Mel's Experience


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      On a peaceful Sunday afternoon, I began feeling ill. I told my wife I was going to the hospital to get checked out, because I'd never experienced these symptoms before, and felt them progressing slowly. I drove myself the short distance to the hospital, but could feel my normal body functions deteriorating. Stiffness, nausea....clamminess. The triage nurse placed me in a waiting room, where I passed out. I was moved to a small examining room and vitals were taken. IV's followed quickly, one in each arm, as well as a heart monitor. The staff was calm and cordial, including the attending physician. After a period of time, my condition was deteriorating, and it was decided that I should be moved to a more technically equipped room within the ER. I was placed on oxygen, and away we went. The real ride was yet to come! Now in the larger and more Star-Trekish room, with computers and monitors as well as the IV's and oxygen, the physician with arms folded, kept watching my pulse rate on the screen....he talked softly and confidently in detail to me about the circumstances as he saw them. I was having a severe allergy to seafood, and my body was literally shutting down. The course of this shut-down had to be reversed quickly. An average heart rate is 70 I was told and mine was slowing..as it reached 50...then into the 40's....and when it hit 30, the doctor called for epinephrine (adrenalin) into the IV's. He leaned in close to my face and softly said, "stay with me"....large doses of epinephrine is like the fastest roller coaster you can imagine...as i grabbed the rails of the bed, I began to shake...my body was in a full spasm, shaking the metal bed rails that I thought would soon give way, the sound of the monitors beeping, alarms sounding, now, about 5 people standing before me as the doctor called for more epinephrine....the level of noise was deafening

In a split second, like hitting the mute button on the remote control, this room went silent to me as the activity continued. I watched in silence, and then a voice.....a calm, and extremely casual tone asked " well, hey, do you want to stay ...or go?" I watched the activity around me continue, but in pure silence, they voice sounded like a male voice, in his thirties. I thought of my family, my son who has a disability that I care for and love dearly, and as if the button were pressed again, the sound of the room clicked back on to high volume. 

I now heard the doctor again say to me, 'stay with me'...my bed was being moved again, this time down the hall towards the large Trauma Room...the physician told me I was being moved to a more facilitating room. I just smiled at him, still shaking from the medication, I said, "it's ok, the crisis has passed"...and "everything will be fine, the critical point was back there..." as I pointed to the room we had just left. He looked at me and smiled, saying, 'that's correct', but I want to keep an eye on you'. Again, hooked up in the Trauma Room to the machines...I began to relax with total confidence that I was going to be fine. I was still feeling the shakes but had total clarity of mind thru this time, and assured my daughters standing in hall, that All is well with dad. I was now in the ER for over 3 hours when I looked into the corner of the room and saw a man standing there, quietly, just watching me...when the doctor popped in again, I laughed and asked if I was the only one who could see this man?....He laughed and said, no, the man works here...we both laughed, but the potential seemed real enough to me, following the recent experiences. I explained what had happened to the doctor, and in his same coolness and respect, he just smiled at me. I stayed in the ER for several more hours and was then admitted for the night. I stayed awake for most of the night, peaceful, quiet, and in prayer to God to say thank you for giving me this choice today. I felt God smile.
symptoms before, and felt them progressing slowly. I drove myself the short distance to the hospital, but could feel my normal body functions deteriorating. Stiffness, nausea....clamminess. The triage nurse placed me in a waiting room, where I passed out. I was moved to a small examining room and vitals were taken. IV's followed quickly, one in each arm, as well as a heart monitor. The staff was calm and cordial, including the attending physician. After a period of time, my condition was deteriorating, and it was decided that I should be moved to a more technically equipped room within the ER. I was placed on oxygen, and away we went. The real ride was yet to come! Now in the larger and more Star-Trekish room, with computers and monitors as well as the IV's and oxygen, the physician with arms folded, kept watching my pulse rate on the screen....he talked softly and confidently in detail to me about the circumstances as he saw them. I was having a severe allergy to seafood, and my body was literally shutting down. The course of this shut-down had to be reversed quickly. An average heart rate is 70 I was told and mine was slowing..as it reached 50...then into the 40's....and when it hit 30, the doctor called for epinephrine (adrenalin) into the IV's. He leaned in close to my face and softly said, "stay with me"....large doses of epinephrine is like the fastest roller coaster you can imagine...as i grabbed the rails of the bed, I began to shake...my body was in a full spasm, shaking the metal bed rails that I thought would soon give way, the sound of the monitors beeping, alarms sounding, now, about 5 people standing before me as the doctor called for more epinephrine....the level of noise was deafening

In a split second, like hitting the mute button on the remote control, this room went silent to me as the activity continued. I watched in silence, and then a voice.....a calm, and extremely casual tone asked " well, hey, do you want to stay ...or go?" I watched the activity around me continue, but in pure silence, they voice sounded like a male voice, in his thirties. I thought of my family, my son who has a disability that I care for and love dearly, and as if the button were pressed again, the sound of the room clicked back on to high volume. 

I now heard the doctor again say to me, 'stay with me'...my bed was being moved again, this time down the hall towards the large Trauma Room...the physician told me I was being moved to a more facilitating room. I just smiled at him, still shaking from the medication, I said, "it's ok, the crisis has passed"...and "everything will be fine, the critical point was back there..." as I pointed to the room we had just left. He looked at me and smiled, saying, 'that's correct', but I want to keep an eye on you'. Again, hooked up in the Trauma Room to the machines...I began to relax with total confidence that I was going to be fine. I was still feeling the shakes but had total clarity of mind thru this time, and assured my daughters standing in hall, that All is well with dad. I was now in the ER for over 3 hours when I looked into the corner of the room and saw a man standing there, quietly, just watching me...when the doctor popped in again, I laughed and asked if I was the only one who could see this man?....He laughed and said, no, the man works here...we both laughed, but the potential seemed real enough to me, following the recent experiences. I explained what had happened to the doctor, and in his same coolness and respect, he just smiled at me. I stayed in the ER for several more hours and was then admitted for the night. I stayed awake for most of the night, peaceful, quiet, and in prayer to God to say thank you for giving me this choice today. I felt God smile.

 Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience:  No

Was the experience difficult to express in words?  No

At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event?  Yes

      Describe:  Anaphylactic shock, experienced for the first time in my life, was progressing rapidly while I was in the Emergency Room, my heart rate was dropping rapidly, and when it reached 30, adrenaline was used. my heart rate was dropping rapidly, and when it reached 30, adrenaline was used.

 What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience?  Fully alert and aware of all happenings, and conversational with the staff.

Was the experience dream like in any way?  The experience was in real time, throughout, no dream like feelings.oughout, no dream like feelings.

Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body?  No

What emotions did you feel during the experience?  Prior to the voice asking me 'to stay or go', I have to admit I was afraid and fully understood that I could die shortly. After the voice, all fear left me, and I felt warmth and peace. I smiled and knew that any danger had passed. afraid and fully understood that I could die shortly. After the voice, all fear left me, and I felt warmth and peace. I smiled and knew that any danger had passed.

Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises?  Yes, I heard the voice of God, or His messenger.

 Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure?  No

 Did you see a light?  No

 Did you meet or see any other beings?  No

 Did you experience a review of past events in your life?  No

 Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later?  Uncertain

 Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions?  No

 Did you have any sense of altered space or time?  No response

      Describe:  The interruption of the chaos in the room, but just the sounds of it all. real time continued. interruption of the chaos in the room, but just the sounds of it all. real time continued.

 Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose?  Yes

 Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure?  No

 Did you become aware of future events?  No

 Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body?  Yes

      Describe:  It was my choice, I didn't make it audibly, just the thoughts of my son, answered the question asked of me.

 Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  This is where it actually gets more difficult to describe. The events were clinical, outside the voice, but over time I have on occasion met people, strangers, and could tell you specific things about their life, occupation previously and location of that job. It is un-nerving to me and to them.  Also, I have found that people in general don't want to hear about this, nor discuss it, as though it is a creation of my imagination or stems from the 'dark evil side of the spirit world'. Three specific incidents have occurred and I have no control over this, nor try to do this, it just happens. Reasons, unknown. difficult to describe. The events were clinical, outside the voice, but over time I have on occasion met people, strangers, and could tell you specific things about their life, occupation previously and location of that job. It is un-nerving to me and to them.  Also, I have found that people in general don't want to hear about this, nor discuss it, as though it is a creation of my imagination or stems from the 'dark evil side of the spirit world'. Three specific incidents have occurred and I have no control over this, nor try to do this, it just happens. Reasons, unknown.

 Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  Life is short, and I believe that instead of seeing a human being having a spiritual experience, I feel that we are all spiritual beings having a human experience. There is no fear death, nor do I long or remorse the loss of others. I heard the most pleasing, considerate voice...and to describe it better, it is what Love would sound like.

 Has the experience affected your relationships?  Daily life?  Religious practices etc.?  Career choices?  I am considering a change in career after 20 years as a chef, into the ministry, if not a complete change, a hybrid if you will, of the two. I commune with God, and seek more spiritual awareness daily in my life. It is something that I have tried to suppress from my life, but now embrace it. I rarely discuss it, for it makes people uncomfortable. into the ministry, if not a complete change, a hybrid if you will, of the two. I commune with God, and seek more spiritual awareness daily in my life. It is something that I have tried to suppress from my life, but now embrace it. I rarely discuss it, for it makes people uncomfortable.

 Have you shared this experience with others?  Yes

      Describe:  Reactions are predictable....they stare at me, and then either clear their throats and change the subject, or it just gets very quiet...ironic, yes?

 What emotions did you experience following your experience?  Joy, Peace, and a strong feeling that I am Loved. Not just me, everyone is loved and watched. I am never alone.

What was the best and worst part of your experience?  The trauma of almost dying was not enjoyable, but the experience gave me more desire to make my life one of value, and service.

Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience?  I've read, following my experience, about others, and the light, and visiting passed loved ones. I understand the ability for that to happen. I also feel that they are blessed as well me, for having been thru this. We try to explain supernatural happenings with a human vocabulary...it just doesn't work. I am not any more special than anyone else, we are all the same, we are all special in God's eyes. I look forward to seeing my Saviour, Jesus Christ..and especially to hear His voice......again!

 Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience?  Yes

      Describe:  If you have read this commentary, then let me ask you....what do you think?

 Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience?  Yes

      Describe:  I can connect to the feelings of Peace/Joy and Love at anytime, thru meditation and appreciation of God's gifts to us all.

 Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience?  Yes

 Please offer any suggestions you have to improve the www.nderf.org questionnaire?  I think this questionnaire covers it. I want to say Thank You, I feel this is the only true documentation of what happened that day with me, and for whatever reason(s) it did happen, I hope it will be of some benefit..to someone..at sometime.