Anna R's Experience
This is not the only experience I have had, but it is the only one when I entirely left my body as an adult (had OOBEs when a child). I was having a conversation with a friend who happens to be a well-known medium. We had done a past-life regression which was interesting but I was in normal consciousness when I was suddenly pulled out of my body, there was no way to resist it. I 'knew' my body was still sitting comfortably on the sofa but I could no longer feel it or care about it. There was absolutely no fear or concern about anything. I felt that I was floating in a void of ecstatic nothingness, immensely peaceful and happy with waves of energy flowing over me, powerfully strong, irresistible and right. Suddenly, I realized that they were not waves of energy but that it was I that was the energy and this realization made me drop my last connection to human existence. I was no longer separate and floating on energy, I was it and my body/consciousness grew and stretched out until I filled the universe. The sense of speed was unlike anything on Earth. I was all, accepted all. At that point I recognized that I knew everything there is to know about existence - or rather that there was an absence of questions in me. There was no time in this state. I was able to operate my body's voice box and could briefly describe what was happening to my friend who remarked "Oh my dear, you have passed over." As my thoughts expanded I expanded, there was no boundary but there was an end. I remained there for about 1 to 2 minutes of earth time but an infinity in that time. I believe that was all I was meant to see and I descended back into my body on the sofa, which was very comfortable and easy to do. I have re-entered my body in a whoosh at another time but this time was a comfortable descent, a merging and feeling the heaviness of the physical realm again. The part of me that is human felt euphoric and disappointed at the same time, but mainly there was a powerful internal calmness that has never left me since. I have never been able to discuss it fully, but when I do share it, it is with great joy, certainty and a feeling of hope for humanity.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words?....Yes....It cannot be described in human terms but I have been able to take people there with me since. They have been able to experience the love themselves.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?....More consciousness and alertness than normal At the point that I realized that I was not floating on energy but that I was the energy, which expanded my consciousness into infinity. It is like knowing the stars and being the stars at the same time. Every part of me twinkled, it took only a thought to move amongst my consciousness.....Brilliant clarity, speed and focus of thought. I was pregnant with possibility.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. There was no time to measure speed of thought by and nothing to see on that visit. I knew it was beautiful without having to see it. The only way I was able to know the speed was by having a human existence to anchor to. When I return there at the end of my life there will be little reference point to earthly existence.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I could hear a pin drop at the other end of the universe, or rather feel it. You have to imagine that your senses merge and multiply to understand how that light body feels. It is the essence of the words poise, grace and elegance.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? Yes I could hear and could speak to the companion I was sitting with.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?....Universal love with no sentimentality, exquisite joy.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an unearthly light?....No....
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin I did not speak to anyone on this visit and I was the universe, but I was not alone.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?....No....That was not the focus of the visit.
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?....A clearly mystical or unearthly realm....I was a drop in the ocean and the ocean simultaneously. I knew that this was my universe but I was not alone.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?....Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....Time is meaningless in that state, only movement is measurable (in thought). Imagine everything you think and feel becoming ripples or waves (in human terms) or events (in spirit terms).
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?....Everything about the universe....A knowing of all but more importantly an absence of unknowing (no questions, in human terms). Could know anything by focussing on it. Incredible clarity of thought, incredible power of thought.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?....Uncertain....As I reached the boundary of my self and started to become aware of a thought about others, I was put back into my earthly body.
Did you come to a border or point of no return?....I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will....It was not under my conscious control to stay there
Did scenes from the future come to you?....No....I cannot answer this question
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....That is sacred and I do not know if it can be shared at this time.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large changes in my life....It is extremely hard for the ego to integrate the knowledge of that experience. I have a sense of how world events are shaped,how they will work out and how group consciousness affects the whole. My senses are heightened - I am in an almost permanent state of energy sensing, I can feel things that I do not yet understand. I understand Karma and other Natural Laws. My motivations in life have changed beyond recognition. Access to that expanded knowledge has never completely shut down. I have never been depressed, but since the experience I have had periods of despair at myself.....
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?....Yes I feel a multi-dimensionality and an awareness of myself there and here at the same time, on occasion. I have awareness of a person's soul-needs on occasion. I find that I have knowledge from I know not where. I try to live a quiet life and not use the psychic gifts at the moment. I have a sense of waiting for something to happen.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it quickly but soon became discriminating. It felt like knowledge that humanity has a right to. I trusted the universe to put me in front of people who were searching for this knowledge. I have never committed it to paper or spoken about it on a forum before filling in your form.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Yes I had another experience but it was completely different to this one. This one was completely unexpected and different to anything I could have imagined with my human mind.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:....Experience was definitely real It seemed completely natural to me but incredibly puzzling to integrate what it meant. It has taken years to understand it.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience was definitely real....It seems completely natural to me and is an incredible truth that should be shared. It is difficult to live an ordinary life. I find myself drawn to the study and practise of Natural Law.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes....
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes Meditation.Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes