Ajith M's Experiences
I have had two specific experiences which I shall describe as No 1 and No 2, but I do not know if you will accept this as NDE.
It was a normal day and my daughter was five years old. She while playing used to jump from the wide space near the windowsill on to the bed cushion and on that day when she jumped, the central bed post broke and we were unable to sleep on the cot as a sag had developed. So we propped the cot to the wall and pulled the bedding cushion on to the floor and slept against the door such that we were lying in the same line to the pooja room deity of Lord Shiva adjoining the next room to our bedroom i.e. the pooja room was the third room from our bedroom in a straight line. That night I saw Lord Shiva in all his glory appear before me, he laughed aloud happily in a thundering voice and held both my shoulders with his hands. At that time he was my equal height. There was no snake around his neck and he had the trident in his hand. He had the skin color of golden white. His muscled arms were very big, one arm about the size of my body showing the utmost power. I touched his right chest with my palm and then he turned and I saw his golden "jata" or matted hair flowing to the ground. Now he was about 7 feet tall and I had to look up at him. He walked and I followed suit. He went up a hillock and then I saw two small lady figures or souls laughing. I turned to them and told "the Supreme Lord is going and you are laughing?" Then when I turned I saw Lord Shiva entering backwards facing me into an opening doorway in the hillock and disappeared. I lunged forward calling him Mahadevaa and I awoke and it was about 4 a.m. (4:05 a.m.) I assume if those ladies would not have laughed and not distracted me, I would have walked along with the Lord and my soul would have left my body with him. Only to avoid that I was distracted by those lady souls. The whole experience was so pleasant and soothing that I felt so light at my mind and had an inner strength that helps me now in all my daily activities. I don't have any problems and if at all there arises, it solves on its own.
This was on a Maundy Thursday, I saw Jesus Christ standing in front of me. A big cross was in front of him. He was placing both his hands on the T of the cross. There was no upper portion of the cross, only it looked like a 'T' He was smiling and was looking benevolently at me for a long time. He was wearing white gown with a red robe on his shoulders. I awoke after some time and then also it was about 4:15 a.m., I shook my wife awake and asked her to pray to Jesus. She was astonished and wondered why I was saying so. But still we prayed quietly. Then this particular incident occurred clearly about one month afterwards. I slept normally as usual after my night prayers to Lord Shiva and Parvathi and had a good sleep. Then I saw myself very high above in the space on a Golden carved platform I was kneeling and beside me was Lord Jesus Christ in white gown only (no red robe on his shoulder). I could see stars below me under the platform and ahead. We were both facing another balcony on the opposite where Lord Shiva was standing only his torso was visible, he was different from the usual self, he had a yellow robe over him with golden hair just flowing parted in the middle and the hair was flowing to infinite, there was no building as such only the balcony was visible and the platform on which we were standing also there was no building. The Lord Shiva was swaying from side to side, he had his eyes closed as in meditation and the only distinguishing factor was his third eye partly close in his forehead. I placing one knee on the platform and in a very enthusiastic manner said aloud to Christ "the Supreme Father is standing there" He then said "I know better than you, he is my Father". No mouth or tongue was used for all these conversations, only mental telepathy was used. Words just came from the soul. Then a loud thundering voice emanated from Lord Shiva to me "GO BACK" and I awoke from my sleep. I assume it was not the time for me to be there at that time. This also was early in the morning at 3:45 a.m. The time I could see because I have a clock hanging in front of my bed. The whole experience was so pleasant and serene that I felt like a feather. It was a revelation to me. That all religions are one and we puny humans segregate ourselves by creating religious walls and living thinking the other person is alien. Whereas all are our own brothers and sisters. We should actually break down these walls. Actually if we rise above these walls and be with God we can see below, segregated humans in their religious sects not knowing the utmost truth. I am a very small man but with a very old soul in my body I assume always wanting to unite back with Him.
Very recently five months back I saw a date in a yellow box "14/08/2014" This I saw on two consecutive days. I don't know what this means. I am waiting for that date now to see if there is any significance in what I saw. Only four days left.
At the time of your experience was there an associated life-threatening event? No
Was the experience difficult to express in words?....No....
At what time during the experience were you at your highest level of consciousness and alertness?....Normal consciousness and alertness Throughout the experience.....It was the same as though I was awake normally.
Please compare your vision during the experience to your everyday vision that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The vision was so real that I did not know that I was sleeping. It was as though I was wide awake.
Please compare your hearing during the experience to your everyday hearing that you had immediately prior to the time of the experience. The hearing was also normal but more resonant and echoic. There was no speech by the body, only sound emanated from the inner self but made no difference, I was astonished by speaking not with the mouth. Lord Jesus just glanced at me and I could hear him speaking and so was Lord Shiva's "Go Back". Just sound emanated from there.
Did you see or hear any earthly events that were occurring during a time that your consciousness / awareness was apart from your physical / earthly body? No No earthly interference was apparent.
What emotions did you feel during the experience?....Pleasant, calmness, peace, tranquility, and new knowledge.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel?....No....
Did you see an unearthly light?....Yes....The light around was not of the Sun. It was a glow. In my first experience it was a silver glow. In the second experience it was a mixed light of gold and silver. So soothing.
Did you seem to encounter a mystical being or presence, or hear an unidentifiable voice?....I encountered a definite being, or a voice clearly of mystical or unearthly origin My above statements are explanatory enough, but still I add the conspicuous feature of Lord Shiva and Jesus Christ was that both their noses were exactly similar. Sharp featured.
Did you encounter or become aware of any deceased (or alive) beings?....No
Did you become aware of past events in your life during your experience?....No....
Did you seem to enter some other, unearthly world?....A clearly mystical or unearthly realm....From where I was standing on the platform, it was very high up in space because I could see stars below and ahead and all around. The golden carved platform was firm yet in mid space.
Did time seem to speed up or slow down?....Everything seemed to be happening at once; or time stopped or lost all meaning....There was no sense of time during these experiences. Time was irrelevant.
Did you suddenly seem to understand everything?....Everything about myself or others....I had a knowledge of the oneness of God, that all humans irrespective of his race, religion or color are actually brothers and sisters, children of the same God.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?....Yes....There was a limit of my being in the place where I had been. I was denied entrance with the Lord Shiva in the first experience and in the second I was told to go back, that my time has not come to be there. Then how did I reach there? Maybe Jesus took me there and Lord Shiva his Father told I am not fit to be there now? I don't know.
Did you come to a border or point of no return?....I came to a barrier that I was not permitted to cross; or was "sent back" against my will....Actually in both experiences I was enthusiastic and wanted to be there and enter the hillock in the first instance with the Lord which I was denied and I awoke. In the second instance it was so pleasant that actually I never wanted to come back, but I was asked to Go Back.
Did scenes from the future come to you?....No....
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge or purpose?....Yes....I have a purpose I think in this world, otherwise I would not have been sent back after I had reached such a height.
Discuss any changes that might have occurred in your life after your experience:....Large changes in my life....Before my experience, I was a little uncertain because of a little financial problems, but now I leave everything to Him and I am now at peace and tranquility and actually everything is being taken care of by Him.....
Did you have any changes in your values or beliefs after the experience that occurred as a result of the experience? Yes To love all without bias and be considerate. Be patient and calm in any crisis.
Do you have any psychic, non-ordinary or other special gifts after your experience that you did not have before the experience?....Yes My hand heals now. I have done this only to my wife, daughter and mother. I pray and touch them and they say that their ailment or pain is decreased. I am humbled now very much and there is no shred of ego in me now.
Have you ever shared this experience with others? Yes I shared it as soon as I awoke to my wife and to my mother, then slowly to selected people who would not laugh at hearing these experiences. This world has majority of people who ridicule others hearing such facts. So I have told my experiences to those selected few only.
Did you have any knowledge of near death experience (NDE) prior to your experience?....Yes Yes once when I was about 21 years old, I was sleeping and I saw myself being taken up by a dark being with two horns in its head, I was frightened when I saw myself about to hit the running fan above, but I passed through that without any feeling, then my mind called out to Lord Shiva and chanted his mantra "Om Namah Shivaya" suddenly the thing left its hold and I fell back into my body. I clearly remember that also now.
What did you believe about the reality of your experience shortly (days to weeks) after it happened:....Experience was definitely real I never had the feeling that I was sleeping and I had left my body, I was feeling as though I was really with the Lord and Christ. No feeling of OBE.
What do you believe about the reality of your experience at the current time:....Experience was definitely real....It is so vivid in my mind still to this very moment as if it happened last night. I really went through the experience in reality.
Have your relationships changed specifically as a result of your experience?....No....
Have your religious beliefs/spiritual practices changed specifically as a result of your experience?....Yes I have become more ardent in my beliefs and more religious, in fact with all religions. My mind fills with love when I see a Christian and a Muslim.
At any time in your life, has anything ever reproduced any part of the experience?....Yes Yes, later on my mother had real darshan, or saw Lord Shiva with her own eyes in our pooja room (place of worship in a house). I once saw the Lord riding his Bull just near me in sleep. I saw Christ's face close to my face pressing my cheek in my sleep. I can now see all that while I am typing this matter as though in reality. I don't expect anybody to believe what I say, because this world in full of disbelievers. It is between me and God. No interference please. I will quietly worship him and he will benevolently look after me.
Did the questions asked and information that you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes Your questions are so inquisitive that every detail is explained by the person answering it. I appreciate your efforts. Good.
Are there one or several parts of your experience that are especially meaningful or significant to you? Yes one that I am being noticed by God, second my self is eradicated and I feel selfless, meaning I feel if I can be a sand particle in "His" feet my birth would be gratified.
Is there anything else that you would like to add about your experience?....Yes, every person in this world has a piece of God in himself. Just call up that and invoke it and polish it so that he will get a tingling that someone is loving him and he will ask that person to love others.