Angie Y's Experience
The first time, it was only a few weeks living at college dorm (September 2009). It was a Saturday, me and my roommate had a friend sleepover last night. They went to a dance, came back late, so we slept late that night. When I woke up, it was about noon, I saw my roommate still sleeping, so I closed my eyes and went back to sleep. Then I felt my body was heavier 'I' was kind of lighter. And 'I' got slowly suck or pull towards the wall behind me. When I start shifting, I saw the girl who slept over in my room was using my roommate's computer, and she was on gmail. I started screaming my roommate's name, hoping she could wake up. When I was about to go through the wall, I was thinking, "I will see the two guys living next door." But then all I see is a tunnel/tube with dark red color mixed with black shapes. I was lying down, and I could only see and think; I couldn't even move my eyes or turn my head. I was speeding up faster and faster like the speed of light towards one direction. I was so scared, mad, and non-stop swearing, "Where the (beep) are you going?" I felt something like a string from the middle of my chest is attaching to something back there (my body), and I felt that if that string breaks, I might die. So then I was thinking, "Please don't break! Stick well!". Then I was thinking, "How much longer are you going? Can I go back". Then I changed my attitude to, "Please go back, please go back." I finally decreased speed then stop. "Good. Now go back." I started going back, with a not too fast or not too slow speed. "Good. You better go back!" I felt that I was safer and more in control. A short distance before I go back to my body (I don't remember the wall there), I had a bit of confusion and lost of memory; I don't know how I get back to my body. But I was shock, more awake, and said to myself, "I am back." Before I open my eyes and start moving, 'I' started to shift to the left again, I was thinking, "Where the (beep) you going out of the window for?" Then in a snap, I was back again. I sit up right away and started crying. I said to my roommate, "I was yelling at your name, thanks for not saving my life." She said I did not even talk, the girl who was using gmail said she hear nothing either.
There was once that I was alerted that it's coming again. It happened Late July or early August of 2011. I was sleeping until after noon time. The numbness and heavy stone body. I was fully awake and want to fight back. But then my head got anesthetized and could not help myself from falling asleep. But I know that if I fall asleep, I am going to some weird experience again. I was lucky, shook myself to wake up and started moving around before it comes back again.
The last time (so far) was today, August 9, 2011. I slept until almost 11am. I felt the numbness and heaviness again, I tried to fight back, but I lost it. I went into this complete dark space, there was nothing in there except me. I was remaining the sleeping (face-up) pose, and all the sudden, I bent back wards (above my waist), not willingly. And my soul slipped out from my head!! But it just shift about the length of a head, maybe plus neck. I was too shock. I woke up and jump off my bed.
There are few more
times that this happened when I was at college.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I am sure that I was more than 50% of consciousness
And it always take me more than 30 mins to fall asleep every time because I always alert the sounds/movement around me (as much as I hearing goes)
So I am sure that those
experiences are NOT dreams
Was the experience dream like in any way? No. I can tell the difference.
For dreams, I always follow the dream to do whatever it makes, such as running or going to restaurant to take shower.
Later I found out that when I am in a dream, and I have consciousness, I will immediately wake up. Like, "Why am I taking a shower in the Sushi restaurant?"
On the other hand, when
OBE happened, no matter how I want to control it or wake up, I can't get out of
the OBE situation, and during or even before OBE happen, I was awake saying
things in my mind like "oh crap!". So, it is physical.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Uncertain I had one experience at the age of 21. That's about the time that I was kind of used to OBE and getting tired of it. I woke up to go to bathroom and come back, it was around 4am. Within few minutes, I felt my body became heavier and sink into my memory foam. At the same time, my body was stone hard and numbness that I cannot move my body at all. Then I felt something (maybe it's my soul?) left my feet, and I can see the ceiling slowly got closer and closer to me, or I am floating up. Seeing that, I thought "Again!?" While I was 'thinking', I was back to my body, still felt heavy and numbness, and felt that some string in the middle of my chest is attaching to something important up top. Then I thought, "I am really tired, I just want to sleep, so go wherever you want." Then I saw the ceiling increase speed, faster and faster. I got scared and thought, "STOP! Come back!" still without the ability to move. And then I saw the ceiling got further and further away. Around one to two inches before 'it' came back to my body, my vision was blurry and shifting. I was finally in one piece and fully awake. Later I thought about it, it was different experience compare to the rest of them; it felt like 'I' was switching back and forth between my body and that thing floating up there. When it comes to seeing, I was up there, when it comes to thinking, I was down there. And I don't remember seeing anything or not seeing anything when I was down there thinking.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? The first time, I was shock and started yelling at my roommate's name. Then I was scared and kept swearing.
Usually I was afraid and want to go back/get out of this situation.
(My emotions are
influence by my religion belief, I am scared that the evil is doing this.)
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? No. I am certain that I don't hear anything except my own thoughts.
But I have other
experiences which I was not out of body, but I was fully awake, with my eyes
closed. I heard my roommates come back from class, the sound from her key chain,
her voice, her talking about chemistry class, her friend's conversation and all
detail movements. But when I opened my eyes, no one was there. And similar
things like this happened four times.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes I know that every time it happened, I can see. Except for that, I didn't pay much attention to other senses.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain I am not sure the meaning of "altered space". But the first time I was out. I was pulled into the wall, there was an endless tunnel or tube. Its color was dark red mix with some black spots, the two colors have no certain shape, just like water and oil stirring together.
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Uncertain I am not sure if the endless tunnel counts.
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? Yes I had to be very aggressive, yelling, ordering like a despotic ruler thinking, "GO BACK! NOW!" (with swearing in between)
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain I really hope not. But very rarely, I can hear unexplained voices, sounds, or sense movements. Most of the time, I make up lies, telling myself it's caused by temperature changes. But recently, I really can't lie to myself about what I heard.
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Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? No. I keep it separate and I don't really think about it. However, I really want to know the answer. I know that children most likely experience those more then a young adult like me. And I know that I am not experience any health condition or near to death situation. I don't watch scary movie. I don't take any medication to mess up my body chemicals. Why me, and why at this age?
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes Roommates: They never heard this before, they were shock, too. Some of them don't believe me, one of them think it's really cool and ask me to teach her.
Family (sisters and mother): They were concerned in terms of religion.
Boyfriend: He doesn't want to believe those spiritual stuff, he keeps telling me I was dreaming.Pastor: I asked if the demon do that to attack me. He said he doesn't know much about this, but he will pray.