had been sick for about 3 days with a fever and flu before the event, but I was
feeling much better that evening. I got into bed, set my alarm, and laid down on
moment later I saw a misty space above me that seemed to swirl in space. Then I
felt a strong pulling upwards towards the ceiling, like I was being yanked up
off my bed by my heart, and I felt a rushing sensation like I was being pulled
through a cloudy tunnel at great speed towards a light. This rushing feeling
didn't last long and I found myself suddenly in a tremendous expanse of wisps of
colors swirling around everywhere. I had no body, no sense of gravity, no
direction, very little sense of 'self' perspective. I could feel the presence of
countless others in the colors and we merged together. I felt a sense of love,
belonging and 'home' that is difficult to describe. Maybe it's beyond
description - ineffable. I get weepy remembering the feeling of being in this
state and sometimes wonder if that was a glimpse of heaven. I had the
understanding that I was not going to remain there and would go back, but I got
the sense that I was going with their love and that the separation would only be
part of the illusion of life.
thumped back down into my body, fully awake and aware of my bedroom. I looked
back over at the alarm clock I set before lying down and only a couple of
minutes had gone by. It was a glorious expedience and shifted my perspective on
a variety of things. I no longer felt drawn to ritual, or experiencing spiritual
things in a prescribed fashion. I wonder if that state is always there and
present, like another dimension or something overlaid on my day to day
experience. I feel like I lack the language to convey the sense of it.
Any associated medications or
substances with the potential to affect the experience?
Was the kind of experience
difficult to express in words?
Yes I can describe what happened, but
the feelings are difficult to explain
At the time of this experience, was
there an associated life threatening event?
What was your level of
consciousness and alertness during the experience?
I felt fully conscious and aware
Was the experience dream like in any way?
No - this was unlike any dream
experience I've had.
Did you experience a separation of
your consciousness from your body?
Yes I had no form - I felt diffuse,
like I was part of a cloud of countless other beings.
What emotions did you feel during
I felt immense
love and joy.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or
I remember a
whooshing as I traveled through the tunnel - maybe it was like a roar of static.
Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar
religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or
Uncertain I wondered after the fact if this
was heaven. But it doesn't seem like the heaven I learned about in church as a
Did you see a light?
I saw a light at the end of the tunnel.
The colors that were swirling everywhere were bright.
Did you meet or see any other
I felt like I knew them and they knew me - like
they were the people I came from. They welcomed me and we rejoiced that we were
together. I lost some sense of my self though, and some of
what I learned or came to understand seemed to come from all of us
collectively at once.
Did you experiment while out of the
body or in another, altered state?
Did you observe or hear anything
regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?
Did you notice how your 5 senses
were working, and if so, how were they different?
I felt like maybe I was seeing the colours, but
not exactly. More like standing them in another way. I also felt like I was
feeling vibration rather than hearing anything with ears
Did you have any sense of altered
space or time?
Yes In English, we describe time in
terms of length - I had no sense of length of time. What I felt was a fullness
of time and the experience was immense. I found it interesting to see that less
than three minutes had elapsed between setting
my alarm clock and thumping down into my body.
Did you have a sense of knowing,
special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
I had a feeling of purpose, like what I
was doing would be brought back to be shared with all of these beings when I am
finished living this life.
Did you reach a boundary or
limiting physical structure?
Did you become aware of future
Were you involved in or aware of a
decision regarding your return to the body?
Yes I felt like I was going to feel sad
to leave and be separated, but I also felt certain that it would be temporary. I
felt invigorated and supported.
Did you have any psychic,
paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have
prior to the experience?
For about a year afterwards, I felt like another presence was with
me to help guide me through a difficult time in my life.
Did you have any changes of
attitudes or beliefs following the experience?
Yes I was a practicing pagan before the
experience and did rituals at the sabbats with others. After this experience, I
felt almost no draw to ritual and don't feel like experiencing spirituality
through the eyes of others because I've had direct experience.
How has the experience affected
your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices?
I felt much less inclined to be
told what to do. I divorced my husband and switched careers (left the family
business). It was liberating. I stopped practicing rituals as a pagan and
stopped trying to change the people around me. I'm considerably calmer and open
minded now. I also used to deal with bouts of depression, but haven't since the
Has your life changed specifically
as a result of your experience?
Have you shared this experience
Yes I've shared this experience with
two others. I think they thought it was cool, but I don't know that they were
influenced by it.
What emotions did you experience
following your experience?
I felt a deep
sense of connection to the beings I met and I felt like I could make changes to
What was the best and worst part of
The best part
was having an experience that gave an indication that there is something beyond
this life. The worst part is that I am nearly unable to believe that certain
things matter, like many aspects of corporate culture, which can be a problem in
my current job.
Following the experience, have you
had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced
any part of the experience?
Did the questions asked and
information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your
Yes Yes, I thought the questions were
useful for digging into the experience.