Anna R's Experience
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Experience description:
This is not the only
experience I have had, but it is the only one when I entirely left my body as an
adult (had OOBEs when a child). I was having a conversation with a friend who
happens to be a well-known medium. We had done a past-life regression which was
interesting but I was in normal consciousness when I was suddenly pulled out of
my body, there was no way to resist it. I 'knew' my body was still sitting
comfortably on the sofa but I could no longer feel it or care about it. There
was absolutely no fear or concern about anything. I felt that I was floating in
a void of ecstatic nothingness, immensely peaceful and happy with waves of
energy flowing over me, powerfully strong, irresistible and right. Suddenly, I
realized that they were not waves of energy but that it was I that was the
energy and this realization made me drop my last connection to human existence.
I was no longer separate and floating on energy, I was it and my
body/consciousness grew and stretched out until I filled the universe. The
sense of speed was unlike anything on Earth. I was all, accepted all. At that
point I recognized that I knew everything there is to know about existence - or
rather that there was an absence of questions in me. There was no time in this
state. I was able to operate my body's voice box and could briefly describe
what was happening to my friend who remarked "Oh my dear, you have passed
over." As my thoughts expanded I expanded, there was no boundary but there was
an end. I remained there for about 1 to 2 minutes of earth time but an infinity
in that time. I believe that was all I was meant to see and I descended back
into my body on the sofa, which was very comfortable and easy to do. I have
re-entered my body in a whoosh at another time but this time was a comfortable
descent, a merging and feeling the heaviness of the physical realm again. The
part of me that is human felt euphoric and disappointed at the same time, but
mainly there was a powerful internal calmness that has never left me since. I
have never been able to discuss it fully, but when I do share it, it is with
great joy, certainty and a feeling of hope for humanity.
At the time of your
experience was there an associated life-threatening event?
No
Was the experience
difficult to express in words?....Yes....It
cannot be described in human terms but I have been able to take people there
with me since. They have been able to experience the love themselves.
At what time during
the experience were you at your highest level of
consciousness and
alertness?....More
consciousness and alertness than normal At the point that I realized that I
was not floating on energy but that I was the energy, which expanded my
consciousness into infinity. It is like knowing the stars and being the stars
at the same time. Every part of me twinkled, it took only a thought to move
amongst my consciousness.....Brilliant clarity, speed and focus of thought. I
was pregnant with possibility.
Please compare your
vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
There was no
time to measure speed of thought by and nothing to see on that visit. I knew it
was beautiful without having to see it. The only way I was able to know the
speed was by having a human existence to anchor to. When I return there at the
end of my life there will be little reference point to earthly existence.
Please compare your
hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately
prior to the time of the experience.
I could hear a
pin drop at the other end of the universe, or rather feel it. You have to
imagine that your senses merge and multiply to understand how that light body
feels. It is the essence of the words poise, grace and elegance.
Did you see or hear
any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness /
awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body?
Yes I could hear and
could speak to the companion I was sitting with.
What emotions did you
feel during the experience?....Universal
love with no sentimentality, exquisite joy.
Did you pass into or
through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an
unearthly light?....No....
Did you seem to
encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I
encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin
I did not speak
to anyone on this visit and I was the universe, but I was not alone.
Did you encounter or
become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware
of past events in your life during your experience?....No....That
was not the focus of the visit.
Did you seem to enter
some other, unearthly world?....A
clearly mystical or unearthly realm....I
was a drop in the ocean and the ocean simultaneously. I knew that this was my
universe but I was not alone.
Did time seem to speed
up or slow down?....Everything
seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....Time is
meaningless in that state, only movement is measurable (in thought). Imagine
everything you think and feel becoming ripples or waves (in human terms) or
events (in spirit terms).
Did you suddenly seem
to understand everything?....Everything
about the universe....A
knowing of all but more importantly an absence of unknowing (no questions, in
human terms). Could know anything by focussing on it. Incredible clarity of
thought, incredible power of thought.
Did you reach a
boundary or limiting physical structure?....Uncertain....As
I reached the boundary of my self and started to become aware of a thought about
others, I was put back into my earthly body.
Did you come to a
border or point of no return?....I
came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against
my will....It
was not under my conscious control to stay there
Did scenes from the
future come to you?....No....I
cannot answer this question
Did you have a sense
of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Uncertain....That
is sacred and I do not know if it can be shared at this time.
Discuss any changes
that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large
changes in my life....It is extremely hard for the ego to integrate the
knowledge of that experience. I have a sense of how world events are
shaped,how they will work out and how group consciousness affects the whole. My
senses are heightened - I am in an almost permanent state of energy sensing, I
can feel things that I do not yet understand. I understand Karma and other
Natural Laws. My motivations in life have changed beyond recognition. Access
to that expanded knowledge has never completely shut down. I have never been
depressed, but since the experience I have had periods of despair at myself.....
Did you have any
changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result
of the experience?
Yes
Do you have any
psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did
not have before the experience?....Yes
I feel a multi-dimensionality and an awareness of myself there and here at the
same time, on occasion. I have awareness of a person's soul-needs on occasion.
I find that I have knowledge from I know not where. I try to live a quiet life
and not use the psychic gifts at the moment. I have a sense of waiting for
something to happen.
Have you ever shared
this experience with others?
Yes I shared it
quickly but soon became discriminating. It felt like knowledge that humanity
has a right to. I trusted the universe to put me in front of people who were
searching for this knowledge. I have never committed it to paper or spoken about
it on a forum before filling in your form.
Did you have any
knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Yes
I had another experience but it was completely different to this one. This one
was completely unexpected and different to anything I could have imagined with
my human mind.
What did you believe
about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it
happened:....Experience
was definitely real It seemed completely natural to me but incredibly
puzzling to integrate what it meant. It has taken years to understand it.
What do you believe
about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience
was definitely real....It seems completely natural to me and is an incredible
truth that should be shared. It is difficult to live an ordinary life. I find
myself drawn to the study and practise of Natural Law.
Have your
relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes....
Have your religious
beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes
At any time in your
life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes
Meditation.