Anna H STE
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Experience description:

I was asleep and having a dream about standing outside a large building I was about to go into.  My niece Isabelle who was 4 at the time ran up to me with her arms outstretched so I picked her up.  I looked about for my sister Susan and her siblings but she was all alone. I asked her 'What are you doing here?'  It was a normal dream up to this point. She very maturely told me 'You know why I'm here' I realized she was speaking to me through her eyes, telepathically.  Her eyes were the most beautiful and sparkly loving eyes I have ever seen like they were perfect. I thought 'What a weird thing to say' but shortly after started realizing why she had chosen to be my niece and why I was her Aunty. Once I fully understood how our lives fitted together I then starting understanding the next level and the next and the next to the point that I understood how the entire universe worked.  Weirdly I couldn't tell the difference between the things I had done already and the things I was going to do because they were all DONE already.  Time past, current and future all combined.  I also felt like a thread or strand of a web that was woven through the fabric of everything that I had been shown like my very existence was going to make all this happen.

I looked back at her with a huge smile and appreciation and said 'Oh yeah - I do know!' 

I then started noticing memories, bad thoughts and experiences I had had in my life starting to physically leave my body while a physical light entered it. It was lightness and light and unconditional love all in one.  My arms were tingling with the feeling. None of these bad experiences or reasons I didn't like people mattered a jot any longer as I realized I loved everyone - unconditionally. As I filled to the brim with love I thought 'This is the best feeling I've ever had in my life and I'm asleep!!'  I didn't feel like I could handle it any more.  It was so magnificent feeling perfect and truly loved.

Shortly after I exploded like a Skyrocket into the Universe - BOOOOMM! Upwards, outwards, across and the feeling intensified tenfold.  Now I didn't feel like I had a normal 'body' any longer but still had my consciousness and the amazing feeling.

Next I felt like I was back in my 'body' again and started feeling unconditional love for everyone I had ever met in my life.  It was intense loving people that I felt that on Earth I did not or could not. I then started feeling all their love back on me.  Wow they loved me true.  After that my love extended to the people that I was going to meet in my life but hadn't yet.  And again I felt their love back in a wave over me. Finally I felt love for every person that ever existed in the world and yes they unconditionally loved me too.  I felt it all.

I woke up remembering it all bar the knowledge about how the universe worked.  This was blocked already. Just the feeling of knowing remained about that.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience?      No     

Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words?        Yes    Nothing on earth compares to the experience so hard to relate the experience into words

 At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event?       No     

What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?    Like being awake

            Was the experience dream like in any way? I was dreaming at the time.  I was aware of that.

 Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?         Yes    When I exploded into the universe I felt no 'body' any longer

 What emotions did you feel during the experience?           Extreme love, satisfaction, perfection, forgiveness, appreciation, wonder and happiness

 Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?         no

 LOCATION DESCRIPTION:  Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures?           No     

Did you see a light?         No     

Did you meet or see any other beings?           Uncertain     I felt like someone or something was with me without definition

 Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state?    No     

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?        No     

Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different?  No      Did you have any sense of altered space or time?    Yes    Mostly when I was being shown why I exist and how the universe works

 Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?           Yes    I did fully understand everything at the time.  It was amazingly complex but simple at the same time

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?              No     

Did you become aware of future events?      Yes           Yes but couldn't really tell they were future events because they were already 'done' in reality.  I felt they pertained to me and the reason why I am here etc

 Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body?     No      Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? No     

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?         Yes    Lots of subtle changes.  I love sharing my story if the timing is right. I feel like it happened to me because it was known that I would share it.

 How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?           More of an understanding of what you always read in spiritual books about only there only being love & fear.  When I meet a new person I sometimes think about the time I already loved them years before we met.  There were no exceptions.  I loved everyone: The Good, The bad and the Ugly.  It is easier to think about it if I get along with the person...

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes    Subtly yes.  To do with how I feel about my life and the openness and seeking of more spiritual experiences.

 Have you shared this experience with others?           Yes    They seemed very interested.  I couldn't actually talk about it without crying for a couple of years so I had to pick the right moment.

 What emotions did you experience following your experience? 3 things significant on the day that followed.  The first one was that I felt like I did not stop at the edge of my body.  I extended approximately 3-5 meters away from myself.  2. I noticed other people would suddenly turn and look at me that were passing even some distance away with a confused look on their faces.  We were at the 4x4 Nationals.  We had to park some distance away in paddocks and walk to the competition.  My husband walked ahead of me up a hill that I was just about to walk up.  He turned and looked back at me and suddenly said 'Oh my God. You're beautiful!' and then walked back down the hill to hug me.  In front of what was mostly males coming to the event.

 What was the best and worst part of your experience? There was no bad part.  The best feeling in the whole world is realizing you are perfect and everyone loves you (what unconditional love feels like.  You love yourself too)

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?       No     

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?             Uncertain     Words are not the best way to describe what happened. It has to be felt to be fully understood.

 Please offer any suggestions you may have to improve this questionnaire.       A book would be awesome!  It is great to know of others that have had similar experiences.