Amelie L's Experience
About twenty three years ago, during a troubled period in my life, I had a vision of my own death. I was awake but in a meditative, relaxed state whilst sitting on the floor, listening to music. This is what happened.
I was very old, over 90, and saw myself close to where I was brought up, on the
south coast of England. I was standing on the cliff tops looking out to sea.
This was something I have done hundreds of times and it felt very familiar to
me. Suddenly, I stepped out of my body and saw it fall to one side, just like I
had removed an old coat or jacket I no longer needed. I had no attachment to it
and I was surprised to find myself looking at my body because I didn't know I
was about to experience my death. I was not in the least alarmed or anxious. I
felt at peace. Just then, I unfurled the most amazing wings: pristine, white and
very strong. They had been furled for a long time but were just ready at that
moment, not a second too soon or a second too late. I set off towards the sun,
marveling at the beauty of the ocean below me. It was azure blue with diamonds
of light twinkling up at me. The sun's heat and light drew me towards it and at
the same time, I was willing myself towards it. I knew with absolute certainty
that the golden light was where I belonged. I was going home and I was SO
excited to get there. At that point, the vision stopped. After the vision, for
the next three days I was in a strange state. I remember going to the
supermarket, looking at all these people and trying to sense the spirits behind
the bodies. I remember thinking 'It doesn't matter what our jackets are like:
old, young, black, white. We are all spirits wearing body jackets and one day,
when we are ready, we will go home'.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? Yes I am trying to describe the feeling of 'going home' and the excitement I felt but words don't really do it justice.
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal everyday consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness N/A
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. I wasn't expecting anything like this, or thinking about death or about my home country. I was just sitting on the carpet, by my bed listening to music. So this experience took me completely by surprise.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. N/A
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Surprise, curiosity, joy and excitement.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel? No
Did you see an unearthly light? No
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any beings who previously lived on earth who are described by name in religions (for example: Jesus, Muhammad, Buddha, etc.)? No
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings? No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience? No
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world? No
Did time seem to speed up or slow down? No
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything? No
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you come to a border or point of no return? No
Did scenes from the future come to you? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness suggesting that there either is (or is not) continued existence after earthly life (“life after death”)? Yes I realised that I was not my body but separate to it and that when I die this happens. I also realized that there is a wonderful, exciting place to go to when we die and that this place is where we originally come from. I wanted to go on to this place but the vision suddenly stopped and I was back on my carpet.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that God or a supreme being either does (or does not) exist? Yes Yes, but not 'God' as I had previously imagined but going to a place of complete harmony and acceptance.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that you either did (or did not) exist prior to this lifetime? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness that a mystical universal connection or unity/oneness either does (or does not) exist? Yes Yes, but not 'God' as I had previously imagined but going to a place of complete harmony and acceptance.
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s meaning or purpose? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding earthly life’s difficulties, challenges, or hardships? No
During your experience, did you encounter any specific information / awareness regarding love? Yes When we die we go back to where we have come from which is a place of love, the like of which we cannot imagine.
During your experience, did you encounter any other specific information / awareness that you have not shared in other questions that is relevant to living our earthly lives? No
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose? No
What occurred during your experience included: Content that was both consistent and not consistent with the beliefs you had at the time of your experience I also hoped that there would be 'heaven' but I had no concept of what that would be like and whether I would get in! I imagined it might by like the film 'A Matter of Life and Death' where the air pilot (David Niven) has his case argued for him about whether he should stay or return to life here. This vision showed me that in a wink I will be re-united with all there is, and it will be a time of great joy (something I haven't experience here, in this life).
How accurately do you remember the experience in comparison to other life events that occurred around the time of the experience? I remember the experience more accurately than other life events that occurred around the time of th I will never forget it and can recall it easily because it is important to me.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience: The changes are all part of a process which takes the time it needs. I am changing now as I write this and consider your questions. I am deepening my understanding and appreciation for being alive and for what that means to me in a hundred different ways.
My experience directly resulted in: Moderate changes in my life
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes No real changes as such but a confirmation of my beliefs
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience? Yes I've had several 'strange' experiences all my life, e.g. sensing when I have to get away from something or someone who is potentially harmful to me, feeling a dead weight fall on my chest and body so that I couldn't breathe and hearing/sensing a devilish presence which laughed sarcastically and nearly vomited. In both these cases the only thing that occurred to me to do was to say 'In Jesus' name, go away!' which they did and I didn't really worry about it after that.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? No
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I can't remember - it was a long time ago
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? No
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened: Experience was definitely real It felt real
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time: Experience was definitely real Same as before - it felt real
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes my beliefs have been affirmed rather than changed
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience? No
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes ? they just do