was asleep and having a dream about standing outside a large building I was
about to go into. My niece Isabelle
who was 4 at the time ran up to me with her arms outstretched so I picked her
up. I looked about for my sister
Susan and her siblings but she was all alone. I asked her 'What are you doing
here?' It was a normal dream up to
this point. She very maturely told me 'You know why I'm here' I realized she was
speaking to me through her eyes, telepathically.
Her eyes were the most beautiful and sparkly loving eyes I have ever seen
like they were perfect. I thought 'What a weird thing to say' but shortly after
started realizing why she had chosen to be my niece and why I was her Aunty.
Once I fully understood how our lives fitted together I then starting
understanding the next level and the next and the next to the point that I
understood how the entire universe worked.
Weirdly I couldn't tell the difference between the things I had done
already and the things I was going to do because they were all DONE already.
Time past, current and future all combined.
I also felt like a thread or strand of a web that was woven through the
fabric of everything that I had been shown like my very existence was going to
make all this happen.
looked back at her with a huge smile and appreciation and said 'Oh yeah - I do
then started noticing memories, bad thoughts and experiences I had had in my
life starting to physically leave my body while a physical light entered it. It
was lightness and light and unconditional love all in one.
My arms were tingling with the feeling. None of these bad experiences or
reasons I didn't like people mattered a jot any longer as I realized I loved
everyone - unconditionally. As I filled to the brim with love I thought 'This is
the best feeling I've ever had in my life and I'm asleep!!'
I didn't feel like I could handle it any more.
It was so magnificent feeling perfect and truly loved.
Shortly after I exploded like a Skyrocket into the Universe - BOOOOMM! Upwards,
outwards, across and the feeling intensified tenfold.
Now I didn't feel like I had a normal 'body' any longer but still had my
consciousness and the amazing feeling.
Next I felt like I was back in my 'body' again and started feeling unconditional
love for everyone I had ever met in my life.
It was intense loving people that I felt that on Earth I did not or could
not. I then started feeling all their love back on me.
Wow they loved me true. After
that my love extended to the people that I was going to meet in my life but
hadn't yet. And again I felt their
love back in a wave over me. Finally I felt love for every person that ever
existed in the world and yes they unconditionally loved me too.
I felt it all.
up remembering it all bar the knowledge about how the universe worked.
This was blocked already. Just the feeling of knowing remained about
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes Nothing on earth compares to the
experience so hard to relate the experience into words
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
Like being awake
Was the experience dream like in any way?
I was dreaming at the time.
I was aware of that.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Yes When I exploded into the universe I
felt no 'body' any longer
What emotions did you feel during
satisfaction, perfection, forgiveness, appreciation, wonder and happiness
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Did you see a light?
Did you meet or see any other
I felt like someone or something was with me
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes Mostly when I was being shown why I
exist and how the universe works
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
I did fully understand everything at the
time. It was amazingly complex but simple
at the same time
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Yes Yes but couldn't really tell
they were future events because they were already 'done' in reality.
I felt they pertained to me and the reason why I am here etc
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts
following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes Lots of subtle changes.
I love sharing my story if the timing is right. I feel like it happened
to me because it was known that I would share it.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
More of an understanding of what
you always read in spiritual books about only there only being love & fear.
When I meet a new person I sometimes think about the time I already loved
them years before we met. There were no
exceptions. I loved everyone: The Good,
The bad and the Ugly. It is easier to
think about it if I get along with the person...
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Yes Subtly yes.
To do with how I feel about my life and the openness and seeking of more
Have you shared this experience
Yes They seemed very interested.
I couldn't actually talk about it without crying for a couple of years so
I had to pick the right moment.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
significant on the day that followed. The
first one was that I felt like I did not stop at the edge of my body.
I extended approximately 3-5 meters away from myself.
2. I noticed other people would suddenly turn and look at me that were
passing even some distance away with a confused look on their faces.
We were at the 4x4 Nationals. We
had to park some distance away in paddocks and walk to the competition.
My husband walked ahead of me up a hill that I was just about to walk up.
He turned and looked back at me and suddenly said 'Oh my God. You're
beautiful!' and then walked back down the hill to hug me.
In front of what was mostly males coming to the event.
What was the best and worst part of
There was no
bad part. The best feeling in the whole
world is realizing you are perfect and everyone loves you (what unconditional
love feels like. You love yourself too)
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Uncertain Words are not the best way to
describe what happened. It has to be felt to be fully understood.
Please offer any suggestions you
may have to improve this questionnaire.
A book would be
awesome! It is great to know of others
that have had similar experiences.