Experience 1: Age 26 May 1983
I was unmarried, jobless and was in a confused state of mind and depressed being jobless, (opportunities were less in those days in India for an ordinary graduate) though I hail form a traditional family with sound financial background. I was depressed due to the fact that for every need I had to rely on my family for support. Still I did every duties required of a son towards my parents and my only sister. I used to do my daily pooja (routine prayers, offerings and obeisance to my Lord Shiva and Parvathi) whom I consider as the supreme power in the universe. I get up at 5:30 am and after bathing etc I do my pooja up to 08:30 am. This I am still doing. Days before this particular experience I had a lot of mental agony due to many problems both personal and my family's. On that day I was sleeping on my right side and I saw what we call "Devi" female form of God") very dark in color, dressed in white saree with a trident (Trishul) held horizontally in both hands and smiling with pearl like teeth walked in between me and the wall near my bed. I awoke and then slept. Later the same night I was sleeping supine and there was a fog like appearance over me and two purplish white hands of "Devi" I could see holding the trident horizontally in both her hands as though giving it to me. Then I saw myself rising and sitting in a kneeling position on my body which was sleeping. I thrust both my hands and received the trident (Trishul) and both my hands bent back with its weight towards my chest and then the whole scene vanished. I woke up and saw it was 04:30 am. I was very calm at my mind and had a happy feeling and the next day found myself very enthusiastic and then on my life had a better turn and slowly I could see great improvement in my life, though I got a job a few years later money was never a problem with me. I took two PG diplomas and I got many jobs and would always get better job after I resign from a job which I was not satisfied with. I got the ability to choose jobs. I had a peaceful mental state.
Experience 2: Age 41, 11th April 1998
Meanwhile I got married in the year 1994 to Geetha a very beautiful girl whom I met in a Shiva temple and our only daughter by name Parvathi was born in the year 1997. (I had a dream that it would be a daughter as a child of three years was standing with my wife near a "thulsi" plant in our courtyard and later my daughter has the same face that I saw in my dream before her birth) all these are baffling to me. On 11th April 1998 I was sleeping, my wife sleeping was beside me and beside her our daughter. I saw Jesus Christ standing in front of me. The cross was in front of him like a 'T' He was standing behind resting both his hands on the upper part of the cross and looking "benevolently" at me for a long time. I have never seen Jesus in any picture like what I saw then. He was far far better than in pictures. He had so sharp features and eyes so good, I cannot explain. He was wearing a white flowing gown with a red upper cloth flowing behind. The expression in his face was so kind and he had a faint smile in his face. I could see him so clearly. Then after a while he vanished. I woke up and the time was 04:00 am. I woke my wife and told her about what I saw and asked her to pray to Jesus. She was astonished but without questioning prayed and we then lied down without sleeping again the night, I got up and did my pooja and was wondering about what I saw. I never thought of Christ the day before or any days prior. Then the next night was what was really astonishing. I was kneeling on a carved golden platform up above in the skies and Lord Jesus Christ in white gown was standing to my right side on the same platform. Jesus was not looking at me, he was looking on ahead. I could see stars below me and all around. Then on the opposite side another golden balcony appeared and in that balcony I saw Lord Shiva in a very different way than what is depicted in photos. He was having golden hair parted in the middle and it was flowing to infinite, the only distinguishing aspect was his third eye in the middle of his forehead. He had his eyes half closed and had a swaying stance to both sides. I was speaking aloud and telling to Jesus there is the Supreme father of the universe. I saw Jesus smiling as though telling me "I know better". Then I heard a loud booming and resonant voice from Lord Shiva to me "Go Back". Then I woke up. The time was about 04:00 am. I could not sleep again. I had a bath and started pooja early. Then another day I saw the face of Jesus pressed to my face for a short while. I now got the revelation that Jesus was actually son of Lord Shiva who is called Jehova and Allah or vice versa, Jehove is Shiva of Allah is Shiva, and to uplift or purify that part of the world the semen of Lord Shiva was carried by Nandi or Gabriel into the Virgin Mary and Jesus was born as son of God. We are actually calling the one God in different names and different ways of reaching to him. We are all living in walled segments as Christians, Muslims, Hindus, Jews whereas the master is one and the same formless Shiva or Jehova or Allah. This revelation I got from this experience on 11th November 2001.
Experience 3: Age 44, 26th July 2001
My daughter was now
nearly four years old. One day she was playing by jumping from the window on to
the bed. She did that for many times and thus one of wooden support under the
cot broke and this caused a dip in our bed when we slept. So we propped the cot
near the wall and took the bed to the floor and slept right in front of the
door. Then I saw Lord Shiva who was all white with a yellowish hue to his self
in front of me. He was very tall and so well built that his muscled hands had a
circumference of many muscled hands together. He smiled aloud at me and placed
both his hands on my shoulder. Then I saw he was standing at equal height with
me as I had only medium height. I touched his chest with my palm, he was so
happy and then he turned and walked and I followed close behind. Then I saw his
hair which was contrary to what is depicted in pictures, the hair was very
thick, golden in color and flowing to the ground. He had his "Trishul" in his
left hand. He then climbed a hillock and I was following close behind. Suddenly
I saw two small female spirits giggling and I looked at them and said he is the
Supreme father and when I turned towards the Lord he was facing me and entered
an opening like a doorway in the hill. I lunged forward calling out to him and
woke up. The time was now also around 04:30. My life is now so serene, calm and
peaceful that I have a great inner strength. We had actually migrated to Canada
in the year 2008. But was pulled back by some unseen force. We are now back in
India and I doing my daily pooja and have a very good job. In fact I was given
the job in the same company when I returned from Canada where I was working
prior to my departure to Canada. My daughter is now in the 10th standard. We are
happy and have no concerns whatsoever, all the Supreme father and son takes care
of. I think I have some mission in life that is why I got a "Go Back" voice from
God saying it is not time for you to come here now. I do not know the mission.
Hope mankind stops hating each other and love fills every human beings hearts.
All humans are now my brothers and sisters, kith and kin wherever in this world,
my state of mind is such now. I do not feel hatred to anybody at all only love
love love and love.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience? No
Was the kind of experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of this experience, was there an associated life threatening event? No
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? I was fully conscious
Was the experience dream like in any way? In a very vague sense. Every detail I am able to remember after awakening and until now, so possibility of a dream is vague.
Did you experience a separation of your consciousness from your body? Yes In my first experience I was out of my body but sitting on it. In the second and third I was totally out of my body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? OH! real calm, happiness to the extreme as though ecstasy to the maximum.
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Yes as I mentioned, in the second experience "Go Back" was so deep loud and conspicuous. In the third experience the laughter of Lord Shiva was also loud, deep and resonant.
LOCATION DESCRIPTION: Did you recognize any familiar locations or any locations from familiar religious teachings or encounter any locations inhabited by incredible or amazing creatures? No
Did you see a light? Yes In my first experience the fog like illumination at first was for a short period until I saw the hands of the goddess. The light that I saw in my second experience was very natural. The sky was starlit, there was no extraordinary light or hue.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Yes As I mentioned in my third experience I saw two small female spirits in a corner giggling.
Did you experiment while out of the body or in another, altered state? No
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? No
Did you notice how your 5 senses were working, and if so, how were they different? Yes All my 5 senses were working normally as in my awake state, I never felt I was sleeping at all in the latter two experiences.
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? No
Did you have a sense of knowing, special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes Yes, I came to know or my mind became clear that there is no disparity in humans, to see every body as your own self.
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes Ah yes now I remember another dream like incident where I had a sense of peril if I crossed the boundary. My grandmother died in the year 2002 January who was living in my house with us. A few months later one night I saw her along with my deceased grandfather stating that she was hungry. I was running to her with a packet of food in my hand and I saw that they were standing in a garden and there was a wall barrier in between me and them, I jumped over the wall to reach them and when I was on the wall I saw a fierce tiger roaming in front and I stopped track and returned and woke up. I now think if I would have crossed that wall it would have been dangerous or my grandparents wanted me near them or so on my thoughts go on but I was saved in the nick of time. If that tiger had not appeared I would have crossed to give them food and may not be able to cross back and not awake at all
Did you become aware of future events? No
Were you involved in or aware of a decision regarding your return to the body? No response I just awake abruptly
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience that you did not have prior to the experience? Yes Now I have a healing power or near healing power to my palm. My family members say so and I feel personally also. if anybody in my family have any pain or ailment they get cured if I touch the affected area and pray to the God with utmost concentration. This I did not have prior. But I have never given publicity of this since I do not like to be ridiculed by people who are atheists.
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? No
How has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices? Career choices? Yes now I view relationships serenely and my daily life is getting its purity day by day. Career comes to me I don't choose, "HE" decides what is best for me now.
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes In fact I was attracted towards God when I was about 13 years and grew up contemplating on him. The change has been continuous. So I will change and be more calm as I tread my future path. I now clearly see the path I have to tread leading towards "HIM"
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes With my close family members and very few close friends and to one clergy man of a church and to a priest in a temple. (Not in this much detail)
What emotions did you experience following your experience? As I have stated, my emotions are very calm and no excitement, but only serenity has increased. I have never smoked, tasted alcohol or any sort of drugs. So my emotions are calm and mind filled with kindness only.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? There is no worst part to my experience even to half a percent. Everything is best.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Yes I am happy that I now consider myself having zero ego or self feeling, I am happy that I am being watched by the supreme cosmic energy. We are a speck of sand particle in this whole universe and in it I am a tiny molecule and I am I worth being taken into account by the supreme cosmic creator? If so then I am humbled and wish now to cling as a sand molecule in his lotus feet.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes In October 2001 My daughter had an accident. In her horoscope written one year after her birth, it is stated that in her 4 and 1/2 years time she will have a fatal life threatening accident and it may either be severe bleeding or burn due to fire. Exactly in her 4 and 1/2 years age one night at about 08 pm in October 2001 as directed by the physician since she was suffering from severe cold, my wife put prescribed medicine in hot water in a pot and was making her inhale the vapor. Suddenly my child lost balance and caught the edge of the pot and the hot water fell over her. She was wearing a dress made of nylon and the heat of water burned her skin and the skin came off in the shape of the dress. We took her to the hospital emergency department and she was in hospital in isolation for one whole month. When in hospital it was noted that her left ear had melted and had turned into a flesh ball. The fourth day when my child started to say something she asked for a certain food early in the morning. I ran out and in my motor bike went to many shops and at last got the particular food she asked for and gave it to her. The cover of the packet had the photo of Goddess Parvathi so instead of throwing away the cover, cleaned it and kept it in the cupboard. The doctor after examining my daughter's ear said it can be corrected only by plastic surgery. He was a renowned pediatrician from UK. That night I was lying in a couch for bystanders and my wife was near my sleeping child sitting in a chair resting her head at the foot of the bed. Then my wife saw the Goddess come out of the cupboard and came to my child's bedside and looked at her intently. This my child also saw and she also told that she saw the goddess the next day. (Alas I did not see a thing) The next day to our surprise my child's ear had become normal and skin the shape of her ear had come out. The doctor was really baffled, he said it was a miracle and he had never seen such an incident whereas he was doubly sure that it was a case for plastic surgery. After a month of treatment with covered plastering and Silver Sulfadiazine application my child recovered completely. Now she is 15 years of age and really speaking there is no trace of any burn in her skin. Nobody would believe that she had 90% burn injuries as a child. She is a sweet little child now. This is the help that the Almighty Lord has showered on me. The incident was destined to happen, but the vehemence has been belittled by his grace.
Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? Yes The experiences I had and am still having are all by the grace of God and proof of it is my conscience and the Almighty's benevolence.
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