; where our ability to love is challenged with the
opportunity only to expand our life and love...which becomes easy when we
leave aside the fear of death and trust that we are part of an infinitely
loving God (a God that does not judge nor punish, a God who is incapable of
manifesting in any form other than love); where the superficialities of
life, culture and morality belonging to earth life are the result of a
creative theater of opportunities to mature, where all the earthly
experiences we encounter have the objective or the profound loving purpose
that we only fully understand once this life has finished; where dignity,
self-esteem and love are all the same and fundamental as the true source of
love for others (the feeling of truly being a child of a marvelous God means
not to have need of anything else to fully love others).
I came to understand also that there
are no judgments nor punishments after this physical life, only
understanding and awakened consciousness of the opportunities to act
lovingly that we had on earth to either take advantage of or not (something
to the effect that the degree of brotherhood that one develops on earth
determines the degree of consciousness one will continue living with
afterwards making us either more or less able to perceive, understand and
enjoy other worlds of a more loving nature available to us).
Was the kind of experience difficult
to express in words?
Yes It was way too extraordinary. The images are inexplicable as
such, but they are the least important. The conscious awareness or
comprehension of things within the experience and their fullness is
difficult to explain.
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
Uncertain After the failed romantic relationship I thought about
At what time during the experience
were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?
In the above passages that I remember and that I have related.
How did your highest level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal
every day consciousness and alertness?
More consciousness and alertness than normal
If your highest level of consciousness
and alertness during the experience was different from your normal every day
consciousness and alertness, please explain:
What I remember and have related was experienced with full understanding and
Did your vision differ in any way from
your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of
vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of
solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes What I remember and have related was experienced as something real,
although most of it was done with my eyes shut as if I were traveling
without my body.
Did your hearing differ in any way
from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability
to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)?
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
What emotions did you feel during the
Did you pass into or through a tunnel
or enclosure? Yes
I went through a door or the entrance to a tunnel.
Did you see a light?
Yes Although it could have been experienced with my eyes closed, there was
a blinding light, full, intense and marvelous.
Did you meet or see any other beings?
Yes On reliving past experiences I felt I understood what went on
internally within the mind or consciousness of other people, those who had
been in contact with me in the past.
Did you experience a review of past
events in your life?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified
Did you see or visit any beautiful or
otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?
Yes On subsequent days, on two occasions when I was nervous and upset
because of the experience, I just closed my eyes and could see a precious
garden that gave me serenity.
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time? Yes On
reliving the past experiences there did not exist any limits on time or
space to understand what happened inside of other people.
Did you have a sense of knowing
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Yes That Life continues after physical death. That maturity or the
development of loving relationships is the essence of life.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting
physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal
or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to
Uncertain I perceived the landscapes and details of nature as being more
beautiful and clear. With the other people, I also felt more empathic or
understanding of their state of being.
Have you shared this experience with
Did you have any knowledge of near
death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?
Uncertain Afterwards I remembered that an acquaintance of my first wife
had experienced separation from her body when she was operated on in the
How did you view the reality of your
experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:
Experience was definitely real Particularly in the events at the beginning
of the experience and in what happened at the end. I was completely awake
with my eyes open, with the rooms and other things in my house completely
visible. After the experience I felt renewed and transformed, and I now
enjoy life much more than before.
Were there one or several parts of the
experience especially meaningful or significant to you?
Everything I remember and have recounted were very significant.
How do you currently view the reality
of your experience:
Experience was definitely real I have no doubt the experience was real
and I believe it can happen to anyone who goes through a process where the
body becomes less important or where ones strength of survival is suspended.
Have your relationships changed
specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes Before, I acted more inhibited, introverted or low-key. Now I enjoy
being extroverted when it seems suitable and right.
Have your religious
beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes Much more than before. I am now convinced that our relationship with
God is personal, without the necessity of intermediaries.
Following the experience, have you had
any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Is there anything else you would like
to add concerning the experience?
I'm curious to know if one can relive this experience through hypnosis and I
would like to know if, in this case, the experience can provoke beneficial
effects including the healing of illnesses.
Did the questions asked and
information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your
Are there any other questions we could
ask to help you communicate your experience?
M I'm glad it was a questionnaire because it is difficult for me to find
adequate words to describe the experience. In this sense, I wish the
questionnaire with greater variety of alternatives and possible responses.