I was in my apartment... several friends were there... when I suddenly began to feel short of breath and warm. It was cold outside and I decided to step onto the front porch to get some air. As I stood on my front porch...I experienced my heart rate accelerate faster than I had ever felt... maybe 5 or 10 beats per second if not more... until it stopped. At that precise second, reality around me all "melted" away... the best analogy I can think of in this regard is the way the cessation of a "holo-deck" program occurs on the television series "Star Trek: The Next Generation"... except that the void I was suddenly in had no "yellow grid lines" and was immense beyond comparison.
I felt miniscule in size, and sensed immense "power" compressing all around me. As reality "melted" away, I became acutely aware that no matter how hard I tried to hang on to "reality", the power pulling me away was so immense I could not fight it in any way.
Once in the "void"... all I saw was immense blackness... although there was a "light"... the best way I could describe it would be to analogize it was like being in a giant black lit space that extended to the horizon in all directions. Beneath me the void took on a reddish hue, above me it was bluish... these hues intersecting
at the horizon.
I was pretty terrified up till that point... until I heard... well, it wasn't quite hearing... but a thought, not my own, came into my consciousness as if a command: "Choose." I am not sure exactly where my response came from either... I started repeating "My Lord Jesus Christ, My Lord Jesus Christ, My Lord Jesus Christ..." over and over again, like a mantra.
Shortly after I began to do this, I began racing forward and upward... like a plane taking off from a runway... and moving at incredible speed up into the blue. The void became narrower
and funnel- like until I hit a "wall" of energy... which I shot through head first.
As I passed through this wall, I heard a loud buzz and felt a wave of energy pass through me from head to toe... when I was completely through the wall, I "popped" back into reality and was back on my porch. My heart was beating again - at a much more normal rate - and when I looked down at myself I saw an immense aura of blue energy all around me- extending from my body for about two inches... lasted... diminishing slowly, over the next hour or so.
I went back into my apartment... I was shaking and excited and crying... my friends asked me what had happened. For a minute, the only words in my head were "My Lord Jesus Christ", "Heaven" and "Resurrection"... I exclaimed to a friend "He cradled me in his arms!!!" For days after, I felt in the best health ever.
I have since heard similar stories from two other friends, all citing the immense power they felt. surrounding them during their "experience."
I do not remember any specific information imparted to me during this experience except that I cannot help but sense I was shown something which I forgot almost immediately upon "return"... I remember trying to... remember... something just as I returned BUT it faded quickly and I cannot recall.
I feel it is appropriate to add that since I have had some verifiable "real world" strange occurrences - of what I believe are a spiritual nature- in my life... and I would be happy to discuss these via e-mail with anyone wishing to do so.
Any associated medications or substances with the potential to affect the experience: No
Was the experience difficult to express in words? No
At the time of the experience, was there an associated life threatening event? Uncertain
Describe: I 'felt' my heart stop. Can't verify this officially... as I never sought medical treatment afterwards... but that's what I felt.
What was your level of consciousness and alertness during the experience? Totally alert .
Was the experience dream like in any way? No. But SINCE, some dreams have been somewhat similar in "feel" and "flavor"... that's the best way I can describe it.
Did you experience a separation of consciousness from your body? Yes
Describe your appearance or form apart from your body: I did not see my body in the "void"... all of me... personality wise... was there... but not my body.
What emotions did you feel during the experience? Fright at first, but reassurance and intense love once I started saying "My Lord Jesus Christ" and then racing upwards into the "blue".
Did you hear any unusual sounds or noises? Yes, the buzz of the energy wall as I approached and then shot through it.
Did you pass into or through a tunnel or enclosure? Uncertain
Describe: The void narrowed and became funnel like... like a "wormhole" would be, I imagine.
Did you see a light? Uncertain
Describe: Blacklit/energy , and the reddish hue below, bluish hue above.
Did you meet or see any other beings? Uncertain
Describe: There was the thought/voice/impression that told me to "choose".
Did you experience a review of past events in your life? Uncertain
Describe: I think some understandings were passed on to me... I brought back the "thought" that my "experience" was the most basic/lowest level version of "resurrection".... nothing at all compared to the Jesus Christ version, which was total, as intense as you can get... but this was similar, somehow... only to a MUCH lesser degree.
Did you observe or hear anything regarding people or events during your experience that could be verified later? Uncertain
Describe: See above.
Did you see or visit any beautiful or otherwise distinctive locations, levels or dimensions? No response
Describe: Just the void. ( To be frank, I don't think I got very far...)
Did you have any sense of altered space or time? Yes
Did you have a sense of knowing special knowledge, universal order and/or purpose? Yes
Describe: Death is just a change. It's terrifying up to the moment... perhaps a little after... letting go...
but then you're still there, and it's just the beginning of a much bigger journey.
Furthermore, reality as we know it is an illusion, and only temporary. In that regard, human achievement is fleeting. We are all here FOR EXACTLY AND ONLY SO LONG AS GOD PLEASES>
Nothing can change that. No matter how much power you think you have, or how invincible or eternal you may think you are, you are squat compared to the immensity of the power of God.
There are many conflicting spiritual messages trying to pull us one way or the other. Unfortunately, although there is some of God's Grace in all the religions, some do have more than others - and some which purport to be true may be 99% so... but the last 1% is a subtle distortion... and 'tis this distortion which could be a pratfall for many.
God goes by many names BUT only one Truth. Be wary of the money grubbing evangelist who purports to be Christian but manifests greed. Or the Bible stomper who manifests and causes pain through intolerance. BE EQUALLY WARY, however, of the New Ager or Eastern oriented person who asserts that there is no such thing as sin or hell. From personal experience, I believe God is not merely the energy of all things (HE is that, but MUCH more also...), he is also a distinct life form and a being, with a personality. He created us and has a purpose for our existence higher than the earthly plane. The Judeo-Christian moral code cannot be lived to perfection at this level, as we are subject to material constraints... BUT the fact that we are material beings, in and of itself, is NOT justification for not striving to better ourselves morally. Karma is only part of the equation. Sometimes suffering comes our way in order that we might learn, might grow. Yin/Yang is descriptive accurately, in that there is good and bad in all things; but the goal of life is to learn how to "love" unselfishly... "Love the sinner"... so to speak, BUT "hate the sin". Heaven is as close to a universal removal of Yang energy as is possible. Hell is not punishment; it's universal law... you cannot enter heaven carrying... shall we say "above the legal limit" of Yang energy.
Be wary also of human attempts to create universal love at this level. Like an apple rotten at the core, based on human intellect, law, conventions, anything material (which IS Yang based energy)... it cannot succeed... because until cleansed of negative/material energy, it is subject to sin... which is kind've like spiritual corrosion. I wish that I could explain this more specifically... but the essence is, I believe, correct. In a nutshell... "Choose"!!!
Did you reach a boundary or limiting physical structure? Yes
Describe: The energy wall.
Did you become aware of future events? Uncertain
Describe: May have forgotten. In another, earlier experience, I was told that we were in the end times.
This was a "vision" I had about 3 years earlier... it was dreamlike and under different
circumstances... and not like an "NDE" at all.
Were you involved in or aware of a decision to return to the body? No
Describe: Except the part about "Choose"... and my repeating "My Lord Jesus Christ" in mantric fashion.
Did you have any psychic, paranormal or other special gifts following the experience you did not have prior to the experience? Uncertain
Describe: Strange things have happened... I dismissed most until this... since, I pay more attention to coincidences, etc.
and some outright strange things have happened.
(I might add, coincidence wise, that as I was writing this, at my job, a customer, glancing over my shoulder, proceeded to initiate a conversation with me and relate that he had an almost identical experience to mine!!!)
Did you have any changes of attitudes or beliefs following the experience? Yes Describe: I am actively trying to be a good person, following the example of my Lord Jesus Christ.
Has the experience affected your relationships? Daily life? Religious practices etc.? Career choices? Money and success in human terms seems much less important now... the spirit is the most important thing. Real success can only be achieved when things are done honestly, and with love.
Have you shared this experience with others? Yes
Describe: Some disbelieve... others believe. We are living in crazy times... that is how it is predicted to be.
What emotions did you experience following your experience? A sense that love is all that matters. And a resolve to turn my life around and do what is right by those I love and, moreover,
as many as I can.
What was the best and worst part of your experience? Best... the presence of Jesus Christ. Worst... the initial fear.
Is there anything else you would like to add concerning the experience? Before too, but especially since, I have noticed a pattern and coincidentally in things entering my life. Especially a certain synchronicity to books I read (they either prepare me for or on-the-heels explain to me... things I am about to go through or have just experienced in my life. What makes this strange is
how they find their way to me... i.e., fall off a library shelf in my path, random gifts form people, etc. Obviously, there is no way of verifying this scientifically... but I cannot ignore the coincidences any more... too often, too random to be random!
Has your life changed specifically as a result of your experience? Yes
Describe: See above.
Following the experience, have you had any other events in your life, medications or substances which reproduced any part of the experience? Yes
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Did the questions asked and information you provided accurately and comprehensively describe your experience? No response