Amy I's Experience
I HAD JUST LEFT WORK AROUND 5 PM AND HAD PLANNED TO MEET MY HUSBAND AT THE MALL LATER AFTER PURCHASING GLOVES AT ANOTHER STORE NEAR THE MALL.
BEING FRIDAY EARLY EVENING, THE STRIP CENTER WAS CONGESTED AND PARKING PLACES WERE DIFFICULT TO FIND. PEOPLE WERE EVERYWHERE! AS I SEARCHED FOR PARKING I NOTICED THERE TWO YOUNG BOYS RIDING THEIR BIKES AND WHEELING IN OUT OF THE CARS WITHOUT ANY CARE. I STOPPED TO LET THEM GO IN FRONT OF ME AND THEN I PAUSED TO LET ANOTHER CAR PASS IN FRONT OF ME AS I MADE THE TURN ONTO THE MAIN STREAM OF TRAFFIC IN FRONT OF THE STORES. THAT IS WHEN I NOTICED A BLACK MAN CROSSING THE STREET RIGHT IN FRONT OF MY CAR AND I STOPPED. HE TURNED AND LOOKED STRAIGHT AT ME AND GLARED WITH SUCH HATE AND MALEVOLENCE; I WAS SHOCKED AT HIS PENETRATING GAZE AND FELT A VISCERAL COLD TREMOR MOVE UP MY BACK. MY HAIR LITERALLY FELT LIKE IT WAS STANDING ON END. HE SAUNTERED PAST AND I DID NOT LOOK AT HIM AS I LEFT. DRIVING UP TO THE STORE I WANTED TO GO IN; I JUST DECIDED TO PARK IN THE FIRE LANE AND JUMP IN TO MAKE MY PURCHASE. THE LENGTH OF TIME I WAS IN THE STORE WAS NO LONGER THAN 5 MINUTES.
UPON LEAVING I WAS HURRIED TO NOT PARK TOO LONG IN THE FIRE LANE AND AS I APPROACHED THE CURB TO STEP DOWN, I NOTICED A MAN WITH HIS BACK TO ME LEANING OVER A TRASH BIN THAT WAS RIGHT NEXT TO MY CAR. AS I STEPPED DOWN, HE TURNED AND I SAW IT WAS THE BLACK MAN I ENCOUNTERED EARLIER. HE LOCKED HIS EYES ON MINE AND I RUSHED AROUND THE BACK OF MY CAR TO GET AWAY FAST. AS I WENT TO CLOSE THE DOOR OF THE CAR; I LITERALLY THREW MY PURSE AND BAG ON TO THE PASSENGER SEAT WHEN MY CAR DOOR WAS RIPPED OUT OF MY HANDS AND NEXT I KNEW THIS GUY WAS ALMOST ON TOP OF ME SCREAMING IN MY FACE. AT FIRST I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT HE WAS SAYING SO I JUST GRABBED MY PURSE AND THREW IT AT HIM THINKING THIS WAS A ROBBERY. HE THREW IT BACK IN THE CAR AND AGAIN STARTED YELLING BUT THIS TIME I MADE OUT WHAT HE WANTED...MOVE OVAH! MOVE OVAH! HE WAS PUSHING ME INTO THE PASSENGER SIDE OF THE CAR. I KNEW INSTANTLY HE WAS CARJACKING ME AND THE CAR!
THIS IS WHEN ALL THINGS CHANGED IN MY WORLD. MY CRITICAL THINKING KICKED INTO A MICROSECOND SPEED. I BEGAN TO FIGHT BACK AND THIS IS WHEN HE PULLED A GUN FROM HIS PANTS AND PLACED THE SHAFT OF THE GUN ON MY LEFT CHEEK. HE SCREAMED HE WAS GOING TO BLOW MY FUCKING HEAD OFF IF I DIDN'T GET OVER. NEXT THING, I KNEW I WAS EVALUATING EVERY OPTION AVAILABLE AND EVERY OUTCOME. I ENVISIONED A PATIENT I CARED FOR IN THE ICU THAT HAD AN UNSUCCESSFUL SUICIDE ATTEMPT WITH A GUNSHOT TO THE HEAD; I EVALUATED EVERY TRAJECTORY OF THE BULLET AND WHAT WERE THE ODDS I MIGHT SURVIVE THE DAMAGE; I SAW MY HUSBAND AT THE MALL WAITING FOR ME; I SAW MY PARENTS AND THE NEWS OF MY DEATH; I KNEW I WAS IN A THRESHOLD MOMENT;
THE NEXT THING I KNEW I WAS HOVERING ABOVE MY CAR AND I COULD SEE THIS GUY LAYING ON TOP OF ME AS I LOOKED DOWN THROUGH THE WINDSHIELD. I COULD SEE PEOPLE WALKING ALONG THE SIDEWALK AND IN THE PARKING LOT LIKE NOTHING WAS GOING ON. I COULD SEE CLEAR OVER TO THE MALL! COLOR APPEARED AS IN A SEPIA PICTURE; SUBDUED AND WASHED OUT. AS I LOOKED AROUND I THOUGHT OH GOD HE KILLED ME! I AM OUTSIDE MY BODY! TIME SEEMED TO NOT EXIST AND THERE WAS NO SOUND, NO HEAVENLY LIGHT, NO ANGELIC NOR DEMONIC BEINGS, JUST NOTHING! NO COMFORTING PRESENCE OR KNOWLEDGE. IT WAS TERRIFYING! I TRIED TO LOOK UP AND THERE WAS JUST WHITENESS LIKE BEING INSIDE A CLOUD OF FOG. INSTANTLY I BEGAN TO CRY THEN I HEARD WHOOSH! AND I WAS BACK IN THE CAR AGAIN FIGHTING FOR MY LIFE. THEN I REALLY GOT SO ANGRY I THOUGHT I MIGHT EXPLODE...I WAS THOROUGHLY PISSED OFF...I FOUGHT THAT MAN SO HARD AND SCREAMED MY LUNGS OUT...STILL NO ONE WOULD ASSIST. WE WRESTLED IN THE CAR AND I GUESS HE JUST GOT TIRED OF DEALING WITH ME SO HE THREW ME OUT OF CAR. HE JUMPED IN THE CAR SEAT AND LAID THE GUN DOWN ON THE PASSENGER SEAT WHILE HE SEARCHED FOR THE CAR KEYS. I JUMPED ON HIM AND TRIED TO PULL HIM OUT OF THE CAR AND I HOPED THE PEOPLE WATCHING WOULD HELP. NO ONE WOULD HELP. HE THEN GOT HOLD OF HIS GUN AND WENT TO SHOOT ME BUT I JUMPED BEHIND THE CAR.
HE THEN DROVE
AWAY AND I WAS LEFT COLLAPSED AND HYSTERICAL IN THE STREET. PEOPLE STARED AT ME
AND STILL NO ONE WOULD HELP. I CALLED THE POLICE. THREE WEEKS LATER THE CAR WAS
RECOVERED IN NEW ORLEANS IN A SHOOT OUT. THE POLICE TOLD ME I WAS FORTUNATE I
FOUGHT SO HARD OTHERWISE THEY PROBABLY WOULD HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR MY BODY
SOMEWHERE BETWEEN GEORGIA AND LOUISIANA.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Yes I was assaulted at gunpoint with the perpetrator placing a gun on my face and telling me he was going to blow my fxxxxxhead off if I didn't let him in the car with me.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? INTENSE consciousness and micro time alertness
Was the experience dream like in any way? NO! IT WAS VERY REAL EVEN OUT OF MY BODY. TIME SLOWED DOWN IN ACTION BUT THE THOUGHT PROCESSES WERE ALMOST INSTANTANEOUS.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes I NEVER SAW ANY APART OF MY MYSELF. I WAS PURE CONSCIOUSNESS.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? FEAR. FEAR astonishment that I was out of my body, then more fear because there was no light, or angels, or loved ones present. NO ONE! CONFUSION; WHERE IN THE HECK WAS I? THEN WORRY SET IN THAT MAYBE I WAS GOING TO HELL.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? WHOOSH when I went back into my body OTHERWISE SILENCE.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes BUT VERY SUBDUED LIGHT THAT ROBBED COLOR FROM THINGS.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes INTENSE ALERTNESS AND MICRO SECOND THINKING AND VISUALIZATION
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes OUT OF SPACE TIME DIMENSION; NO TIME EMPTY SPACE
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes THE PLACE I WAS HOVERING WAS GREY, SUBDUED COLORING TO THE POINT COLOR WAS WASHED OUT. LIGHT WAS DIM AND VAGUE; FELT LOST AND COULD NOT SEE ABOVE ME.
WHITENESS BLOCKED MY
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes NOW I HAVE SPONTANEOUS KNOWLEDGE OF EVENTS. EG. JFK, JR. PLANE CRASH
PLANE CRASH, PAST
EVENTS IN CERTAIN GEOGRAPHIC SITES
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes CONFIRMED I AM ENERGY/ SPIRIT
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? I HAVE PTSD
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes EXTREMELY VIGILANT WHEN OUT ON MY OWN.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes INITIALLY SHARED WITH HUSBAND AND PARENTS, SOME FRIENDS. THEY DO NOT REALLY COMMENT; HOWEVER, I HAD SUCH DIFFICULT TIME PROCESSING THE EMPTINESS OF THE EVENT OUTSIDE MY BODY I SOUGHT PROFESSIONAL COUNSELING. THE PSYCHOLOGIST WAS NOT SURPRISED; HE INQUIRED TO ME IF I HAD EVER HEARD THE TERM "SCARED TO DEATH?" i SAID YES...HE TOLD ME THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TO ME. THE FEAR LITERALLY SCARED ME OUT OF MY BODY.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? I BECAME VERY ANGRY THAT THIS WHOLE EVENT CAUSED AN OUT OF BODY EXPERIENCE AND THAT I HAD TO FIGHT FOR MY LIFE. AFTERWORDS, DISCOURAGED BY PEOPLE'S LACK OF PARTICIPATION AND EMPATHY, REALIZED I REALLY AM ON MY OWN.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? THE ABOVE FOR THE WORST. THE BEST: TO FIND OUT IT WAS NOT MY TIME TO GO AND THERE IS A PRESCRIBED TIME TO GO; THE KNOWLEDGE THERE ARE MANY MORE LEVELS OF EXISTENCE AND CONSCIOUSNESS OUTSIDE THIS REALM.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? ON ONE HAND WISH IT NEVER HAPPENED; FLIPSIDE, ANOTHER EXPERIENCE TO THE OTHER SIDE; HOWEVER, NOT PLEASURABLE AS BEFORE WITH MY GRANDMOTHER'S SHARED DEATH EXPERIENCE AND AFTER DEATH COMMUNICATION WHICH I POSTED WITH THE SITE.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes