Anna E's Experience
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Experience description:

My aunt has died and the whole family was with her. We expected her death because she suffered from an illness by birth. 6 weeks later my stepfather died unexpected from an heart attack. 3 months later his mother got hit by a car when she wanted to visit his grave, and died immediately. My boyfriend couldn't stand my pain and broke up after three years. I felt horrible, I couldn't recognize my life anymore. I worked in a psychiatry and drove home by bus at around 9 in the evening. I sat in the bus talking to God. I said, 'Prove me that you exist. I need to know. Show me a light!' Ten minutes later I got off the bus and started to run home because it was so cold. Suddenly there was a blinking light in my coat, not in the pocket but it must have slipped down through an hole. I have no idea when I should have left it there, but it started blinking because I ran, and I knew it wasn't an accident. I got scared and said, 'Okay, okay I'm sorry, I believe in you.' The light was real but the circumstances it appeared didn't leave no doubt to me. It was a sign. I got very quite inside, and felt consoled.

Was this experience difficult to express in words?          No

Did you hear the deceased or hear something associated with the deceased?          No

Did you feel a touch or experience any physical contact from the deceased? No

Did you see the deceased?         No

Did you smell a distinct smell, scent, fragrance or odor associated with the deceased?      No

How long did the experience last?        3 minutes

Was the beginning and end of the experience gradual or more sudden?         Sudden

Could you sense the emotions or mood of the deceased?           No

Did the deceased give you information you did not previously know?  No

How do you currently view the reality of your experience?           Experience was definitely real

            Please explain why you view the reality of your experience as real or not real:            Because there was a real light as a response to my inner dialogue

            Was the experience dream like in any way?   No

Describe in detail your feelings/emotions during the experience:           First I was surprised then I got a little scared but in the end I was so very happy about it

Was there any emotional healing in any way following the experience?           Yes

My life had changed heavily. It was easier to accept because I realized everything is under control.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?      The worst part was the loss I had- the best thing was my spiritual development. I broke so I could build myself. And I am exactly where I belong to.

Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?         No      

Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?   Yes     I believe in something divine

Did the experience give you any spiritual understandings such as life, death, afterlife, God, etc.?   Yes     That there exists something divine

Death Compacts are when two or more living people promise among themselves that whoever dies first will try to contact the other(s).  Have you ever made such a compact?   No

Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?     Yes Well, I showed the blinking light to my mother.

What emotions did you feel during the experience?            Happiness and relaxation

Was the experience witnessed or experienced by others?           No

Did you have any sense of altered space or time?   No

Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?    No

Did you become aware of future events?       No

Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience?  No

Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body?     No

Did you meet or see any other beings other than the deceased?            No

Did you see a light?           No

Did any part of your experience seem to occur in a place other than the location described above?          No

Have you shared this experience with others?         Yes     They find it beautiful

Have you shared this experience formally or informally with any other researcher or web site?            No

Were there any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No

Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?         No 

Did you ever in your life have a near-death experience, out of body experience or other spiritual event?       No 

Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?                     Yes