Alain P's Experience
I was watching TV, and then I needed to go to the bathroom. I washed my hands, and then, I still don't know why, I felt a need to "take some time for myself", to get relaxed, and I wet my face with my hands, placing my palms over my face, like a caress. I was very calm, continuing to do this for maybe 10 seconds, then I grabbed the towel and buried my face in it, still maintaining my "protective mask" position. I felt good.
I was about to leave the bathroom, but as I again made this action of covering my face with my two hands, suddenly in the darkness of my eyes which were shut, with my two hands on my face, an "arrow" of light entered the interior of my skull, on the right side, with the point of the arrow coming from outside towards the centre of my brain. So I looked at the interior of my brain, through a kind of inward-looking, seeing this arrow of light growing and progressing, a very gentle light. Then on the left side of my skull, the same kind of light-arrow entered, then a third, entering by the top of the head, all of them converging in the centre of my head, more or less behind my nose, I would guess. I was invaded by a cone of light which covered my whole being, a Light of Love, incredibly white, tender and loving. I really felt that this Light was someone, someone who loved me and was right there behind the light, on the right-hand side.
I still had my hands over my closed eyes, and I could see my joined hands in multiple replication, that is, I saw this image repeated 7 or 8 times one after the other. The cone of light was also outside of me, it was so gentle!
Then, gently, the light withdrew. The moment of astonishment once past, all I could say was "Thank you, thank you, thank you!"
I went back to the lounge, not knowing how to give thanks. At the time, I was working on a very slight piece for guitar, short but very light and subtle, very delicate. I had been working on it for a week or two, and I said to myself that I would play this piece for the Light, while still under the shock of Love received, as a sort of homage paid by me to it. This fragment which usually seemed so pretty now seemed heavy and crude, compared to the subtlety of the experience I had just been through, so that I was disappointed, though of course the intention is what really counts. Now, when I play this little tune, people find it charming, but I know just how awkward it is...
In the 3 or 4 days following the experience, I felt impervious, each one of my cells had been vivified, I did not even feel the need to eat. I was indestructible, but the most appropriate term is impervious, then the ordinariness of life came back...
I cannot tell you how long the experience lasted, whether 20 seconds or 4 minutes, it's impossible to say. Let's say 3 minutes, but it could just as well have been 10, it was missing time (in English in the text).
Throughout the experience, I was completely aware of standing there, alive as an earthly human being, in my bathroom, with both feet firmly on the ground.
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? Yes, inexpressible love and the Light.
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness? Throughout
How did your highest level of consciousness and alertness during the experience compare to your normal every day consciousness and alertness? Normal consciousness and alertness throughout.
Did your vision differ in any way from your normal, everyday vision (in any aspect, such as clarity, field of vision, colors, brightness, depth perception degree of solidness/transparency of objects, etc.)?
Yes, with my eyes closed and my hands clasped over them, I could see my hands
multiplied, and I could see inside my head.
Did your hearing differ in any way from your normal, everyday hearing (in any aspect, such as clarity, ability to recognize source of sound, pitch, loudness, etc.)? No
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? No
What emotions did you feel during the experience? LOVE. I was loved.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? No
Did you see a light? Yes, immense, gentle, clear, warm, intelligent and loving.
Did you meet or see any other beings? No
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Uncertain. I could not know how long it lasted, there was no more time!
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?
Uncertain. With Love coming, from far away, if the experience had lasted a bit longer, I guess that knowledge would have come.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? No
Did you become aware of future events? No
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?
Uncertain. I have always more or less had a very good sixth sense, I can read cards, predict the sex of a child to be born, with 100% accuracy. I am more sensitive (now).
Have you shared this experience with others?
Yes, quite soon I tried to tell people about it; some laugh, others have
foolish opinions about only 10% of our brain being utilized, others believe
nothing at all, and some listen to me... I now only tell people who are worthy
of hearing about it.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience? Yes, Moody and a general personal interest.
How did you view the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened?
Experience was definitely real. Some days after it, I told myself I had had
extraordinary good fortune to have known this, the year after it happened I made
a little prayer on the anniversary, and 7 years later (now, as I write these
words) I still think about it.
How do you currently view the reality of your experience?
Experience was definitely real , how to answer this question? It was very real,
my hands, the light, my thanksgiving, the guitar, my invulnerability, and the
LOVE, especially, which is the most unforgettable; a light is LOVE, and it
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience? No
Have your religious beliefs/practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?
Yes, religions are the nursery-schools of spirituality, love is everywhere, everyone can make his own church as he wishes, sing inwardly to a flower, laugh into the wind so that someone will receive it in future, pray in his house for the happiness of those who will live ther in 100 years. We can love in the stars and leave a trace somewhere if we pray with the heart.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life,
medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?
If only we could make use of this force on a daily basis, we would change the world, which is upside-down. Don't forget: world decisions are all back to front, we give money to the banks, not to the poor... it snows, and we throw people into the street in France because they have no papers, etc.
We MUST change this! It's imperative!
Did the questions asked and information you provided so far accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes
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